You whispered words, sweet and sincere,
Promises held, in the misty atmosphere.
I believed every vow, every line you fed,
But beneath the surface, lies lurked instead.
You painted a picture, so vivid and bright,
But shadows crept in, concealed from the light.
Your love was a facade, a delicate guise,
Leaving me stranded, beneath empty skies.
You said you loved me, with all your might,
But your words were hollow, veiled in the night.
You lied to me, but you lied to yourself too,
Leaving shattered pieces, of what we once knew.
In the echo of silence, I hear the truth ring,
The melody of deception, the song you sing.
Each whispered "I love you," now a bitter sting,
As I unravel the truth, the pain it brings.
We danced in the moonlight, lost in the trance,
But your love was a fiction, a fleeting romance.
You wore a mask, hiding secrets untold,
Leaving scars on my heart, as your lies unfold.
You said you loved me, with all your might,
But your words were hollow, veiled in the night.
You lied to me, but you lied to yourself too,
Leaving shattered pieces, of what we once knew.
I'm picking up fragments, of shattered dreams,
Torn apart by your deceitful schemes.
The love that we shared, now lost in the tide,
As I bid farewell, to the tears I've cried.
You said you loved me, with all your might,
But your words were hollow, veiled in the night.
You lied to me, but you lied to yourself too,
Leaving shattered pieces, of what we once knew.
So I'll walk away, from the echoes of lies,
Embracing the truth, beneath clear skies.
Though your love was a lie, I'll learn to forgive,
And find solace in the life, I now must live.
February 03, 2024
We exist in ennui
Lost in formulaic riddles and obstructed prose
The mind becomes a moonless night
So many thoughts and none that shine
Reflections of deflections
Loathing and Loving
And somewhere in between
Complex simplicity
We’re always wrong but we never see
We exist in ennui
Lost in formulaic riddles and obstructed prose
The mind becomes a moonless night
So many thoughts and none that shine
Filtered out and filtered new
On the outside, you can be pretty too
Stagnant and free from form
Endless trees that bear no fruit
So, you fought, so you won
But here we are again and again
Aimless and listless
Just around the corner’s edge
To the cornea's path
Blind to the smiles
That cover blind arrogance
Blind to the self-induced madness
Suffocating on the illusion of bliss
We’re always wrong but we'll never see
Hanging low, diseased and rotting
Endless shifts of celebrated nullity
We are the saviors of nothing
"It's a slow death without reason
Prolonged by human weakness"
I don't remember when
We were not divided by incompetance
So much beauty in this world destroyed
Abused, forgotten and left by the wayside
I've had hope that the future is brighter
But hope is my cognitive death
If religion and philosophy can't heal
Is there anything left?
We are grasping for a tranquility that rides the cusp of a failing species
In the mind's eye we see ourselves as heavenly, but in reality we are cosmological fiends
Burn it all down
Burn it all away
and like Rome we will fall
and like Rome we will stay
When in doubt, take a knife
Slice it across the vein along the wrist
Don't go soft, make it count
Make that shit bleed
Watch as it pours over the skin
Do you feel it?
Do you feel any different?
Probably not!
Feeling that coldness along your cheeks
That's still not enough
The tiled floor is within reach
Do you feel it?
Do you feel different?
Probably not!
The knife is still within your hand
Slide it along both your thighs
Make it bleed
Come on now
Don't be a baby
You want it to go away
You know how to do it
Not once, not twice, three times is nice
You're beginning to feel it now
All that pain is starting to ease
The wall is crumbling
The salt pouring along your lips
Yes, let it all out
If this isn't enough and you've had enough
Let the cold water cover the skin
Relax and lay back
Let it all out
Take your last breath cause it's time
Now you are going cold
Do you feel any better?
I'm sure you do
No more pain
No more complaints and disappointments
No more worries
Now just hope you end up where you want to go
I'll Be There!
i know you've been feeling sad and your almost at the end
and nothing anyone does or says helps you around the bend
so when your feeling this way and dont think anyone will care
life isnt always rosey but look behind you and i'll be there
the bad in life will make you feel like your sinking in quicksand
if you struggle too much you'll sink into the unforgiving land
but dont dispare there'll never be a time that im not aware
you'll never have to face the pain alone because ill be there
remember when your feeling blue just who'll be there for you
close your eyes and feel me holding on untill your not so blue
i will always be there for you when life you can not bare
and no matter where i hang my hat remember i'll be there!!!
zoeycup
I wish the pain would go away!
