emotions

Musings of a teenage romantic.

I've never really been in love

never felt that heart racing, gut wrenching, head spinning fall down the rabbit hole of emotions.

Just, just been to the edge.

Stood on the edge almost falling teetering back and forth but never truly falling.

Never truly knowing what it was all about.

Never really understanding how it affects the human mind, 

How it clouds your vision, your judgement, your entire perspective of life.

All my life the closest I've come has been the edge. 

All my life I have hoped for, longed for, tried as hard as I could to acquire the ultimate goal.

But maybe that's why it hasn't happened.

Maybe the fact that I've been trying so hard,

is why it is always just out of my grasp.

Maybe if I just went through life normally treating people like people instead of possible soulmates,

maybe that's what I'm doing wrong.

I've wanted love so badly that I've forgotten the things between.

All the things that keep people going like friendship, kindness, compassion, not romantic but just,

Comfortable.

Maybe if I accept that I don't have it it will find it's way to me.

Maybe all I need to do, is stop trying.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Hope you enjoyed, please leave a comment letting me know what you thought!

Breakup of Success

Abandoned and afraid
Scared to death I fade
Exhausted and dejected
Anxiety to be expected

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Only you know what you’ve done
My heart strings toyed for fun
Convinced you’re worth the fight
I went sleepless night after night

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Lying to my face
I thought you needed space
****, I was wrong
With him now you’re strong

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Your decision to leave
But you led me to believe
With my heart full of affection
I believed in a re-connection

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I was too naive
Blind, she won’t deceive?
But now I see the clues
Just a firework with no fuse

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Bawling for days
Alone with God I praised
A chance to be redeemed
This is what I always dreamed

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Slowly I found the sun
Finally, it begun!
A path to become a man
God laid out my plan

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Engineered to perfection
I detached no more connection
Freedom long at last
Happiness unsurpassed

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I jostled for position
Ignited with ambition
Friends, family and new dates
My single life awaits

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A 180 degree transition
Now I’m on a mission
Jubilant life grows on
New beginning, I’m a pawn

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The spring of the upswing
Soon I’ll be a king
Bitterness in the past
Surprised by this contrast

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I rose up from the dust
Like a bomb I was combust 
The fire burned inside
Leaping I found my stride 

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This poem a rendition 
Interpret with conviction
For I have found the way
Forever I will stay

 

Feelings of inexplicable change

Emotions change..

From the yearning hunger of passion's lust

To the deafening crack of ferocious thunder 

The silent act of collecting dust 

The pain of hearts once cleft asunder

"Alas! No longer!

Must I endure such wonders and conundra? 

 

 

 
Author's Notes/Comments: 

My first ever poem, what do you think? It was really fun to write.

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Six Feet of Silence

I buried my love in disbelief.

Self-Deluding with calm conviction,

Calling all cruel jests and falsehoods.

A shattered voice cracked my sanity in half.

 

I buried my love in fire.

His bones reduced to ash, carefully capped,

Handed to his mother in black.

She held the world in her arms then.

 

I buried my love in the earth.

Scattered to the seven winds among

Dappled green forest grass teeming with life.

Now, filled with death.

 

I buried my love in the ocean.

A river poured from my soul, out my door,

Salty, hot, and unceasing.

It mingled with the sea.

 

I buried my love in silence.

I made not a sound save the soft

Scuff of my boots in passing.

My heart froze in the bitter chill.

 

I buried my love in my mind.

Handling treasured memories with care,

Binding them tightly to my frozen heart.

I promised I would never forget him.

 

He smiled.

 

Fires rage.

Winds blow. 

Trees grow. 

Oceans roar. 

Hearts sing 

and all is forgiven

 

His Eyes...

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Miscellaneous

I look into eyes

that light sparks in my soul,

like the dying embers

of an untended fire.

They soothe me,

calming down the raging waters

that crest with in my soul,

They ignite me

burning their way across my flesh

and searing their memory into them.

His eyes do things,

that my mind in unfamiliar with,

he has started this revolution

That spreads like wild fire

Threatening to overthrow

the balance I have worked so hard

to achieve,

as though I am constantly

walking on eggshells,

the ones His eyes

have managed to crack....

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Something he shal never see,

only for the eyes of you and me :D

 

This is about a guy ive known for.... almost a year that sets my heart aflame. I will probably never show him this

 

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The Path of the River

I am bound again, just as they said I was
It's clear and beautiful blue hue becomes forever cloudy
A bird's chirps become distorted by the rain and thunder's cries

I walk alone the path of the river
Alone accompanied by my footprints only
Till the crow comes to bring yet another question
This I can't ignore, for the world will shiver


And the steam shall arise from my next decision
and the never's and forever's again will pour the air
I hope to hold on to whatever is left
The sun can tell another day, to become my true vision






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Ice

As cold as ice

As warm as the sun’s ray

So do my emotions differ day from day

Who will be today’s unsuspecting prey

 

His icy words are still lingering in my soul

Still making its way down to each and every bone

Scraping at the ends of my inner being

Today, my heart is frozen stiff, I simply have no feeling

 

Perhaps tomorrow it might be whole

Who knows, maybe, just maybe someone might warm my soul

 

 

Written by

Dlr

 

 

 

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Enter My Fear

All of the welcoming emotion suddenly dies.
and the darkness shrouds the land in only misery's cries.

 

Enter grief!
A timeless ocean. 
Trapped of despair, trapped without relief
Enter the moon!
Endless racing of the thoughts.
Including you alone, trapped dead inside an empty room

The dead is holding you stiff once more!
Staring into your eyes, never have you felt so gone before

The time comes again, to pit against all that is you
Will you ever find the part of you that is actually true?

Paint the sky bleak
Consider everything we cannot speak

The one painting with the sun I painted as a child is lost.
Reality has broken the barrier, this is the ultimate cost



 

To Become

Society's filled so dark
A sickness fit to last
A hasty hungry shark
A one that bites the glass

The air turns a poison mist
and the grass turns to a distant waste
A glare becomes a fist
and then a flower becomes erased