You think I'm the one who gave up on us
But have you looked in the mirror lately?
Your reflection is faded like a ghost
Your eyes are black and your soul is empty
And you swear you're not the one
And that this argument is done
And you think I'm on the run
When, in fact, I'm fucking done with you
I'm gonna make it through
The hell you put me through
I'm gonna bury you
I am done
You think you're the one who's gonna save us
But you can't save yourself from imploding
You're swimming around in your own disgust
Your narcissistic ways are showing
And you swear you're not the one
And that this argument is done
And you think I'm on the run
When, in fact, I'm fucking done with you
I'm gonna make it through
The hell you put me through
I'm gonna bury you
I am done
Erase me
I'll erase you too
Replace me
Now I know we're through
You think you're the one who's gonna save us, but you can't save yourself
I'm fucking done with you
I'm gonna make it through
The hell you put me through
I'm gonna bury you
We are done
Aking Kaagapay
Tila siya ang babaeng parang
hangin para sa aking hininga
Dagliang ito ay mahirap makita
Magiging kasundo sa
lahat ng bagay,
para bang damit
na bumabagay
Puwede bang
isipin na si babae ay
parang isang paboritong
kanta?
Puwede rin ba na si babae ay
maging parang
mga titik sa
librong binabasa?
Kung puwede lang sana..
na ganun nga
at makakasundo
sa maraming bagay—
Matatawag si babae na
aking kaagapay—
tanging ang puso ay magsumamo
palagi raw matamis
ang "oo";
marami-rami
ang nagsasabing
kakilala ko
biglang tingin,
biglang liwanag—
mga awitin nating
nababanaag!
—kumusta ka
lahing bituin?
kay tanyag mong
piliin—
sana lang—sa
hapon na ito,
tanging ang puso
ay magsumamo
the things I will do for the past are telling
darker than darkness
I linger like things not said–
once I wrote that I wanted to know you
and now through knowing you
you are the only puzzle I will never solve–
finding the corners but
never all of them–
just searching for the dead ends,
what I think will close me in
the words I will use do not make a heaven of your body
they do not make me a martyr
they keep me in this empty space
they do not tell me I am as beautiful as I can be but
they have never told me you are not trying
the things I will do for the truth
are making me split like a parody
fight like inside my head
and all this character wants
is just to make her mine again
my body is another way to stretch my words until they break
it is something I don’t want to form until I speak it
you are everything I will lose
the end and the beginning and
the things I will do for love are sinful
scrabbling for grip
you are the only enemy I will never fight
just stand there in the ring
The hate, hate, hate
Is here to fucking stay
You're irate, irate, irate
It's time to fucking fight
Bring the fists
Leave the guns
Let's end this like men
Run full force into the gates of hell
Bring them down
To their knees
They will pay with blood
The hate, hate, hate
Is here to fucking stay
You're irate, irate, irate
It's time to fucking fight
They can beat us down
But not take our pride
We will rise again, again, again
Let the anger take hold
Bring out your demons
Bring out the pain
This world will know true justice
When they hear my name
The hate, hate, hate
Is here to fucking stay
You're irate, irate, irate
It's time to fucking fight
We beg them to stop
They laugh in our face
You wont feel the same
When you're in my place
They beg for mercy
It's one on one
Every man for himself
But we all stand together
You will fall to pieces
YOU!! WILL!! LOSE!!!
The hate, hate, hate
Is here to fucking stay
You're irate, irate, irate
It's time to fucking fight
Wow, this is the best poetry book in the world.
I love how deep it is.
That one poem is so funny my heart skipped a beat.
I couldn’t take my eyes off of the pages.
And the most amazing part is,
It sucked.
A lot.
Who were you expecting, a white knight?
I’ve heard these jokes before in checkout lanes.
And the customers in front of me never knew you existed.
I’m not that pretentious.
But you are.
I do not have double standards.
But you do.
Someone whose castle is built on mediocrity can’t scare me into hiding.
But someone else might be.
The moat is heavily guarded by trolls that can ruin their lives
If they refuse to walk on eggshells around you.
I keep pointing out your flaws
But you never even see them.
Instead, you fired a bomb into the crowd
And ecstatically handed the cannon to me.
You impersonate a traumatized child so onlookers would feel bad for you
And point their fingers at me at the drop of the hat,
Leaving me with nothing else to say in my defense.
I’m beginning to believe you love the drama more than you love your craft.
You’ve thrown burnt bridges in the wind today and I’m off to the pen,
But I’ll let you have your fun for now.
I have stowed away in the back of the truck to escape my sentence,
But I’ve come back to fight you with a rocket.
I’ve been ready for perfect storms since my old flame tried to kill himself.
And pinned the blame on me because he wanted me all to himself.
I have nothing to lose if you play the “defenseless child” act again.
You may have been one locked in a tower once upon a time.
But you grew up to be a dragon and imprisoned someone else.
It’s not my fault that you made yourself look worse.
It’s yours.
You can stop lying to me now.
I know you were never the victim.
You poor little porcupine.
It startled me that you jumped in front of a moving car.
I wish I could be there for you and help in any way I can.
