I can see
It took me forty years and one month to see
Forty years and one month, having my soul wrestle inside of me
Screaming, clawing its way out in hope of someone to see me
But all this time, it was I that needed to see
I can see
I don’t question if anyone can see me
I now have crystal clear clarity in me
I can see
Sunny blue skies
Birds chirping, singing, happy cries
Echoing the joyful awakening of earth’s arise
Thinking that I could see through clear skies were all lies
It’s only in the darkest days of one’s life when one can see brightly
The darkest, most morbid hours gives one the utmost clarity
A thousand reasons to not want to be
And only three compassionate miracles that it took for me to see
I am blessed until eternity
I have no money to feed me, but food in my tummy daily
I am ill and lately very sleepy, and no money to cure me
But one compassionate soul, helped and healed me
The harder I try, the harder I fall
Endless efforts, just wasting it all
I now crawl
An endless battle, I’ll never have it all
But blessed I truly am
I can see
There are angels guarding me
Unexpected true friendships, dearest souls standing by me suddenly
In the darkest of hours, it’s then when you can see
It is but only then when you see true friends who are meant to be
Only then when you see all your blessings truly, your earthly angels clearly
When tears of joy stream down your face from receiving love and compassion unexpectedly
I can see
I am
I have been
And I will be blessed till eternity
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Dlr
February.21.2013
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
Darling I hope you can see
We are perfectly matched
We are meant to be
A rare love here is hatched
We are meant to take care of each other
Protect from evil protect from harm
Promise our hearts won't be stolen from one another
You are my lucky charm
I hope you can see
We help each other defeat our fear
We help our hearts bleed
I miss you when you are not here
Your touch to comfort me is what I need
Wondering if your thinking of me
When you are away
Wishing this wrong in my head
Would leave for another day
Wishing this ache from me would be free
I hope you can see
On how much and how deeply I love you
I hope everything I say you believe
Praying your not interested in someone else
Please tell me it isn't true
No one else will understand
How inside your mind
Constant love is in demand
And that your one of a kind
And at times you need me to hold your hand
No one else but me can do this for you
Next to you is where I stand
Someone so true
I don't know what else to say
But to keep this love strong
Anything that'll help I'll do
Being together isn't at all wrong
I want to keep me within your heart another day
And let you know my love is 100% true
We won't have it any other way
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October.30.2000 6-6:40pm
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
It's a tear drop no one can hear
A cry so silent only she can feel
This pain is getting stronger
This is what she feared
But now if anyone tried It's too deep to heal
She doesn't have the strength to go on any longer
It's a silent cry
No one must find out about the pain in her heart
That sooner or later she knows she'll die
No one wants to know she's falling apart
She knows no one will for her care
So she lets the tear fall
And sits on the bed to stare
At the blank painted wall
Thinking to herself "This isn't fair."
Thinking and wondering if anyone would notice
If she was gone
If she disappears
Trying to figure out where she belongs
Wondering then would anyone hear her tears
Or would for every a silent cry be by her side
Would it be there forever
All she can do is sit in her room and hide
Not a person who shows they want her to stay
Or with her they want to be together
Or to let people see
To share their life with her another day
And to show that she can set the silent cry free
She wants to let this silent cry go away
To not have to worry
If she'll live for another day
To everyone she doesn't want to be the main story
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January.4.2014/May.24.2014
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
Things may look impossible
Think of the positive
Hold on the the possible
Hold onto the love
Let go of the hate
Give yourself that extra shove
To get you out of this state
That keeps you holding onto the bad
Believe in fate
Let go of being sad
Believe at any rate
Keep your head held high
Fight the stress
That wants you to die
Forget the mess
That makes you cry
Things will get better you'll see
Live the life you want
Let the worries go by
Don't let your struggles haunt
Push them away set them free
Keep your spirits held high
Don't waste your time on what people want
Let your strengths fly
Keep your stand let it flaunt
All you can really do is try
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February.14.2007/June.21.2014
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
I pray to God above
Just for one more day everyday with you
For I am blessed with the love
Sent by the one that's true
Sometimes I'm left with nothing to say
Because I no longer can find the words
I am thankful to have found someone
