When the man of the house threatens to put a leash on you,
The best step now is to see yourself out to force him to rue.
I was quite a fool,
And I regret it everyday,
My lack of fortitude,
My lack of industry,
It pains me to think of it
It's true,
This isn't something,
That has much use.
But I must let it out
Each day passes with a certain coldness,
Not a chill,
But an iceberg,
Along my spine,
Splintering out into each and every muscle,
And a heat,
Inside my chest,
Confusion in the mind,
Chaos in the body,
The worries, oh the worries.
They fill up my mind,
Taking with it all the oxygen,
It feels as though I'm going to faint,
But I somehow arrive momentarily,
At a calm,
A melancholy calm,
Somewhere,
Resting in the darkness,
There is some warmth,
Some hope,
Some Forgiveness,
It isn't strong enough to fend of the pain,
But just strong enough,
To be noticed,
And oh what a joy it is,
To feel something in me,
Somehow,
Has not given up on me,
It still cares,
Its love is unconditional,
It is beautiful,
I feel blood rush to my cheeks,
A soothing release up the back of my neck,
Thank you.
Whatever you are, holding me together,
Loving me when no one else will,
Thank you.
I will wait out this terribleness,
Until I can feel your embrace once again.
The Edge
By JFarrell
We stand here, on the edge,
What do you want to do?
Turn back and run away?
Take my hand and jump?
I leave the decision to you,
And I will be by your side.
But,
Take a moment….
Close your eyes….
Take a deep breath…
Can you hear it?
The blood rushing through your head?
That is the sound of everything.
Listen to it,
Feel it.
Badoom- whoosh, badoom-whoosh.
It pulses with your heartbeat.
That is the sound of the beginning
And the end
All of eternity
Rushing through your ears.
All that was, is
And is to come
Is in that sound.
Here,
At the edge
What do you want to do?
Take my hand
And choose.
I will never let you go.
Verse 1:
Every breath you take,
I watch you slip
Further away into death.
Are you still measuring
The tears you've shed?
Chorus:
Maybe, you wake up
Drenched in sweat.
Is your conscience
Crawling on the floor?
Are you okay?
'Cause I understand.
Verse 2:
'Cause time ticks away
At every breath you take.
No one knows your story
Or why you're here.
You'd keep walking without
A road or a choice back.
Bridge:
You are the one.
When I was wandering
Between life and death,
You held out your hands for me.
Last-Chorus:
Do you have scars?
Do you have wounds?
Are you counting the breaths you take?
You are the one.
Verse 1:
Reality scares me to death.
I'm afraid to close my eyes.
Running out of places to hide.
I''ve become a ghost in your shadow.
In your shadow, I will pray for you.
Chorus:
Time won't stop or end.
We stand united, undivided.
Just be the light
and shine hope on
Those that need it.
Verse 2:
Where did we go wrong?
What have we left behind?
Where is God now?
In your shadow,
I will just be the light.
Bridge:
These days are out numbered.
Where do we go from here?
F.E.A.R - Face Everything and Rise Or
F.E.A.R - Fear Everything and Run.
In your shadow, I will pray for you.
Last-Chorus:
T.H.I.N.K - True? Helpful (Hurtful)? Innovative? Necessary (Nice)? Kind?
We're running out of time.
In your shadow,
I will promise
To pray for you.
Into the howling dark I go.
Following a broken and lonesome road.
As I travelled on
I reached a ledge.
Down I look, only to see
the Void.
The Void was limitless.
Without a beginning or an end.
It called out to me
In the strangest of ways.
I edge closer
to get a better look.
And what did I see?
An image of all my shattered memories
and broken dreams.
The Void called out yet again.
And my mind starts to spin
as the torrent of despair starts coming in.
Slowly at first
But intensifying in it's speed.
The waves of hopelessness
closing in, crushing me.
I try and turn back the way I came.
Just to find that the road has disappeared.
Disbelief and shock are what I first felt.
Then slowly, I realized that all along I've been here.
No going back now.
So I do only what's left.
I step into the Void.
Falling beneath it's calm surface.
Never to return again.
The Wind is never too late
Minutes and hours may pool into an endless shadow clock
but She cares not for the tick tock tick tock
She has been cast into many worlds
With no hope to ever unfurl
Ravaged with unrest
We seek Her company but know not what is best
For Her
She curls Her arms in a lover's embrace
We reach out in hope
We leave with despair
To Her
we are a ghost of live's past
we are a measure of time She cannot understand
we become dust in Her shapeless lands
And yet... the Wind is never too late
She casts Her endless touch
Hoping needing yearning
She is here
She is now
She is always
(The past cannot present itself
when the future was never there)
Sadness beckons, widens, and burdens
And like a loose cannon
we shoot out into the distance
reaching out for anything
To hold
To conquer
To master
To love
But, The Wind... She knows
She is never too late
She catches our follies when we become one with the daisies
She carries our songs which blankets those worlds
She chronicles our stories and heralds them across endless sands
The Wind is here
The Wind is now
The Wind is always
For us
For Her
She smiles when there is no reason to
During serious conversations arbiratiry thoughts force her to grin
It disturbs some and is the reason for shouting and misplaced sessions of anger from most
Her mind wanders while she's focused and she accomplishes less but realizes more
She smiles when there is no reason to
The world is churning mass of self inflicted wounds and the desire for progress both at the behest and detriment of others
The news has become a cycle of psychopathic people trying to outdo each other while perpetuating a cycle of violence
She focuses on her family and friends so she smiles
She smiles when there is no reason to
She does not enjoy the company of too many people
The constant noise in parties continuously grates in her mind and gives her dehabilitating headaches
She prefer reading,studying, music which impacts meaninful emotions or passes along a poignant message
She has few friends and yet does not identify herself as accountable, far from dependable and in a state between fear of letting people down and a need for companionship
She smiles when she has no reason to
She does this because smiles attract people and the most terrifying sound she has ever heard was the sound of silence