I wish you understood that
the storm in my eyes is not meant to
strike down your branches but i just have trouble
holding the flood above my palpebral dam and
concealing the darkening and contorted surface of my planet
I wish you understood that
the aftermath was never yours to
rummage through and salvage but instead a mess you
must learn to see from your view and
still hold all the bits and pieces in your arms and call it your daughter
There was a time I would get upset
when I was your second choice. . .
Now I wish I was.
Oh how I long for that morning,
Of bitter aftertaste and scowling eyes,
Empty promises and separate sheets,
Laid bare among that ripened taste,
Of fruit that juices fall,
Like lemons from adamantine times,
Love holds me captive again,
As I tremble,
With bittersweet longing.
sitting here by myself dont know where to look
sitting here wondering thoughts,no attention to read a book
sitting watch 4 walls closing in
wondering if i fall and bin
life passes me by
as i sit here and slowly die
wondering if love will come again
been 3 years and still nothing
the only one who keeps me going is my son
who loves his life and cherishes every moment
alone with no companion
with no
no
sight
of what
will
happen.
to
my
life
If only she knew how I think often where she rests. Hoping she's always in great health and protected through this troublesome world.
If only she knew how I go from a frown to a smile with the sound of your voice. How I am always happy to hear her talk about anything that comes to mind.
If only she knew how I often have these uncontrollable feelings inside.
If only she knew how much I have developed to care for her because she accepted my request online. How I gotten to know more about her little each time we connect. How I wish I could see her one day in life.
If only she knew that I care for her because she's a life that is special. She has a spirit that makes her glow.
If only she knew how often I am sadden whenever we talk and she must go. How I speak of her beauty and courageous ways. How one woman could have this type of effect on a man a great distance away.
If only she knew that there are still good people in the world.
If only she knew that I would give up my world to live and learn from hers.
If only she knew I felt much better in life since I first gotten to know her.
I need a sign,
today, maybe tomorrow
and Ill be there
I know i ask too much
I just need your touch
I’m true to you, and it wont fade
not tonight, not in my reality
what more will a sign do for me
what more can i ask of it
Is there something left of us
tell me yes, and i will profess
my fate gloom’s upon it
but yet i seek it none the less
I discover a grey outlook changes nothing
no frown makes me need you less than before
I’m still here transfixed
I’ll die like those from before
hoping till the last moment
for something more
e.a.
Love Broken
From the moment we spoke my guarded heart was broken
in a sense of relief not pain you broke down
every wall, barrier, thanks for releasing my soul
I was no longer a carrier
of pain that is..you made me feel butterflies again
drifting through the air without a care you eased my soul
from the moment we connected my heart was directed to heal,
feel warmth again... perhaps love was to come but at this moment
the knot was UN-tied..you laid along my shadow as a
protector yet, you were so gently kind
you brought me out of the darkness and quenched my light
to my surprise my soul took flight and you captured me
in a place where heaven and earth meet..again
from the moment we spoke my guarded heart was no longer broken
every wall, barrier, was gone thanks for releasing my soul.
Lovepebbles}}}
I close my eyes what do I see
Fire, burning away all my memories
Making tears spring to my eyes.
Hoping it was just dream
Only to open my eyes
See the remains
What is left?
Barely anything, but burnt wood
Of a house that meant everything
Where do we stand now?
With but the clothes on our backs
Maybe it was sign
But we barely got out alive
The memories have been consumed
By the hellish fire
I can still feel heat
As I stood there, there was no time to save,
It was all at loss,
I watched
Everything of mine getting burned away