To take care of me and to repair my heart
To enjoy each days fun
It's like my wish come true
Right from the start
When I wished on that lucky star
Let God be my witness
My days when I'm with you
From my heart you're not far
My life is no longer blue
My heart sings of joy and happiness
To beable to spend one more day
To be by your side
Through our ups and downs
For our tears when we cried
For when we asked for forgiveness
And when we wore so many frowns
For when we made up after sadness
I thank the lord above for our happiness
It would mean the world to me
To just have one more day
Before I have to set you free
Just that one more day makes a difference
To have a special day to be
A great romance
God didn't take you from me
I get to have my one more day
My love for you God made me see
I'll always love you is what i have to say
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the girl that i see 2015
I look in the mirror every morning and see
a stranger standing there staring back at me
thinking back into her past of un-wanted pain
see's the unshed tears on her cheeks again
the doors in her mind are closed and locked
from the little girl who's childhood was mocked
she knew that her innocence was never meant to be
her reflection shows anguish from the girl that i see
she buried those nightmares inside that locked door
with past demons she doesn't want to see any more
she wonders what if i unlock all those ghosts
but wont ever do that for fear she'll be toast
those things all locked up forever will be
unspoken memories from the girl that i see
August-30-3013
Trisha M. Barrek-Hopkins
On a Clear snowy night
In the middle of the falling snow
I promise not to leave your sight
I will stick by your side until it is your time to go
My tears my love are so hard to hide
But I know it would be cruel to keep you as you are
It would be selfish to ask you to fight the pain you are feeling
Soon my darling you'll begin healing
I understand you'll always be near never to far
You whisper to me you see this beautiful light you see your angel above
So calming so warm peaceful white
An Enchanted whisper I can hear from your love
It will stick with me in my heart always
As i lean in to comfort you i know you're on your way
Because your last breath i feel
My last tear drop falls onto your head
I still can't believe this is real
I no longer feel your heartbeat I now know i must go on without you
You are now in the embrace of your angel
And left behind is your lifeless body at my feet
I look above me I feel a small snowflake fall on my nose
From the pain my sweet
You are finally free
Again your enchanted whisper I can hear
"My love our souls are still together
Just like from the start
So please live your life before again we meet
Remember we are never truly apart"
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September-28-2000
Trisha M. Barrek Hopkins
As the land beneath me disappears
And all that is left is space
I start to ask myself if anyone really cares
I cant help but to beat myself at my own race
Its not that the pain
Hurts deep inside
Its not because I'm just ordinary and plain
I mean i have nothing sinful to hide
I just would like people to see
That i need healing
From all the memories that haunt behind me
From someone loving i just want to experience that tender feeling
I don't want to remain as i be
I want to start in "believing"
I want to know how to fly
Escape these Broken wings
That i have had for so long
No more tears i want to cry
I want to be happy and strong
I want to enjoy the bird as she sings
I want to get through the past
Be able to look onto the future
I want a love that will last
I don't want to feel the pain of a broken wing
I don't want the pain of a broken heart
I want to move on and be happy again
My pain full past from it i want to part
I want this pain to be a "finally ending" thing
And for God to bring me that angel he's suppose to send
A everlasting love he's suppose to bring
To protect me as I'm on my way
To guide me through the dark to the light
To wake up fresh everyday
To always be cheery and bright
I no longer want to be bothered by a broken wing
I want to be free to fly
I want a silver protecting ring
I no longer want to cry
Out loud i want to sing
I no longer want to Die
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October.20.2000
Trisha M Barrek Hopkins
To look through a birds eye
A glorious sight it has to be
All the people it sees as it flies by
I'' always wonder what they see
I try to be in a birds webbed feet
To meet the people and animals they met
I think it would be awesome and neat
It's like they already have their life planned...all set
They get to travel all over the world
Without paying a fee
Meet new faces
Sometimes when I see them up there I wish it were me
To see a great distance...new places
To look through a birds eyes
The freedom they have I can never get
I just want to learn how to fly
It would be wonderful I bet
To look through a birds eyes
Would be a blessing in disguise
To look through a birds eyes
Would be definitely a blessing come true
I want to experience the feeling....just one try
I want to be surrounded by the skies crystal blue
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