Trusting His promises
believing what He says
is sometimes hard to do.
But He loves you
so trust His promises.
You can believe everything He says.
The words of the Lord are always true,
just as wet is always the morning dew.
He promises to bless those who love and serve Him.
And you, He will prune and trim
until your every limb
is weighed down with righteously pure fruit.
So, let not sin, your heart, pollute.
Trust the Lord always.
Abide in His ways.
Trusting His promises
believing what He says.
Verse 1:
G
I am the clown who juggles
G7
all my own struggles.
D
I try to find my own answers
D7
instead of seeking Yours.
C
If only I would place these
Am
problems in your hands,
C
You would give me peace.
Chorus:
D
Peace that passeth understanding
A D
comforts me when I, my blunders, bring
G D
to Christ; through Whom I can do all things,
A
For, He strengthens me. He strengthens me
G D A
and, from the chains I've placed on myself, sets me free
A D G
(and, from these self-inflicted chains, sets me free)
Verse 2:
Blindly walking the tight-rope,
I am a complete dope.
No safety net below me.
I claim to be free,
But myself, I have chained
to my own foolishness
Thus my heart is pained.
Bridge:
C
Thus my heart is pained.
G
'cause I have refrained
Dm
from truly trusting You.
C
Oh, if only I would
G G7
truly, completely trust You
C
You would give me peace
(Repeat Chorus)
A simple lie is all it took
I never gave a second look
The shit you used to bait your hook
I should have closed that goddamned book
Win or lose it doesn't matter at all
Trusting you was my biggest downfall (chorus)
I should have seen it in your eyes
It should have come as no surprise
The way your mouth spewed out those lies
The way your words cut me like knives
Win or lose it doesn't matter at all
Trusting you was my biggest downfall
No one seems to give a shit after all
Knowing you was my biggest downfall
And where did that get you now my friend?
Cast out and back out in the rain again
Win or lose it never mattered at all
Trusting you was my biggest downfall
No one ever gave a shit after all
Knowing you was my biggest downfall
12-13-22
Make new friends, but keep the old.
One is silver and the other is gold.
These are the words that my guardian angel had taught me.
After I got food poisoning from a blighted potato he enjoys.
I never liked potatoes, but I love them warm and crispy.
Goes to show that even recipes that take minuscule effort like chips and fries requires passion.
I cannot possibly give the potato another chance, now knowing that the man is a liar.
It took me a long time to realize that only I can decide the food groups that are right for me.
We humans are a complicated lot to read and decipher.
So don’t you dare compare kinships to silver and gold
Because even platonic love is the furthest thing from flawless.
And so are the guardian angel’s mischievous, yet spoiled acquaintances.
Friendships are like food from a college dining hall.
What’s on the menu is only delicious if we follow the recipes and turn up the heat.
But we must get to the cafeteria on time and grab them while they’re hot
Because they don’t taste the same if we’re served whatever’s getting cold.
Why should I believe my guardian angel’s wisdom nowadays since he has become aloof himself?
Old eating habits apparently die hard, but the same diet he practices for years is still going strong.
I used to believe that he was stuck in the middle because his acquaintances are often at war.
Now I am grateful that some of the pressure has been taken off knowing that I can’t please everyone.
I’d be a hypocrite if I said I am immune to this gluttonous misfortune myself,
But it is important to remember that life-changing desserts don’t take one day to bake.
Real gold and glistening silver always takes time and effort for Mother Nature to perfect.
When the sweets come out fresh from the oven, I also shouldn’t bite off more than I can chew.
All I ever wanted was to talk to you,
Make you laugh and smile,
I never thought I would feel this way,
Your smile is brighter than the sun,
Your hugs are warm and comforting,
Your body temperature is like magma,
I longed to make you happy,
Promised each other we would always be there,
Something stirred deep inside,
Like waking a long sleeping dragon,
Feelings started to surface,
I wouldnt let you go,
I couldnt let you go,
You felt like the night sky,
Held my heart when it was breaking,
I tried to hold yours,
Keep you happy,
You helped me heal when times were hard,
I trusted you implicitly,
I gave you all I had,
Just to make you smile,
Just to make you happy,
Just to be your friend,
Im sorry that I wasnt good enough,
Im sorry that I cared,
I hate what has become of us,
The rift in between,
I feel as far away form you as Pluto,
At the furthest orbital point,
You took my heart and broke it,
You did the one thing I asked you not to,
You burnt bridges we had built,
You destroyed my happiness,
Hurt me in ways I never thought possible,
I want to forgive you,
Because I care,
Im just not sure I can,
I let you in,
Deep inside me,
I miss your touch,
I miss the sparkle in your eyes,
I miss your smile,
I miss you,
I feel like a dying star,
Energy that has been expended too quickly,
Rapidly cooling and diminishing,
Solidifying from the outside in,
Fading from something bright,
Becoming part of the darkness,
A solid lump of nothingness.
