I took a shot in the dark
And Missed
But next time I'm gonna learn my lesson,
Next time I'm gonna
Turn the light on,
And then shoot you in the face.
December.21.2000
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
As beautiful as a blooming rose
My love for you is never dying
I admire your perfect pose
Your soft touch sends me flying
I wish you can live forever
But like all things they must die
Just remember my love we'll always be together
So until I meet you again
I'll try not to cry
For you will always remain in my heart
And you only hold part of that special place
We will never really part
I will never forget your precious face
God will yet again let us meet
He will yet again let us hold eachothers hand
Next to me will always be your seat
But God is the only one in demand
But unless fate kicks in
We'll be back together sooner then you think
Then it won't be up to him
We might be apart of some link
But for now I must let you go
But please know I'll always be thinking of you
Baby I don't want anyone else
That I hope you know
Because you were the only one to my heart
That was true
Love you always
I'll remember you gladly
I'll remember the bright and sunny days
In love with you I was madly
Copyright
Bound by the cities
Bound by another one's pity's
Expect a place to be
Or expect not want to be seen
And I'll take you as walking money
I see you as a pretty big funny
We and I, all have found our place
And you my dear, have barely found a face
Bound to me, and to my briefcase
I'll lend you a smile, but you're a secret disgrace
Find the comfort in another's eyes
But in reality, another girl will have them hooked on their clever disguise
Find a place to be
Or expect not want to be seen
Stuck in a rut
With no qualities, not knowing what
Who are you and what are you in this city?
Gone and withdrawn, alone and all shitty?
Expect a place to see
Or expect us to be mean
For you are bound
What goes around, comes around
You are stuck here, forever with me
With no voice, or founding plea
For you are bound
My slave, to paint my sacred ground
Crossing the boundaries
Imposed by human thoughts,
Outstretched in infinity,
Yet at one with nothing,
One single desire,
One single motive,
One single spark
Holds by be-ing,
And gathers the light of the aeons,
My body left in a cocoon
Of luminosity beneath this astral place,
Unseen through waking eyes,
But sensed through the cords of space,
Extending out to touch the face of gods,
A mortal soul returned to Earth,
I awaken through this never-ending goal,
As another day is birthed.
12:19 PM 6/3/2013 ©
Lost and confused, yet daring and bold,
Silly and innocent at 14 years old,
Devoid of a mother, dreaming of a lover,
With closed mind and open heart, not a clue of where to start,
Aimless, wandering towards an abyss,
Missed four months of menses, from a prison-bound kiss.
Paralyzed, fearsome of taking account,
The cost I would pay, was a lifetime amount,
Destined, without a goodbye from a soul,
The rug pulled out from under, lost...no control,
A baby is born to a child alone,
In a frightening place, a cold hospital zone,
No one is present to hold her cold hands,
Sneers and contempt, nurses scoff and demand.
Life is preserved, but a spark inside dies,
Questions unanswered, at best she's told lies,
Darkness ensues and becomes her befriended,
Adoption is evident, this journey is ended,
But then it's unfinished, more searching to do,
A marriage, a carriage, some wine, a corkscrew,
A nose of cocaine and a fist full of weed,
To fill up and cover the pain...with godspeed
Years of self loss and a belly of rum,
It's been 10 years gone by, my Lord...this is not fun.
Cleaning it up feels as good as can be,
At 35 years old...wondering where the hell's me?
When you're sure what is missing can never be found,
Never think that your past won't come sneaking around.
So the child now 20, finally we greeted,
Surreal as it was, neither one of us were cheated,
Babies are born in the world to be free,
They belong to no one...not you, not me,
I will never forget you, nor how we did feel,
You said you felt 'whole', I say, 'finally real'.
Scattered and fragile, like menageries of glass,
Treasure life's memories, however deep the crevasse,
We can all become vicitms of loss in this world,
How we choose to accept it, savored, or hurled,
Weaves the fiber of all future bloodlines to come,
You can let go the line, or bridge the chasm.
People will be who they are, leave them be,
Some only awaken when it's too late to see,
Love is intriguing, some think it's a fad,
Some want just good things, they deny the bad,
I never regretted a moment of mine,
Good, bad, indifferent, it's been sweet and sublime,
Grateful for everythng, how could I miss?
My dark side was what guided me into my bliss.
Copyright 2013 ©
I Keep On Shooting Off My Mouth,
Like a Cannon,
From Those Good Ol' Civil War Days,
I Keep On Getting Those Black Eyes,
And Blue Dreams,
And Low Tides,
My Mother Was Right,
As They Say
That Hampster Keeps Turning
The Big Wheel in my Mind,
It Creaks,
It Squeaks,
It Whines,
Some Days are Piles of Dirt,
Some Days are Easy as Pie,
Some Evenings I Think I Can Fly So High,
Some Mornings I'm Drowning in the Hurt,
There's a Man,
He's Sitting Next to Me at the Bar,
His Face is the Perfect Place,
To Hide His Scars
Stone cold monument
taking joy, from life.
One Holy Presence,
demands a sacrifice.
Hearts turning slowly,
from the Face of Love.
How can this be,
What was He thinking of?
Kidnapped from innocence;
with dreams torn apart,
I tripped in His Presence,
over my broken heart.
How could I begin to approach
His Holy Light?
All my good intentions
couldn’t cleanse me in His sight.
He spoke,”This is My Promise,
This Blood will cover you-
you will be my witness,
that My Love is ever true".
I saw blood upon the sand,
for me His Son had died.
"No, I screamed!"I did not understand,
Why was He crucified?
He pointed to an empty grave,
He said,"He is not here."
"Believe it, faith your life will save",
and then He drew me near.
"Your peace already cost a Life,
the price for it was won.
By the Perfect Sacrifice,
that lay in the Heart of My Son.
No more tear filled nights;
no more agony,
I will be your guiding light,
you can learn to trust Me.
In the Battle of the Ages,
no child will be lost.
Though hell and darkness rages,
no more Holocausts."