Battle

Running In Alone

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People

Don't Worry About It
I'll Make It By Myself
But I Honestly
I Can't Do This By Myself


Never Surrender
But Don't Give In
I'll Make It Out Alive
I'll Make It Out In One Piece


If I Forget
Then I'm Sorry
Because I Was Lost
I Was Walking In The Dark
And In The Darkness


I Found My Light
I Found You
And When I Found You
Love Engulfed The Darkness
And There Was Only Love Left


I Couldn't Have Done This
Without Your Help
I Would Rather Be With You
Because Honestly
There's No Place I'd Rather Be
I Would Snuggle You
With All Of My Heart


And If There Was Anything
I'd Give Else For This
There Wouldn't Be A Thing
Not a Single Thing
No Amount Of Money
No Amount Of Fame
Can Buy Me
This Peace Of Mind

Flow Of The Wind

  Sometimes The Wind Blows
And Sometimes It Stills The Air
I Wonder About It
If The Wind Is Silent
Are We Waiting For Something To Happen


Is There Something
To Look Forward For
Are We Looking For Him Or Her
Or Are We Simply Helpless


Sometimes You Wonder
If Its Still Worth Waiting For
And If The Wait Takes So Long
Do You Think
It Would Have
Been Worth The Wait


Because Sometimes
I'm Heavyhearted
Not Because I Don't Know
But Because Its Hard
Sometimes I Want To Give Up
But I Know I Can't Stop
And If I Fall Down
I Will Get Back Up Again

*Once Again I'm In A Losing Battle*

 

 October.20.2003

 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

 

Once again I'm in a losing battle

Lost with no place to hide

As I walk I feel my bones rattle

Once again my heart has died

These thoughts to stop I've tried

 

Day and night I just go on crying

I have no more strength

Just let me go on dying

Once again to myself I fight

To myself I keep lying

This battle of mine is so long in length

 

Truth is no one is out there 

Who will for me go that extra mile

No one for me to care

I just want this frown to go away

So I can smile 

But nothing nice people can say

 

To show I mean something

To let me know they hear

But It's just games they play

Being alone is my biggest fear

Hurt is what I feel everyday

 

God is so unfair

What is left is hatered

To my heart you bring

A lasting tear

 

No one with me 

Wants to forever be by my side

No one wants to stay

When they see me they turn around to hide

With me they don't want to be 

 

I must remain alone

Till my dying day

And my heart

It turned back to stone

No more do I care

What people have to say

Because getting close to me will anyone dare

 

Copyright

 

Hugs Give Love

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Miracles

Hugs Are Soft
Hugs Are Gentle
Hugs Make You Feel Cared For
The Softness And Gentlessness
Of Giving A Long Tight
Or A Short And Firm Hug
Makes You Feel At Home


Hugs Make You Feel Wanted
It Invites a Sense
Of Warmth Into Your Heart
And It Creates A Sense Of Caring
A Sense Of Compassion
A Sense Of Love
It Soothes Your Soul
It Calms Your Mind
Love Is Patient
And Love Is Kind


Asking Nothing More Than
Love And Caring Words
In A Simple Action
Says More Than I Love You
Feels More Than I Care About You
And Most Importantly
You Feel Loved
You Feel Cared For


Because Everyone Deserves Love
Everyone Deserves Someone
Who Loves Them Unconditionally
Everyone Deserves Someone
Who Cares About Them Whole

Tears Drop At Fall

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People

There's Things We Want
And There's Things We Need
I Don't Know Why
I Don't Know
How Many Tears
You've Got To Cry


But Why Am I So Discouraged
Why Am I So Sad
These Tears Have Flooded
The Entire Side Walk
I Am Heavily Breathing


Why Do I Feel So Heartbroken
As The Lakes Ripple
In And Out Of My Heart Beat
As The Teardrops Fall
My Hands Are Shaking
My Eyes Are Watery


Why Am I Feeling The Way
That I'm Feeling Right Now
Lost On A Road Of Solitude
I Feel Emptied Up And Used
I Am Broken And Abused


The Storm Is Raging On
And I'm Pressing Against The Wind
Why Is The Pain
Straining All Of My Energy
And As I Muster The Leftover Energy
That Keeps Me Moving On


Maybe Someday We Will Rise Above

And When That Day Comes
I Will Be Bursting Out In Tears

My Heart Will Be Glad
That The Storm Is Over
The Sun Will Shine Again
The Rainbow Will Glitter
All Across The Sky
And I Will Feel Your Love
Reign All Over My Body
My Heart Will Feel At Peace


Only Then Will I Have Known
You Have Provided
Your Have Not Forsaken Me
You Have Not Left Me
Because I Knew You Were There
With Me The Whole Time

 

 

 

Radical Light

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People

When I See Your Eyes
I Feel At Peace
And When I'm Sitting Next To You
I'm Molded In Serenity


And When I'm Laying
Right Next To You
It's Like Laying On Flowers
A Very Soft Cushion


