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You were just a beautiful illusion

A mirror image of all that I wanted

Dangerous and manipulative

My emotions couldn't keep up.

My demons were almost at bay

But you pulled them to freedom

Learning to live with them once again

Blaming you, but I let you do it.

The mystery, all that is you

Igniting something inside me

Something unknown to be

Leaving me to my own devices

Struggling to search for them.

The tools to recover

Suddenly absent they remain

Inside my brain

You, the illusion, maintained.

I've never seen an angel bleed

Till I stood with knife in hand

I've never seen a devil cry

Till I looked once through it's eyes

You were my drug

Long before I acclimated

Long before withdrawal

I needed you to survive

I can feel your eyes on my back

Can't you hear me?

I'm silent on the outside

But screaming on the inside

I'm soul-lost

I can't find who I am anymore

Maybe I'll be fine

Perhaps I will survive

But I just don't know if

I can outlast your memory

If I lose myself in drugs and dreams

Or fly away to places and things

To fill the gap you left behind

Consuming body, soul, and mind

But there is no need

To conjure dreams

When life comes

In such radiant colors

They say Pandora is to blame

Her curiosity brought us pain

And fear of darkness in the night

But there was hope in candle-light

From the dark, a light will shine

Before the day, the night has gone

And now we know it burns so fine

That is why it's called, breaking dawn.

And maybe, just maybe

That which dies gives birth to something new

13 Keys...
The Keys to Life & Death
Dare look into The Eyes of The Dragon
The flames of The Abyss purify & consume
Strike down with Death's gaze
Or filled with The Black Flame!

13 Keys of Life & Death
13 Keys of Heaven & Hell
13 Keys of Go/od & D/Evil One
13 Keys of Inferalight & Shadow
13 Keys of Love/Lust & Hate!
Almighty Sorcerer, As Above, So Below!

Take The Sulfur Key & lefturn the Locks to Hell
Forbidden Knowledge pouring forth
Occult chambers of Shadow
Possessing temple flesh!

The Arts & Sciences of The King of Hell
Worship Self & become God
Sacrifice the blinding light
On The Altar of Darkness...

13 Keys of Life & Death
13 Keys of Heaven & Hell
13 Keys of Go/od & D/Evil One
13 Keys of Inferalight & Shadow
13 Keys of Love/Lust & Hate!
Almighty Sorcerer, As Above, So Below!

Black Mass, Apotheosis of Lucifer
Blasphemy liberation
Sacrilege, unholy purification
Guilt absolution
Satan is God is Satan
Baphomet Incarnation
The All is One!
High Mass D/Evilution
Apotheosis Devil God! ∞

13 Dimensions in your mind
13 Dimensions of Hell
Plunging deeper into The Pit
Descending, floating, falling
Absorbing, projecting, into the dark
Signs, sigils, symbols infernal
Floating before The D/Evil Eye
Possessing, obsessing, haunting the brain
13 Keys to The Gates

Speak the unholy tongues
Gesticulation, genuflection
The Sulfur Key of a Thousand Young
Turning in the Trapezoidoor

Bloodmoon on the rise
Hear them lurching at The doorways's glass
13 Shadows, blackened sun
Eclipse, the face of Satan
Black fog, Lucifer's Magic
13 masks shifting by
Visions of omens manifest

13 Dimensions, timeless forever
13 Dimensions, sight & sound
13 Dimensions, multisensory deprivation/saturation
13 Dimensions, silence of the tomb

Knowledge & Wisdom of The Ages
Through The Books' passageways upon The Sinister Way
Spells of Infernalight & shadow
Omnipotence, Omniscience
Perceive & receive...
What was and is to be again! ∞

Excited, I was open to you

I was close to letting go

Stepping back, taking time to feel

I was close to letting go

You were beautiful

Honest, forward, and in control

Qualities of myself shoved away

I was connecting with you

You were bringing out a new me

I was close to letting go

Attachment, I still seemed to form

And too fast than I wished to learn

Darkness was seeping out of me

Not sure what went wrong

So I left, hanging in the balance

The story of what we could be

Though your essence is still with me

Enchanting, the thought of you

Continues to be

Did I say too much, or not enough?

That is what I have been pondering.

I cannot seem to find the answer,

Just be and let be.

That is what I know I should do.

It is a battle trying to learn how.

I try to control things too much, this I know.

But knowing sometimes isn't half the battle.

Sometimes it is much less than that.

The hurdles are big,

Might as well be mountains,

And I am out of shape.

They say we must learn to dance with our demons,

But instead I continue to fight them,

Day in and day out.

I don't cry as much as I should,

I spent my childhood repressing my emotions,

I am too good at it.

I don't even have to try and hide,

My emotions and how deep they really run,

It comes naturally.

I have to undo parts of myself,

But not sure where to start,

Just going through the motions.

I have lost interest,

In all of the thing that I once very much enjoyed,

I stand outside of my shell, looking in upon this.

Negativity always seems to be the easier road,

So I ride the edge of it,

Reaching for positivity at the same time.

One day I will find my answers, this I know,

But the mountains along the way are just so,

Goddamn intimidating.

I don't really know what I've come here to say.

I've just been feeling alone.

Alone in my internal struggle.

Battling these demons has been the hardest.

I know that we really aren't supposed to battle them,

we are supposed to learn how to dance with them.

I don't know how to do that.

They make their appearance and I just want them to go away.

I wish they didn't exist,

I didn't ask for them the reside within me,

I didn't ask for the traumas that I have experienced.

It's unfair.

Life is nothing but unfair.

But still, I try not to fall into the negativity,

the negativity of thinking that there is nothing good in the world,

the negativity of thinking that there is no way out of how I am feeling,

because this I know is not true, but

sometimes I just feel stuck.

Stuck within myself.

Not progressing,

only regressing.

That in and of itself is paralyzing.

Demons all they want is our souls, demons feed on our energy and feelings. Demons I need to get rid of them, demons I swear I can always smell them. 

Since I was young I have always seen them, every where I look there they are. Everyone I talk to here they are, everywhere I go, they just seem to follow me. 

Feeding on my thoughts, feeding on my actions. Waiting for me to give them a reaction, I try my hardest to ignore them but nothing ever happens. 

Stuck in my head that's where they are, demons always next to me they never go far. Why do they haunt me I don't yet know, I shall find out when I'm buried deep in the ground. 

I hope that day never comes, as I might even turn into one. Demons? Or maybe I'm wrong, might just be my brain imaging it all. The fear of being crazy is always there, seeing and hearing things others don't. 



I drew my magick in Arts,

In front of the altar starts

The Magick Circle around,

The Demon was abound.

He bowed over me,

"What doth thee?"

Magick on the Astral Plane,

This way invocations are safe...