Im hoping the pain will heal in time,
How is it only now I can tell you,
I love you,
Please dont say a word,
I know youre in love,
I know its not with me,
The truth haunts my memories,
I know its too late,
The love we had was torn in two,
I have nothing left but tears,
Those are mine you cant take them away,
Like a comet passing by,
A shooting star in the sky,
The trail of dust left behind as it flies past,
Caught in the atmosphere of a planet,
It starts to heat up and burn,
Hotter and hotter it burns,
Plummeting towards the surface,
A giant crater left from impact,
It feels like a joke,
You never seemed like you cared at all,
You let me burn,
You encouraged the heat,
I fell in love with a fantasy,
A reality that never was to be,
Broken inside and out,
I wanted to take your pain away,
But now all I want is to be gone,
Youve gone away,
Left me here i n this crater,
Broken, burnt and alone,
The worst is over now I can breathe again,
I can think of you and not hurt any more,
Everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody screams,
Eventually everybody walks away,
You take the memories we had together,
I will take the tears from the years.
Touring empty halls,
Thirst for the darkness.
The deadness staling my heart;
I have no tears to weep.
My gutted head is putting me so far away.
To keep safe from your toxins.
The poison deep, the medicine awakening.
On the hours, I need you; I was left with sour sorrow.
Borrowing from the night, I begged you for light.
Now, I am in flight.
I seen righteous, to find it within the self.
From you, I escape your tightening grip.
I tour these blank spaces,
I thirst for my Earthly medicines
My fight mode easing to allow me to rest.
I have bleed the best for you.
I have no tears left to cry.
I place all my might,
To keep us at a distance.
I burn the warm, all the pain.
I burn as my spirit rises from the cold ashes.
My eyes are dry from sorrow.
With boldness, I stand from our fall.
Broken wings like a fragmented plate.
Shattered heart, banding rings to contain the chaos.
In the gathering flames, I rise with no tears to cry.
Why do I cry alone at night
With tears of joy or pain
Or tend to sigh in loneliness
Dress guilt just like a chain?
Why weigh myself with tension
And bank on fear and stress
When I could rise or fail myself
By giving it my best?
It's not you,
It's not me,
It's not him
It's the world that has been
sucking us back in
to the dark void it's yet to fill
devouring our rainbows and
any shade and trace of light
and everything we hold dear
It's not you
It's not me
It might be
the words of a madman that
have devoured me piece by piece
ever since
until I suffocate and dissolve
into the nothingness I feel
at 3 a.m.
And I'm sorry if you knew this only now.
It's not you
It's not him
It's the constant fear
that has built a home
out of the shanties of my heart
Pulling the strings,
the triggers
on its whim
And I'm sorry but it's already won the war, I believe
It's not you
It's not me
It's not him
It's the inevitability I cannot escape
And so in silence, I shall
roam this world and carry
the memories of us,
your buzzcut and my smile,
and the glow I basked on with
in that April afternoon.
Forget about me.
I have wasted
My time
My energy
My breath on you
I have gotten
Nothing
Emptiness
Loneliness from you
You have fooled me
Put a veil over my eyes
Tricked me
Into loving you
You have taken, everything
My heart
My body
My mind from me
Yet
I love you
I crave you
I yearn for you
Where is there reason,
When love is involved?
Where is reality,
When emotions run wild?
I would ask
But there is no answer
You leave me in silence
To stand on my own
I long to crumble
Fall into pieces
Cry to the heavens
Cry out to you
Never will you be
Mine own heart
Mine own soul
Or any part
Of mine own being
So… let me go
Set me free
Open your palms
And release me
Please...
“Her Glacier”
Laying down on the shattered glass
I breathe in the shards
Letting the seeping blood drip
DRIP...DROP…
The ripples resonate and echo,
On the disheartened, crying ice
Eyes… dropping… crystals
Covered my saddened heart
Who, I scream a silent, dry scream,
as if I am in space, underwater
To my weeping eyes, “I am sorry for the wasted tears.”