Somedays i dont feel like getting out of bed
for when i am asleep theres nothing that i dread
when i am awake time drags on thru out the day
i just wanna shout i wish the pain would go away
and i watch the words fade away like a puff of smoke
but they just gets stuck in my throat and i feel like i will choke
so i beg for the good in my life to out weigh the bad
but often i feel like no ones listening nor care that i am sad
then i think about the people in my life who are here to stay
then i smile from ear to ear knowing that the pain will go away
zoeycup
Time rides
but on wings of butterflies,
hardly noticeable
as they flit by…
from flower to flower.
underscoring the fragrant,
outlining the beautiful.
Yarrows to daylilies.
Lavender to pansies.
Goldenrods to marigolds.
supposedly impartial yet,
seemingly bestowing
just a little more
upon those most pleasing.
the unchosen only watch
with bitter, hungry eyes
that go unnoticed, unslaked
and unvisited.
Lord, I'm on my knees again
Because the worst has happened
The death of a loved one
The loss of a job
I can't pay the bills
My wife no longer loves me
So I'm here today
Before the Lord of creation
The First and Last
And perhaps the best I can say
Is a hollow hallelujah
From an empty heart
“The Lord gives, and the Lord takes away
Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
For who knows
Perhaps by my suffering
Someone else may be blessed
Someone else might have hope
Someone else might see You through me
I can't see the future
I don't know the greater plan
But I believe, but I Know
That even in the hardest of times
I can rely on You to carry me
When I fall, let me fall into Your arms
Please take this broken life
This shattered jar of clay
And shape it into the man
That You need me to be
I trust You
I love You
And because of these
I know that I'll be ok
Did you ever care?
Did you ever feel the same way?
How much of it was real?
How much f it was lies?
You must of known I cared,
You must of known how I really felt,
I wanted to make you happy,
I wanted to show you I understood,
How could you be so cruel?
How could you not see it was hurting me?
I took a chance and trusted you,
I took a chance and let you in,
You never let me in,
You never seemed to care,
How much pain does pleasure bring?
How much pleasure does pain bring?
Why didnt you stop it?
Why did you carry on?
You hurt me in ways I never knew,
You hurt me permanently,
I have scars from you,
I have scars because of you,
I gave you a second chance,
I gave you a third chance,
You chose to burn those bridges,
You chose to burn me.
I know I need to walk away,
Tell me its over even though it never began,
Remove the spell Im under,
Let me live in peace,
My heart aches at the thought of you,
Why did I fall for you?
I let you in and you shut me out,
Only there when it was convenient for you.
I told you I wont chase you forever,
One day I will give up and walk away,
No matter how great the pain,
How much I miss your touch,
The taste of you on my lips,
Your skin against mine,
Intoxicating scent of pheremones,
The adrenaline rush,
Hearts pounding and pulses thumping,
Im going to miss it all,
But most of all,
Im going to miss you.
Ego sum paenitet me dilexit vos.
You see me here, yet I am not
For I’m in your smiles, your hearts, your thoughts
Your laughs, your tears, your oldest fears
Your past, your now, your future years
Your children’s face, your elders’ grace
I live in there, that ‘always’ place
And if you took a single look
At any page within this book
Start to finish, through and through
You’d find yourself, and you, and you
For each of you has touched my life
In times of plenty, quiet, and strife
I live there still as you can see
So, all of you… is all of me
And when it’s time to leave this place
To fill this warmth with empty space
Remember, dear loved ones here
In all your hearts I’m always near
El Lugar Donde Vivo
Me ves aquí, pero no soy
Porque estoy en tus sonrisas, tus corazones, tus pensamientos
Tus risas, tus lágrimas, tus miedos más antiguos
Tu pasado, tu ahora, tus años futuros
La cara de tus hijos, la gracia de tus mayores
Vivo allí, ese lugar "siempre"
Y si echas un solo vistazo
En cualquier página de este libro
De principio a fin, y en cada palabra
Te encontrarás a ti mismo, y a ti, y a ti
Por cada uno de ustedes ha tocado mi vida
En tiempos de abundancia, tranquilidad y lucha
Vivo allí todavía como puedes ver
Entonces, todos ustedes ... son todos de mi
Y cuando es hora de dejar este lugar
Para llenar esta calidez con un espacio vacío
Recuerden, seres queridos aquí
En todos tus corazones siempre estoy cerca