But your quills pricked my heart when I gave you a hug.
I cannot pull them out or I would die.
So I had to tolerate this pain and let it suck the life out of me little by little
While I think back to when our affection for each other mended every obstacle we faced.
The future was bright for us.
You couldn’t stand by to let me sink
So you taught me to swim.
I wanted to return the favor badly.
But I didn’t know how I could, sadly.
The possibilities were endless when we spoke of our dreams.
You could picture yourself coming to my rescue and growing old with me.
You couldn’t wait to hear my voice as if your favorite show was about to air on TV.
You made every effort to show that you loved me
Even if I have nothing to give you in return except my own.
A year passed and the storm clouds were brewing.
The weather grew colder and attitudes turned sour.
I was working hard and I felt out of breath.
You were studying hard and you turned inflammable.
“Where was I when you needed me most?” you asked “calmly” one day.
“I’ve been fighting my own battles all this time.” I tell you. “Life hasn’t been kind to me lately.”
Please, please bear with me. I’m tired and I’m scared. I’m going to be left to my own devices.”
“You need to make more time for me.” You scream. “Anyone would have abandoned you ages ago”
“If you’ve been gone for as long as you did. Is several hours with me too much to ask?”
“Answer me, you ignorant, pathetic excuse of a child!!! Grow up!!!”
I couldn’t with you leeching off of my aura.
You made it seem like the world hates me now.
So I packed up my things, spread my wings, and flew off into the rain.
It doesn’t matter how badly you are suffering yourself
If the prospect that I need to take care of myself too slips your mind.
I never asked you to help me.
You did so at your own volition.
If you didn’t want to in the first place,
You could’ve answered, “No thank you.”
We could’ve gone on with our lives either way.
But here you are.
You called me immature.
You called me a teen in an adult’s body.
You said I never bothered to do my share.
But my dear porcupine, have you taken a look at yourself?
Or better yet, look in a mirror?
You don’t see the newfound greed in your heart, but I do.
The scholars in my inner circles do.
Whose leg are you trying to pull?
My loved ones know exactly what you said.
They know how selfish you’ve been acting and what I could’ve done.
If you think no one can love me the way you did, you could not be more wrong.
I can admit when I am anyway.
You went to town on me like I didn’t know how to count.
And my only response to your passionate rave was goodbye.
In the blink of an eye, you disappeared from my mind. Your quills in my heart decomposed.
It was like you were just another customer that treats cashiers like their punching bags.
I wish you the best of luck with your own hardships.
And I hope your own wounds heal entirely.
But I am done with you.
I am done letting your vitriol take up space.
I am done listening to you disguise your resentment as facts.
I am done hating myself for what our love has come to.
My love for you was just practice for the next person.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Demeter was wise to tell me to stop getting involved.
Because I discovered that what you don’t know
Was how amazing it felt to give you up and do her work
Without a care in the world. After all, you don’t know me.
Are you ready for it?
I shouldn’t have to ask you that question after all that you have done.
It would’ve been rude of me not to give you a heads-up like this.
Your reign of terror is steps closer to its endgame.
If I do not draw my sword and face the ghosts of my past, checkmate is guaranteed.
I did something bad long ago, but can you blame me?
I’m just a human being that made a mistake because I was not in the right mind.
Anguish and love do not mix because both made my life worse before.
If you respect that my situation is delicate, why do you keep poking the hornet nest?
If you crack it open and the wasps sting you so much their poison burns,
don’t be surprised if I say, “Look what you made me do.”
Your empathy is lacking so why should I care if you are put to rest the next day?
Princes don’t negotiate with paupers like me.
So it goes because fame and violence are always placed above justice and peace.
Isn’t it gorgeous to be the one in control? To run a country or a sect without a care in the world?
Doesn’t it feel amazing when your subjects obey you unconditionally as if you are an almighty god?
These questions reveal to me that aristocrats and celebrities use their authority
for insolence and seduction. No wonder we can’t have nice things.
You are not entitled to my throne even though a liar was the king of my heart before.
What was “yes” today could be “no” tomorrow so I keep fewer promises.
I’ve heard enough empty platitudes from your devotees to realize that an oath is not to be made lightly.
Anything else you want to preach about before I take the getaway car to escape additional agony?
Go ahead and dress your possessive wiles by telling me you love me
And shower me with material goods to let my guard down against my better judgment.
But when you try to use your tenderness as leverage, it is all the more reason for me to leave.
The longer I stay here, the more certain it is that my life is in danger.
My hands are tied keeping the darkness around me at bay for as long as I can.
Fortune is never on my side when I dance, but my sword will always be my partner.
Call it what you want, but the battlefield is my ballroom.
If dancing alone is the only way I can retain my individuality, so be it.
Happy Raʼs as-Sanah al-Hijrīyah, Vlad Dracula.
I’ll see you in Hell.
She gives in again
he cuts the rope shorter
I am faerie fire
I want to rage myself into a forest burn
and there are still things I can’t put into words
She gives in again
he cuts the rope shorter
I am faerie fire
I want to rage myself into a forest burn
and there are still things I can’t put into words