tears

Never Mess With My Spirit

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Bro If You Wanna Go
You Better Take Another Look
Cause If What You See
Isn't Enough To Convince You
Then You Better Change Things Up

 

I'm Not Using My Strength
For Reasons To Beat Others
Or To Put Other People Down
I Use It To Protect The People I Love

 

But When You Cross The Line Of My Spirit
And You Start Hurting My People
You Go And You Break Their Hearts
And You Hurt Their Feelings

 

I Will Throw The Fight To You
So You Better Bring Your Flame On
Cause I'm Rocking This Collage
To Get Some Sense Into You

 

No You Ain't Gonna Touch Me
You Try To Throw A Punch At Me
You Gonna Find A Crack In Your Arm
Fierce Knee To The Chest
And A Crushed Face To The Ground

Breathe Into Life

Erasing The Clock
Turn The Knob
Feels Like No More Scars
Why Can't I Recognize Anymore
Can't I See I Can't Do This Alone
Why Do I Remind Myself
I'm Fighting This Alone
I'll Take A Stab At The Problem

 

One More Time
Because I Know I Won't Turn Away
Heart Attack In A Shell
Feels Like A Bruise On My Knee
Why'd I Do That Again
Can't Always Keep Looking Down
Just Lift My Head Into The Sky
You're Giving Me A Headache
My Hearts Beating
Like A Broken Radio
One More Time
I Just Need To
Look At The Clouds

 

The Lights Are Fading
Because Times Are Changing
Why Can't I Pick Up These Pieces
Because I've Seen Enough
Why Can't I Ever Stop
As I Feel My Soul Is Going Overdrive
Before I Enter The Twilight
Why Do You Strip Me
Excuse Me Of My Abnormality
Of Course Its Brutality
Can't You Understand The Morality

 

Its In Your Mind
Its In Your Spirit
Help Is Just A Prayer Away
Just Kneel And Pray Away

What It Used To Be

Oh Let The Sky Hit The Fire In The Moonlight
I'm On The Deep Level With Love
But I Can't Let You Off The Chase
Cause I'm In A Race To The Sky
Trying To Make Peace Here And All
I'm Sorry If I'm A Disgrace
But Since I Was Forgiven

 

I Can't Seem To Forget
How You Saved Me
How It Seemed To Be
Oh How It Used To Be
With One Cross And Three Nails
Oh How Was I Was Forgiven

 

The Scars The Used Te Cut Me
The Pain That Used To Drown Me
The Strain That Used To Ache Me
I Used To Think How You Cared About Me
Oh How You Used Words To Control Me

 

Because Love Broke My Heart
It Broke It Wide Open
It Broke My Feelings
Torn My Emotions To Pieces

 

But When I Feel Defeated
And When I Hear You Speak
I Feel Enlightened
It Gives Me Peace
It Soothes My Soul
Provides Me Shelter
Keeps Me Calm

 

Because I Know Who Cares About Me
I Know Who Loves Me Unconditionally
No Matter What I've Done
No Matter How Bad I've Been
The Things I've Done
The Word's I've Said
Thank Goodness I'm Forgiven

All I Gotta Do

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Miracles

Some Days Life Feels Just Perfect
Other Days It Feels It Ain't Working
When My Faith Is Getting Weak
And I'm Falling On My Knees
But Here I Am, Once Again

 

Cause I Know It's Going To Be Alright
It's Going To Be Bright Again
One More Time I Feel The Pain Running Up
But Because I Know God Is On My Side
All I Gotta Do Is Shake It Off
Because I Know, I Just Know
That God Is Always With Me

 

When The Darkest Hours Come Before Me
When The Sky Turns Darker Than Black
I Know It Kinda Scares Me
And I Know It'll Follow Me
I'm At War With The World
Cause They're Trying To Pull Me Into The Dark
Trying To Crush Me Beneath The Rock
But All I Gotta Do
All I Know I Need To Do
Is Drop On My Knees And Pray

 

Some Say That Being On Your Knees Is Weak
Some Say That Its The Most Vulnerable Position
But I Say Its Knowing Who Holds The Future
Being So Bold In Character
What Makes Him Trust In This Person
What Makes Him Have Courage In This

 

I Don't Know What I Can Tell You
Maybe Its The Things You Experience
The Pain And Sorrow You Feel Growing Up
The Hurt And Stress That Kick You To The Ground
But All I Gotta Do Is Tell You To Not Give Up

 

Don't Give In To What They Say
Sure You May Be Different From Them
Sure You Might Look Different From Them
But You Are Unique Just The Way You Are
Don't Let Them Tell You Otherwise

Scar On My Soul

When Fear Comes Rushing In
And The Knife Comes Spilling Out
Out Through Your Skin
And Onto The Ground
You See The Blood Rushing Out
You Can Feel The Rain Fill In
Can You Feel The Scars That Push Out
That Spans Across The Space

 

It Cut So Deep You Can't Erase
Trying To Not Make It Show
Trying To Not Be Scared
But How Am I Going To Make It

 

My Soul Will Not Crushed
Yes I've Got Broken Wings
And When I'm On My Way Down
And I'm Losing All Hope
Just Grab Me By The Arms
And Rest Me Upon The Hug

 

I've Been Crushed And I've Been Saved
Walking Around This Earth
I Know I Can't Erase The Things I've Done
I Know I Can Make The Best Of This
I Will  Stand My Ground And I'll Get Back Up
But I Still Can't Find A Way