Te Amo in Aeternum,
Because I have no choice,
Because I cant help it,
Because Im human and I hurt.
I’ve been swimming in the deep end lately.
My head is spinning in circles.
My heart had never been so hollow on the inside.
I need to catch my breath before I do anything else stupid.
My work of art is an escape from uniformity.
I felt safe with you for the time being.
At the end of the week, you cuddled me
When the sergeant had an off day at work and took it out on me.
I let you in like I did when I meet new people.
You were happy for me when I told you I finally found love.
I wanted nothing more than a friend’s reassurance that everything will be okay.
But you in particular were a land mine waiting to explode.
It’s dangerous territory where you’re from as a queer.
It’s dangerous territory where I lurk on the web.
It’s dangerous territory to build a world without receiving adequate training.
It’s dangerous territory to make friends with volatile people like you.
I can barely read script in Delphi without misinterpreting some if not most of its passages.
My art isn’t like what you’d expect to see in other do-it-yourself or high-profile projects.
The way I write, the way I archive, and the way I distribute information is my strongest suit.
There is no way I can fulfill my goal in life alone without the help of a team that knows its stuff.
You didn’t have to sugarcoat your advice to fix my problems
But you didn’t have to pull more than my teeth either.
You spoke to me as if I had to know every damn trick in the book.
You pointed out where I went wrong as if I didn’t already understand it.
I would have welcomed your advice if you watched your language.
I would have been more considerate if we joined forces as planned.
But being friendly with you in light of this is just out of question.
You can say that I’m high all you want, but it goes to show that you’re smaller than you think.
It’s dangerous territory where you’re from as a queer.
It’s dangerous territory where I lurk on the web.
It’s dangerous territory to build a world without receiving adequate training.
It’s dangerous territory to make friends with volatile people like you.
A vagabond told me this morning that I don’t learn much from success
And boy, I sure did learn a lot about your character more than what it takes to be top dog.
I might also let it slip that you exploded in my face because your little rant was all over the place.
In that case, riddle me this, who among the two of us really needs room for improvement?
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
I see her, Deceiver, a believer in Fear~
She's lonely, and owned see, a product of tempt only
Below me, faith sown deep, testing me, it grows 'neath
Untestable, blessed inall, instincts are unquestionable
Does God want me to guide her?
Or the satisfaction I provide her?
Lucifer wants me to be the divder
Rule, control, conquer and ride her
No...
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
Confident, Competent, perfect body concomitant
redeemer, I'd be her, naive demeanor
So Begiled, it's wild, her faith reconciled
Saviour! but I'd savour the Sinful Behaviour
In scarlet, a harlot, yet an innocent mess
Lost and confused in God's given test
Me, She anticipates, Looking her very best
Lust is the feeling she's willing to confess
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
I will admit
I'd try it
My blessings
won't hide it
My children
confided
I'm too blessed
So I've decided...
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
She's living in fear!
SIN!
Devil's trying to steer!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
I see her, Deceiver, a believer in Fear~
She's lonely, and owned see, a product of tempt only
Below me, faith sown deep, testing me, it grows 'neath
Untestable, blessed inall, instincts are unquestionable
Confident, Competent, perfect body concomitant
redeemer, I'd be her, naive demeanor
So Begiled, it's wild, her faith reconciled
Saviour! but I'd savour the Sinful Behaviour
In scarlet, a harlot, yet an innocent mess
Lost and confused in God's given test
Me, She anticipates, Looking her very best
Lust is the feeling she's willing to confess
Does God want me to guide her?
Or the satisfaction I provide her?
Lucifer wants me to be the divder
Rule, control, conquer and ride her
I will admit
I'd try it
My blessings
won't hide it
My children
confided
I'm too blessed
So I've decided...
No...
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
Hope is a candle in a sea of darkness, eagerly awaiting the sun.
Trust is a drop of the purest water, in an ocean full of desert sand.
Loyalty is the assurance of your own two feet, that you will stand.
Love is a bubbling geyser; filling, and rushing to overflowing.
Empathy is a mother's love, from someone that you don't know.
Peace is an ocean of glass-like water, that ripples of war cannot move.
Honesty is a pure wine, with no dregs to ruin the taste.
I have a real problem with trust
I've just been disappointed too much