I whisper to the silence, with my vivid vision
The vivid vision blurred by the saltwater tears
Can only see the back of the person I loved
FADE…into the mist of tears
The ice that weeps with me, from my ripped feet,
Shatters as I am taken to the abyss…
The very abyss of my own heart
I, slowly taken down, down…as I struggle against,
Against the deathly, cold water
As the rose thorns grasp my feet…they take me
To pitch-dark black,
Further…deeper…deeper
To the prison I made myself
Here at the ocean floor,
The place that is made out of my own tears
I wait…where the ashes remain
As I hope the pressure of the seven seas
Of my own heart, turns me into diamonds
The other part of me, who lives much above me
Where the snow punches your ragged skin,
In the heart of the land of fire and ice,
Awaits, in the concave of a glacier…
Aimlessly around the blue glass tsunami,
Breathing in the untainted, crisp cool air
Eyes floating aimlessly
Eyes twinkling endlessly
This slow walking giant, taking centuries for each step
Covers the land with its azure ice like a blanket
Treading on the works of any weathering
Glitters with streaks of endless blue…
O’ the beauty of the blue streaks!
Each a different shade,
Describes the indescribable
His exquisite beauty,
Walls as waves and ripples
Of water that has been frozen in time
Forms those very streaks!
Sapphire, Tiffany, Sky, Zaffre, Royal, Navy, Azure and Midnight blue
In bliss…all dancing merrily in this very cave
…an ultimate Eternal Dance
She, white light, origin of the viva Earth
Smiles through His crystal
Giving colour and light to His life
Givin’ His form…the Blue Crystal Tsunami.
Romance, like lovers, waltzing
even if one of them…will not make it ‘till the end
even if one of them…is slowly killing the other
She, who gives beauty to the giant
I, who lives way below them,
cannot compete…
A warm-blooded creature of the land…
It, who decides to wander inside…
runs Its hands on the mosaic of blue
To It, the ice seems to glide
As the twinkling light of the crystal cave winks…
Picturing the two together…
Below the glacier " inside the very cave- lays a beach
Crystal…His…Tears
O’ the beach of his tears…when he weeps with me
Slowly melting away
Either way,
His blue is much apart from mine,
Sleeplessly, I lay down on the shattered glass
Endlessly, breathing in the stabbing shards
As I accept my fate…way below Him
“Him.” “Blue Glass Tsunami” = Vatnajökull glacier cave, Iceland
“The Land of Fire and Ice” = Iceland. Iceland is known to have volcanoes next to glaciers.
“White light, Origin of the viva Earth” “She” = Sun
“Beach of his tears” = A ‘beach’ located in the cave itself. The sand is made out of ‘crystal’.
“A warm-blooded creature of the land” = A person. Human
“Pictures them together” = Takes a picture of the cave with a camera
“Even if one of them…is slowly killing the other” = The sun is melting the ice
“I” = A landform that sunk to the bottom of the sea, just below the cave. (i.e. ‘the third wheel’)
“…and here I wait. For her glacier. Who I knew will never come”
Who I am
As you can see I am only me it's who I am and all I'll be
And specials the one thing the world will never see
It makes my family and friends sad when myself I'll slam
But I'll never lie about what I do it's just me and who I am
I have to be perfect for them to see beyond the cover and take a look
And see that there's more to me then the cover of that ugly book
Ive come to realize I'll never have the life I deserve cuz I'm just an ugly lamb
They never look beyond that cover and don't ever see just who I am
My pages are thick and not real thin so no one will turn that first page
They ignore my feelings and never see the walls I've built just like a cage
to protect me from the hurt i feel and the tears I've shed I've built a dam
But forever will i know the truth about me and will always know it's who I am
zoeycup
Read my tears
Before my lips
Cause it always come first