 

Tell Me What I've Done
Write It All Down
Show Me The Mistakes
I'll Never Give Up
You Gave Me A Promise
I Won't Give Up

 

I Know I'm Tired
And I Can't Stand
But Time Will Heal My Soul
These Scars Can't Stop Me For Forever
Because I Will Hold On To This Hope

 

You Gave Me A Promise
You Gave Me The Hope
You Gave Me A Light
You Gave Me Something To Believe
You Called Out To Me
You Reached Out To Me

 

And Even If I'm Closing In
And I'm Losing It
I Will Hold On To You
And I Will Keep Moving Along

Lost to Sea

light a fire just to watch it burn
Sit across the street with empty hands
Behind a tree unnoticed, so it's not my turn 
I have infinite thoughts, but empty plans

Ending up only to be pretty hollow
Ideas only stay for portion of a second
Echoing through the empty walls. and then comes nothing
Diffusing into the air, to become a forgotten particle
and nothing comes to follow


To set the ominous breeze,
Over the most vibrant sea, that suddenly lost color
and the skies are now gone and dull
They paint the picture to not excite, but simply appease


To be trapped inside this now and empty void
With nothing but everything destroyed
To say that we are fine, and simply avoid
Now we sail, swift onto the large sea of contradictions
Too lost within, that we forget our own convictions
Letting loose the anchor of anxiety, and thus become the restrictions

 

But this is not the end,
A man aboard throws over his only friend
And a storm rolls in, and then our destination is not known
As realization becomes the new sun, and hearts are turned to stone
A daughter now deserted by her parents is overwhelmed in strife
She whimpers, but can not help wonder what makes up this sickly life
A world where people phase in, and phase out
and thoughts become ideas, and ideas become a shout
and how long does a day go on to stay out and last,
Before awesome expectations become invisible, straight into the past?

 

Will the ship find it's way to land, or sink in despair?
Great ideas no match for the roaring waves of Negativity and ignorance?
Those striving so long for a real sun, to only be in vain, deprived?
And those hopelessly waiting for relief, to be cruelly concealed, unaware?

 

The masterpiece of a book now weathered to nothing but scribbles
A great idea now hidden and destroyed by life's cruel riddles
Will the hands be strong at ease to create another inspiration?

Or will it fail to swim over the simplest waves and forget it's own foundation?






Blues For My Man

 
 
I don’t wear
A gardenia in my hair.
But baby,
I still sing the blues.
Thank you for the heartache,
And a special thanks, for the attitude.
 
When you first laid eyes on me
You were like Billie Dee
(And I Miss Ross)
Swooning for your dizzy charms
So thank you for that sweet gesture.
(short and sweet)
And thank you very much for my song.
 
How could I ever resist,
Your honey suckle kiss,
Tumbling down my bare spine?
(you know I loved it when you kissed me there)
Baby, thank you for those tears I cried.
And thank you for the dry bitter wine.
 
Good morning heartache
Hear I go again
Good morning heartache
Can’t no other song spin
 
 
Me and Billy got this thing
And it’s more than the swing that I do when I hear her croon.
“I cried for you” She sings!
And baby,
I cry for you.
 
 
Finally someone gave me something to pout about,
Something to shout about
Something to wail out loud about!
 
You put the b flat
In my tune
So thank you for the heartache,
 Yes, I thank you for the heartache!
I said, I love you for the heartache!
And a special thanks for my new attitude.
 
 
Can’t you hear me singing the blues?
All of me
Singing the blues,
Why not take all of me
Singing the blues?
Can’t you see
Blue.
I’m no good without you…?
 
 
By Ayesha K. Faines Copyright 2010

Sugar and Cyanide

Feeling alive,

sugar and cyanide,

bursting into flames,

thoughts twinkle

and teeter on the edge,

crashing all the walls down,

collages formed,

pictures of us catch

fire,

faults start to form,

appears like cracks in mirrors,

screams scorch anything

you every said,

the I love you's,

the I will be there,

was lies,

not taking it I

try to stop the tapes,

try to stop

the memories,

pressing stop

I take out the film,

wanting the end

I cuddle up to you,

looking into your black eyes,

I take out a match,

igniting the spark I light your body on fire,

not even feeling I walk away without

looking back,

no more of the I love you again,

grow up,

when a heart

break it never breaks even,

never do a women wrong,

don't play with fire if you can't

 

handle the bright fire

Then I met “Me”

 

I have been building my place of hiding, my shell, since I was born,

At first the sole purpose was purely for safety from a possible storm

But as years progressed, my shell became tattered and torn,

So, I rebuilt my shell so indestructibly that it can always be worn

 

I was always “me”, but never for the world to see

My shell became my permanent home, where I found my safety

My tears were always my own, never to be spilt or shown to anyone not even me

Decades later, I came to realize that I’ve hidden “me” so deeply that I lost my very own identity

 

“Who am I?”

“Who am I supposed to be?”

“Panic stricken! I might as well not be…..”

I Raced my car, aimed - just so that I could “accidently” crash into a tree..

But then……, I met the “one” and I met “me”

 

A Total stranger whom I met coincidentally,

Who uttered only a few harsh words, and ended with a cold glance.

A man who stabbed my soul so intense and deeply without even giving me a chance

Little did he know, that he would be the one who brings me back to reality

 

 

 

 

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