You Surround Me In Light
You Surround Me In Victory
Many Come To Judge You
But With Your Mercy
No Amount Of Hate
Can Overcome Your Love


Day And Night
When I Groan All Day
And The Heat Suppresses
My Strength Is Evaporated
Faster Than Water In A Desert


But Here You Come
Right Next To Me
All Of My Troubles Are Gone
All Of This Pain Subsides
And I Feel At Ease


You Protect Me
From All Of The Trouble
That Comes Hunting Me Down
You Heal Me
Of All The Pain
That Comes And Goes
To Leaves Bruises And Marks


For You Are
My Place Of Hiding
You Are My Sunshine
That Provides Me Victory


Many Sorrows
Come Knocking
From The Past
But Your Love
Lasts An Eternity

If You Need Love

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People

If You Need To Feel Loved
If You Need A Hug
I'm Here For You
Because I Care About You
And If You Fall Down
I'll Be There To Lift You Up
I'll Be That One
Who Will Prevent You
From Falling
To The Same Problems Twice
Because I'll Be That One
Who Wipes Yours Tears Away
Before The Flood Comes Pouring In
Before The Tsunami Comes Crashing In
And All I Need From You
Is For You To Trust Me
That I'll Be There For You
Because If I Make A Promise
I Intended To Keep It


I See The Scars You Try To Hide
And I See The Blood
That's Leaking Out
And I Want You To Know
That I Don't Care What Caused It
I Want To Be The One
Who Stops The Bleeding
The One Who Heals
That Fragile Broken Heart
Beating Inside
And Bent Out Of Shape
I Don't Care What Shape Its In
Because I'll Love Your Heart
In Whatever Way I Need To


If You Need Me To Hold You
I'm Right Here To Hold You
And If You Need
Warm Hugs And Kisses
I'm Willing To Give You
Warm Caring Hugs And Kisses
When Ever You Need Them
Where Ever You Feel Lost
I'll Be There
To Let You Know
You're Not Alone
And That You're Right
Where You Need To Be


Because All I Want
For You To Know
Is That I'll Be There For You
I'll Be That One Person You Need
That One Person Who Makes You
Look Forward To This Upcoming Day
And See That Beating Heart
Is Making A Smile Outwards


I'll Be That One
When You Have No One Else
I'll Be The Guy
When All Other Guys
Make You Cry
All The Others
Make You Tear Up
I'll Be The One
Who Makes You Cry
Out Of Happiness
The Ones Who Makes You Smile
The One Who Brightens Your Heart
And Makes All Of The Pain
Feel Lessened Out And Of No More


All I Desire
Is For You To Be Happy
And If I Have To Break
For You To Be Happy
I'm Willing To Give It All
I'm Willing
For You
Just To Smile
I Don't Want
To See You Crying
And I Don't Want You Hurting
So I'm Giving You My Hugs
My Heart
And My Unconditional Love
So You Never Have To Feel Alone
You Never Need To Feel Uncared For
Because I Am With You
I Am Right Here For You
I'm Here To Heal You

Broken Heart Revealing

 If Only I Had Trusted You
If Only I Had Called To You First
Would This Have Happened To Me
Would This Have Changed Anything
Or Would I Still Be Looking At This Chapter


Tell Me Where You Want Me
Tell Me Where Should I Go
Because If We Only
We Could Get Rid
Of All This Pain Inside
If Only We Could
Let Go Of The Past
And Could Just
Face The Truth In Ourselves
If We Only
We Could Get Over
The Tears We've Cried
Maybe We Could Move On
And Turn Over The Stone


Pretending I'm Stronger
Than Who I Really Am
But Who Am I To Blame
Who Am I Tricking
To Thinking I'm Someone
Who I'm Really Not
And I Remember
What I Told Myself
Be Yourself
Because You Don't
Need To Pretend Anymore
You Don't Need
To Pretend At All


I Threw All
Of My Past Away
And I've Forgotten That
Kept My Heart Beating
I've Forgotten The Pain
I've Triumphed Over
I'm Feeling So Far Away
Because Everything I've Faced
Everything I've Experienced
Why Do I Make Myself Forget The Past
When I Know There's Lessons
I've Learned
And Pain I've Fought


I Can't Take It Anymore
Please Don't Forget My Dear
I've Told You To Not Forget
What I've Have Learned
I've Said I Won't Forget
What I've Have Experienced
I've Made Clear
That I Won't Leave It Behind
I Won't Leave My Heart
Beating Broken In The Dust
Because You Need To Feel It Broken
In Order For You
To Feel It Wholesome And Alive
Beating Well And Kicking It Real

 

 

Slam

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Perverse & Bazaar
My poetical rhetoric is 
like a metaphorical etiquette..
My common wealth 
is like Edison, 
with rhymes cut thick
just like beef Wellington.

A skeleton? 
Looks like I'm under your skin.
but I'm laughin, not half assin'
sassin' back with grin.
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