Hate

*Just Disappear, Just Die*

 

 November.30.2003

 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

 

I wish you would die 

And go to hell

Everything that comes out of your mouth

I can't believe because it's just a lie

To your face I wish I could tell

"I hate you" 

Because you're to me no longer real

You are not true

And towards you nothing is what I feel

 

You try to command

But get mad when I don't obey

I don't know why you can't understand

On what I'm trying to say

For you to just shut up and listen

Is what I demand

I'm not a little girl with the shine in her eye

My eyes no longer glisten

I ask one thing of you "Just disappear, Just die"

 

In the war no longer you are

That was your past

Way back so far

So stop letting the memory last

Stop in my eyes trying to be this star

I honestly don't care

Your life I don't want to be in 

My life with you I don't want to share

Keep trying to control me and my love you won't win

 

Just disappear

The way you were brought up don't pass on to me 

I won't listen I don't care

God from his life set me free

Just die

When I'm finally rid of this prisonment

Then I will beable to happily cry

Untill then in this depression I am sent

This hatered for you I won't lie

Is beyond deep

And this passion of wanting you gone

It's hauntingly steep

 

These past couple of months

You have been doing things that make me sick 

Make me ill

I wish God could of made a better pick

But I'm stuck with you 

You think your all that and slick

Well the only thing you are is fake

No where being true

Through your heart will be a wooden stake

 

God let this ass get his own life

And leave mine alone

Because no matter what I do It's never right It's always wrong

Get it over with.... turn me to stone

So in this life here I won't spend so long

 

So get it into your mind

There is nothing you can do

Some how some way my own life I will find

So always remember when I'm gone

"I hated you"

 
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Author's Notes/Comments: 

I don't feel this way anymore. I wish we were as when I was young. Close again Frown

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*Untitled 8*

 

 September.28.2003

 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

 

I wish you would move on 

And leave me alone

I can't stand looking at your face

I can't stand the way you act in disgrace

You're not a man

You're nothing at all

So stop trying to stand tall

Like you did something great 

Because everything about you I hate

I want you to disappear

Get out of our lives

Vanish into thin air

Just don't come back here 

Your presence I can't stand being near 

Because nothing about you I care

In hell you belong

Everything about you is wrong 

So rot away

So I can live my life

My way day by day

Without stepping on eggshells

Nothing more to you I have to say

Finally off your high horse you fell

Never seeing you again I pray

 

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Author's Notes/Comments: 

I might add more to this poem. It doesn't seem finished. What do you think?

*Just Disappear*

 

 October.5.2000

 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

 

I wish you would just disappear

From my life

And never come back never reappear

I dont care how you go 

Use a pill or even a knife

 

Give me my freedom

Let me learn wrong from right 

Give me a chance

To make my own mistakes 

I really don't want to fight

Be real stop being fake

How dare you kick me out 

With just a shirt and pants

With all your yelling

There's no need to shout 

 

I hate your attitude

I hate the way you treat me 

I hate when you change your mood

Why can't you see

Your always rude

Just let me free

 

You look stupid the way you stand 

All tough and Mr. big shot

You think your the boss the man

But your ugly

Your head steamin your attitude hot 

 

Let me do what I want to do 

To go where I want to go 

To get away from you 

To see people you don't know 

 

Do me a favor

Just disappear

I don't care go away

With a stupid razor

It's your face I don't want to see

And your voice I never again want to hear

Just let me free

Don't give me that stupid stare

 

Let me be me 

You made my life rough

The world let me explore 

Why can't you see

I had enough

I don't want your attitude anymore 

 

 

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Author's Notes/Comments: 

I was mad when I wrote this. Alot was going on. I don't feel this way any more.

*Keep Your Head Up*

 

 January.4.2014/May.24.2014

 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

 

Things may look impossible

Think of the positive

Hold on the the possible

Hold onto the love

Let go of the hate

Give yourself that extra shove

To get you out of this state

That keeps you holding onto the bad

Believe in fate

Let go of being sad

Believe at any rate

 

Keep your head held high

Fight the stress

That wants you to die

Forget the mess

That makes you cry

 

Things will get better you'll see

Live the life you want

Let the worries go by

Don't let your struggles haunt

Push them away set them free

 

Keep your spirits held high

Don't waste your time on what people want

Let your strengths fly

Keep your stand let it flaunt

All you can really do is try

 

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Hard to Swallow'

Folder: 
Just a thought!

When your soul begins to shutter

and the tears run down your face,

When your heart takes on a different form

To escape your fall from grace,

The emptiness you feed upon

The hate which makes you thrive,

Seclusion soon will bury you...

                              and swallow you alive'


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Hard to Swallow'........This message brought to you by.."A.F.T.E.R"       ...Alternatives for tomorrow's epic renewal'

*Give ME Back My Heart*

March.9./March.10.1996

 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

 

Give me back my heart

I gave it to you

To take care of

Not tare it apart

I'm not someone you can push and shove

 

The pain it went through 

When you went behind my back

How could you hurt me

How could you think I wouldn't find out

You said I could believe

Well I have something to tell you

Sweetheart I already knew

 

All I want is for you to give me back my heart

Yes the one I gave to you

The one that is in a million pieces

Because of you

How stupid of me 

To think you would be true

You said I could set my worries free

 

Sometimes I cry

Because I remember our good times

Then your evil strikes me

Now my soul wants to die

Why couldn't you just let me be

 

Give me back my heart

I should of known

From the start

Only if I could of forseen the future

You took me off my gaurd

And I got thrown

 

The rumors that went around

Were they always about me 

The things about you I found

Made me see clearly

We just wasn't meant to be

My heart wasn't treated fairly

 

All of those lies you told

I would of figured it out someday

But I didn't have to wait too long

Everything came to unfold

When you were so weak

I always stayed by your side

You turned out to be a little sneak

I was the one who was always strong

The only reason I always cried

Was because I knew deep down we didn't belong

 

Give me back my heart

Take back these tears

Today is a brand new start

My heart will never hurt again

Heart broken all those years

 

I should of left you then

My love for you

You threw down the drain

Your soul was never true

You're not worth "a could of been"

 

Now it's your turn

To feel all the pain

It's your time to burn

Tears and heartbreak you will gain

 

My love for you will never be

This is why you must go away

From you I'm finally free

I no longer want to stay

 

All I want is my heart back

To stop all this pain

You're not worth it that's a fact

Baby you're done playing this game

 

Give me back my heart

And lets never try this again

Baby we're through

My life you're no longer apart

I'm no longer in love with you

 

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Shift up, Shift down

You shift up, you shift down

Once were you there,

Now hither you are

Slow moving over time,

Moving fast in instances

 

The dread falls upon

Everyone you knew

Then your still,

And everything you threw

Is but real

 

But the delight,

Brings you back to light

And then again,

You shift up, you shift down

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I Love You

She said it everyday, 

   She thought they were

   On the same page. 

 

He was there with her. 

   Two long years,

   He thought she thought the same. 

 

Even if they talked everyday, 

   Those words mean different 

   To the both of them. 

 

"I Love You" they both said. 

 

 

 

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What he's done.

He thought he's always right.

He thought he's always more important.

All he wants are his wants, 

   not mine, not ours.

 

Selfish is the correct word.

Nothing can replace him,

   But I just have to do it. 

 

I'm too attached, I'm finally admitting it.

It's scary, it's wonderful

   How funny he always makes me cry. 

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