You stood in the doorway
The frame smiled
At the taste of your skin
Your hair
Longer
My eyes
Not hiding
My jealousy
Of the white soaked wood
As the deathly, Icey slices of the shattered glass fly towards my face, unzipping the skin…
I knew. They. Were. Here.
The cold sweat pours down my face as I search for a plan…
I can’t hear myself think!
The deafening sound of bullets showering on your cover
The yelling of young men
…and the last shrieks of the female nurses, who have now fallen
contributes to the foul smell
The foul smell of the empty shells where the souls lived.
“Fuck!”
My long hesitation on the battlefield has paid off…
O’, the exquisite beauty of the sharp pain
One glance down…to view the left shoulder
As the metal drowns into my flesh…
Harsh Rubber of their soles thuds
Thuds. Sound surrounds, me
Up
Only to see the points of those guns
Only to see the strings of life
Face. Me.
BANG!
-Sachi Ruaya
*Written within the time limit of 15 minutes (phew)
November.11.1997
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
Look at me
Look past the clothes
Look past the skin
Look into the soul
Tell me what you see
My heart does not play around
Hurt my feeling you made a sin
God brought us together
He is the one that found
The beautiful relationship to be
The one that will last forever
God knows it will be him
A broken heart....In pieces...Never
In this passionate love we will swim
Trueness is forever
Fate brought us to one another
Hearts intwined are even better
We will wear on us a heart to show our love
It replaces the scar-let letter
Our relationship will fit tighter then a glove
We will never neglect
True romance will reflect
Treat eachother with respect
Promise truthfully we will never part
Promise I will not get a broken heart
Look at me
I hate the way I must be
Can't you see
I liked you from the start
I would not want you to leave my sight
If we disagree
Lets not fight
Promise you'll keep away the fears
Help me with the hurt
Keep away the tears
Do not be a tease
Playing with my mind
My love is what I will freeze
Trying to hurt me is so unkind
Be sweet to me
You'll see what you find
Let our spirits free
Understanding
rearranging
Look inside
sick of paging
Hope you had not lied
Forever
Such sins
Finding out the truth I've cried
Together
It just begins
Leaving eachother
Look at me
Look beyond
Can't you believe
That we have a special bond
So I guess this means I have to leave
Copyright
like porcelain shavings
her skin began to crack
like a feather floating on thin air
she's losing strands of silken hair
the mirror spits back
all the qualities in which we lack
like needles in our eyes
poisoned with vain lies
she savored the quiet moments
devoid of conversation
the sound of still breathing
the footsteps that followed him leaving.
the closer I feel
the further you fade
the more I crave
the less you feed
so I chose not to need
a single thing..
will there ever be a solid bridge built to cross..?
a river below, to toss our fears away...
voices muffled, as she sank deeper
yet no hand reaches.
sunshine streaks through the surface
the only warmth you'll get
engulfed in cold fluids
& a heart weighed down by loves disillusions---
many reminders of what could have been..
all alone
she knew it all along..
so deep, tripping through
a vault of echoes opened by you.
your love like fine wine
one sip so sweet
my lips could never compete.
an open road, a valley
a place to let it all seep in
warm like blood & tender as your skin
heart to heart syncing in.
eyes of the moon, tranquilized
swirling like valium
an ocean of consequence, I can barely swim.
which of us took the first dive in?
i'd drown in a thousand currents to stay here, by you
to hold the hand of hope
to gaze into the truth
walking alone on the path of dreams
where maybe in the end we'll meet..
2 knives, in each side..
2 eyes burning through my heart..
empty fragments, words drifting in & out of the past
memories turn to ash as we sift them around the palms of our hands..
crippled & gone.. time to move on.
to solidify my dreams..
hate myself.. waste of space, waste of air..
I dove into hell.
God please pull me back together, stitch up these ripped seams..
you're like the blade dragged across my stomach
or the scorching flame against my bare skin...
I want you out of my life
I want you up from under this skin
demons, demons, I can't let you win..
for I am not your kin...
everthing I want, I cannot have.
all that I reach for, I cannot grab..
the rainest of days bring me back to visions i've attempted to smudge out with you..
I guess it was easier on the other end.
but who's to say where & when...
covered in blood, pushed into the mud, I will stand up again.
open scars, out of breath, I must remain relentless.
shadows chasing me, run run, but they consumed all the light..
crouched in fright, nails dug into my back
they're trying to pin down these wings...
hoping i'll never take flight.
using all my energy to break away, fight them off with all my might, all my will...
but they keep whispering "kill... kill.."
legion, you've defiled me,
for you are the fallen, in unity.
this cross lays heavy on my back..
I think i'm starting to crack.
my barriers are thin & I wish I could let God in
but there's just one set of footprints in the sand
no savior to hold my hand
freezing cold.
the ocean looks like a black hole..
if I were to set sail, how could I ever return?
i'd be spun around in circles, triangles, squares
what would I learn?
even though the sun still shines
even though some of the grass is still green
even though there are plenty of trees
I cant stop looking down.. down on me.
the hail is sharp from this dark cloud.
storm hovers above.
I try to clear it out, but I can't with no love
depleted but not empty
awakened in the midst of deep sleep
dead in this life
strife impailed
left hung, waiting to burn..
I never dug my own grave
I only ever cried to be saved.
stripping myself naked
to feel the raw, frigid air,
and touch the bitter emptiness
that trolls your heart in the darkness of despair,
your lonesome woods,
the sound of silence vexed only by
the dried leaves that crush beneath
the small of my spine, and the howling wind,
though my eyes are closed,
as i feel the heat purged from my body
as it forms the warmth of my breath,
i can see it's vapor as it drifts
into the starlit skies and eases itself
into the night air,
it reassures and validates my cognizance
that it is indeed the only thing that is mine
in this treachery that consumes us both,
as my body lies in the darkness,
shivering from the frost,
i lie fearless among the cackling racket
and ghoulish creatures of the forest,
and before long the snow begins to fall
upon me and the winds die down,
snowflakes melting on warm flesh
that blankets a smooth and shivering musculature
upon a statuesque frame,
creating a distinct and coherent harmonic logic
with each drop of water that forms,
resounding with the vibrations
of multiple interweaving melodic lines,
and its captivating enchantment awakens me
to the new day as i open my eyes to feel you,
next to me,
the sweetness of your breath upon my neck,
an intimate distance holds us together.
2:46 AM 5/3/2013 ©
cardboard memories shadows dweling in the sun..
let me touch you to know what it is to be alive..
let me feel you deep inside and surrender to you to feel that life flowing pure into your embrace..
i look to see if i live and my eyes stutter across your beautiful skin and therein lies my answer..