August.28.2002
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
When I feel down and lost
And can't find my way in the dark
All you have to do is smile
And that brightens evrything
So as your presence is around
I pray you stay with me for a very long while
To my heart a joy you always bring
When there is a storm over my head
You make the sun shine
And my soul no longer feels like lead
Now I am feeling alot better because you're mine
You take away the pain
And some how let me know everything is okay
I then have a better day
And every time happiness you bring
You are my angel by my side
You are always there when I need you
You answer all my prayers
You always guide me through
When I have a tough situation
You help me decide
You some how always keep my skies blue
God sent you to me for a reason
To make sure I make it through life
Make sure I survive
He asks you to guide me through each season
You help me stay alive
In myself and my duties
You help me believe in
With every part of my life
With your big brown eyes
They make me glad you're with me
God had sent you from the heavens skies
You've changed the way I use to be
Even though I have my days
I thank the lord above
For not taking you away from me
So this is why our safety I put in Gods hands
To protect thee
And in return he sends his love
To guide us in a better direction a better way
And for him by our side he'll always stand
Whenever we hear a church bell ringing
We'll know you are there
To protect us from harm
We hear your precious singing
We know you care
Because of you my little girl is my lucky charm
And for that reason You both will always be
My angel by my side
Copyright
Sad smiles and long nights,
No more calls, no more fights.
Walked out the door and turned off the lights.
Sit in silence and recall your bites--
I'm never right.
The smile that bursts through the clouds of pain,
Is the smile from a place of strength,
Unknown to men who have become weak,
Caudled by the world of fantasy,
It bubbles up from his well within
Like an an earthquake,
It tells the world there is something more important,
Something we need to attend to,
And something far greater than the inconveniences
That life can often dish out in it's merciless ways,
And yet, when we see the smile,
We do not recognise this,
We cannot rejoice,
We cannot appreciate,
We cannot love,
Our instinct most often sought is judgement,
Then envy.
Sad...isn't it?
8:17 PM 5/1/2013 ©
I can't focus... it's getting to me, more each day..
my thoughts stretch like clay, & unfortunately mold me, here & there..
I wish so much for you to of been able to stay.
was it really mean't to be this way..?
cause I surely feel unsatisfied..
comfort is something we all crave..
but you were like security to me, & I watched it all get ripped away..
what a waste of a night.. what a realization, I couldn't fight..
I miss you more then the depths of the ocean go deep..
some nights like this.. I have trouble trying to sleep..
we yearn, we learn.. forever burn...
tables turn..
I want to take back so much i've said..
because they were useless particles floating around in my head..
6 months pass.. everything falls to ash but the memories..
fuck me for letting other opinions get in the way of my true heart..
fuck them for denying love.. as if they really knew.
sorry I can seem like a rainbow of emotions.. or a bleak cloudy day..
but I can promise much sunshine after being drenched in such heavy rain..
will another 6 months make a difference..?
or would it just be a whole year spent needing you..
it's not like I can't live... or breathe without you..
but it's to the point I really just don't want to...
sorry about getting "distracted"..
I don't excpect you to still feel like you need me,
want, love or care about me..
though I feel all the same & even more.
this incense continues to coil... & I could watch it for hours.
as i'm thinking.. when I die.. would this all of passed right before my eyes?
I want to know that instead of sitting here, waiting..
hoping, wondering.. not knowing..
instead, I'll get to see you smile again..
that for me, would never ever be a waste of time.
at least i'd know that's what I did with my last bit of life.
I don't know if I have the power anymore to get you to laugh without trying..
or the privilege of being on your mind...
when I take my last breath, please tear this heart out of my chest..
put it in a jar.. keep it preserved.
if you go first.. i'll remember your wish, if it's still what you'd want.
i'll hold onto yours too.. even though it's no longer beating..
always I will love you.. through my hands this blood is seeping..
like treasure... from the chest.
metallic love..
The Meaning of Life
The times of youth have come and gone
so you cherish all your days.
The things we took for granted
are now viewed in special ways.
A blooming flower or budding tree
will often bring a smile...
It's those simple things in life now
that amuse us for a while.
The Geese overhead or some squirrels at play
will tend to catch our eye
These things we see now everyday...
does it make you wonder why?
From the day you are born , It's The Meaning of Life,
You seek throughout your years.
In your search for truth and knowledge
came more questions, laughter and tears.
Your emotions ran wild and your need for discovery
took you to far away places
But, The Meaning of Life, is what they all seek...
All these friends in New Lands with new faces.
The answers you'll find, are not Worlds away or
hiding in Far away Lands
The "Meaning of Life" is a simple thing
Right there in the palm of your hands.
"All the Beauty God chose to create for us
And the things we were all Blest to do"...
That's "The Meaning of Life", and You see it now...
"All These Things God Created For You!"
by Barry Anderson
by Jeph Johnson
I sat down
to describe
to the world
the gentle beauty
I saw in her smile.
but
her smile wasn't there.
It flew
somewhere
far away.
for now I see
all the world
smiling back at me,
vividly describing
the gentle beauty
I saw in her smile.