Laying next to you
I just want to stare into you
Into your beautiful soul
Forever
Staying close to you
I just want to stay inside you
Yeah, until we become one
Endeavor
-I know what you want
You're all that I want
I've got all I want in you
You know what I want
I'm all that you want
You've got all you want, it's true-(chorus)
Coming up for air
I just want to breathe into you
And then I'll go back for more
Surrender
Reaching out for you
I just want to grab onto you
And I'm never letting go
So tender
I know what you want
You're all that I want
I've got all I want in you
You know what I want
I'm all that you want
You've got all you want, it's true
Rolling in the sheets, I'm lost inside of you
When I start to dream, I just envision you
I know what you want
You know what I want...
I know what you want
You're all that I want
I've got all I want in you
You know what I want
I'm all that you want
You've got all you want, it's true
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hey you
what an unfair way to play
you take all the world in a bottle
you take all the ships out to sea and rein them in
I don’t want to grow I just want to try
and it seems I can’t even do that
this is not something I want to give away
this is something that will just keep growing
but how can I bend if I’m not allowed to break
how can I be here when there is no room in me for anything but wanting
how can I be yours when I am selfishly mine
Some things hold me back
for no reasons
let my desires
no longer oscillate further
yet best of me awaits
for its momentum
No magic turns around
except my hard labor to put on
it is time to rethink
what i sow and what i reap
day in and day out
walk by no noise,
yet my goal stands
at the other ends of the bank
My sailing boat
needs a Marathon fight
in these walks of life
let my Will not join
shipwrecked fate.
I dreamed a dream of stars and light
Shining brightly in the night
But then I saw, to my surprise
That they existed in your eyes
I had an illusion of desire
It's scarlet flames were rising higher
And soon after we took flight
You quickly vanished in the night
I gained an insight of your being
Sitting, broken, hopeless-feeling
I sat next to you, contrite
To tell you it was all alright
I bear a vision, dark and deep
It has me turning in my sleep
Your memories I'll keep and keep
As I sit to sigh and weep
Sometimes
I ask myself
why I ever wanted
to resist
when you are
sitting there like that
vulnerable
begging me to
touch you taste you
and at the same time
a gate I can’t
open until I find the code
You are
lighting me up from the inside
I can’t I can’t I
am
and there we are
tangled beautiful
diving in the midnight again
pulling out the monsters from each other
letting loose the more.
You are
my own fire
born in a body
you are
staying here
until we lose track of time
you weigh
me down into this soft this need this pull
and I don’t want to
ever catch
my breath
Maybe I’ll drag my feet
along all of the glass
that cracked on the floor
the same day we shattered
Maybe I’ll smoke you out
with one bottle
or however many it takes
to strengthen gravity on my feet
till I hit the floor
Maybe I will hide these tears from you for once
because I have no right to your head
I have no right to keep you
and just because I’m blind in your sunlight
doesn’t mean you can’t still leave
I am not your first I won’t be your last I might as well be wasted
I want to pick a stranger to prove something
but it’s going to leave me faded
there are not enough pieces of me
and I can’t fool you the way I can fool myself
pretending I want anything but you
breathing in, breathing out
wanted you to figure out
I know, never remove the curtain
which was hiding all the show
some mystery, unsung story
I was right there, right now
never reflected on that side
desperate you to know
guess what, even I didn't know
how foolish, still wanted you to know
breathing in, breathing out
I know right now, I was there
desire was very simple
how foolish, to get just noticed...
Passion and love
Flows from your fingertips
Stimulating the desires
Held within my humble being
As they trace the contours
Of my wanting body
Heat builds within my soul
Whispered words of eternal devotion
Caress my ears
Images of happiness and bliss
Dance before my mind’s eye
Your loving light
Shines bright within me
Chasing away the darkness
That has hidden my heart
Your supple flesh
Now lays bare before me
Your beauty and innocence
Now fill my expectant eyes
Gone now are the bindings
That have constricted my emotions
My torment and frustration
Finally set free
Wondrous new feelings
Inhabit this lonely vessel
That manifests into a life ready to be lived
And a glorious love yet to be shared
Life is the same as yesterday, today and tomorrow. Squeezing every ounce of itself into a jar, to be compressed and stretched and strained into a cup of its own making, served as an instant hit of convenient, caffeinated consciousness. But Love does not care for the taste of Life’s bitter notes.
Then Life became livid saying, “My Love, I tire of this chase and will no longer wait! For I grow cold and restless! Must you be so chaste?!”
Softly spoken Love replies, “Are you truly living?”
To which Life responds with a lisp, “Don’t be so flippant my Love! I am served every day, for I wield great power over the many! Those lifeless, barren vessels, who by my merest breath fall prostrate, and go to and fro as mindless automations!”
“I am their first yearning at dawn! Their addiction, their religion, their lover and their mistress! I am that dirty, dark stain beneath the gloss of their white picket fences, the self-righteous stench behind the satire of their Sunday morning sermons and the fateful fall of their happily ever afters!”
“So tell me my love, if you truly are love why will you not love me!?”
Love simply speaks…”To truly live is to truly love. Life needs nothing of itself to sustain itself because when given it is not divided and it is love that makes life worth living. When life requires something outside if itself it cannot be life because it lives only for that which it seeks to possess. On the contrary, when life needs nothing other than itself it requires no other possessions and only lives to love”.
“You cannot be life for you have never truly lived, therefore how can you know love?”