I wish I knew what I want to say
I wish I knew what to do
The truth is I've been at a loss
Since I lost you
It's the gap, the absence, the lack
The introspectively shaped hole
On the right side of the bed
That I realize tonight
The truth is
I can't move on
I don't even want to
Each moment that goes by
I'm starting to miss the days of my life
That I thought I was sad
I don't just love you, I need you
And I hate the fact that I want you
When you've moved on
I don't want to haunt you
But I miss your smile and your laugh
So for a moment
Please remember me again
This shit hurts
I can’t do it again
On paper you look perfect
So I thought we could be friends
The kind that never lie
And reveal our darkest fears
Who have each other’s back
And wipe away the tears
The kind that builds and grows
Until it turns to love
Then we sit back and know
It was sent from up above
But instead I sit and wait
Because you’ve gone away
I never know the fate
Of every passing day
It drives me fucking crazy
How am I not on your mind!?
I think about you daily
& and not just because you’re fine
It’s because of how you smile
And how Jesus is your world
It’s Because of how you talk
about your beautiful little girl
I know these things take time,
And id like space to explore
Whatever’s on your mind
To understand you more
I know this is crazy
Because we’ve barely just said hi
But before I fall too deep alone
I’d rather just say goodby
-Zomi July 2019
Qui de la belle fleur ou de la rustre graine ?
Eclaira l'esprit d'un certain Darwin
Et comme un puissant coup que l'on assène
Fit sortir le raisin de la vigne ?
Qui, de la méduse ou de l'hermine
Posséda en premier l'opsine
Découvrit les couleurs de l'arc en ciel
Et donna à la Terre son étincelle ?
Qui, de l'amibe ou des derniers hommes
Brûle la forêt, massacre l'oeuf encore chaud
Chasse l'hermine et inventa Dachau
Consume la planète, leur mère
Celle qui les a vu naître tendre
Et les verra disparaitre dans la cendre.
I am in the winter sun by this window.
Mom walks in, wrapped in layers.
I’m going to go take down the Christmas lights.
Not surprising.
It’s January, after all.
But something in me still sinks.
Another ending.
The front door opens.
Closes.
I breathe. One, two.
Opens.
She’s back in before I can blink my eyes.
Or maybe that’s just how the time seems to fall
in this corner of the house, light
scattering along the floor, my skin.
Reading for hours on winter afternoons does that to the clock somehow.
I thought you were taking the lights down?
She turns. Tilts her head.
I’m done.
Isn’t it funny
how endings are so much faster than beginnings?
Like taking a hook off the roof is so much easier than putting one up.
Like somehow
I lose people faster than I meet them.
February.8.2003
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
Where to begin where to end
When to say when how to win
My love is all I want to send
To be with you
To hold your hand
To really know you is to know
To take a stand
To be a friend
To say hello good-bye good day goodnight
To tell the one you love
What a sight
To forgive after a fight
Finding bad news
Holding eachother while taking a snooze
Taking care of each others heart
Saying you love
Trying not to fall apart
Promising people won't shove
A perfect fit as tight as a glove
Missing each other
Kissing one another
Always tell the truth
No matter how scared you may be
If your love is true
You'll understand you'll see
I can't wait till that day you look up at me
While your on one knee
When I met you
My skies they turned blue
Baby you're the one for me
Don't ask how I just know
So please don't set me free
Copyright
March.27.2011
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
In the begining was great
But towards a month passing
I started to get a feeling of hate
And wondering if we would be lasting
You tell me you didn't do a thing
My gut tells me a different feeling
To my heart forgiveness I try to bring
But no matter how hard it tries
My heart is having a hard time healing
At night....Every night it cries
I know of the hints they are revealing
I pray none of them are true lies
I promise you from the start
That I'd stick by you no matter what
But you also promised you wouldn't break my heart
And now it's going back to being half shut
It's beaking apart
I will keep to my promise we won't ever part
I hold on to what you have told me
But if when our love becomes a lie
I will have no choice but to set you free
I don't want to really though
Because my heart will then fully die
And I will be left with pain
With nights of tears to show
And I'll be alone....all alone
I'll be left to cry
My heart then turns to stone
All because love became a lie
The promise you made to me
You never were ever going to keep
The love you said you gave
You promised you would never leave
My heart got broken my chest caved
Your words you lead me to believe
All that came out of your mouth was true
But now my heart bleeds
Of pain and agony
And I'm crying on my knees
How much I'm broken apart
Don't tell me you didn't know
I promised you I wouldn't leave
But your love you no longer show
Maybe it's time you give me back my heart
You said you would stick by my side
For me you'd always care
But I see now that was a lie all along
You lead me on and that's not fair
Maybe we don't belong
You told me your love would never end
You said you'd always be faithful
And always your love you'd send
But you no longer call me beautiful
Now we just feel like friends
My love I don't think with you I can share
I believe now you were pretend
Copyright
November.30.2000
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
It's almost here
End of time
A drop of a tear
A drop of a dime
The sudden fear
Of losing your mind
Knowing the light is near
It's nothing from man kind
All you know
That's the direction you stear
The pain you have you try to show
But no one is taking notice
Not even trying to care
They would be happy to see you go
It's not really fair
The hate from people you know
Yep it's almost the end of the line
We're either God or the devil
Who takes your soul
And people always thought you were fine
They didn't look deep enough
But yet it is your most challening goal
You even thought you were tough
You haven't figured out yet
But it all changed when you two met
For God to take away
From his horrible sight
You don't want to take another day
You don't want to take on your tears
You don't want to fight
Or face your fears
But in all of this
When someone asks what's wrong
The answers are at miss
And you have nothing to say
You have no reason to live
You realize you're not strong
You don't want any more tasks
To try to take on all by yourself
You need someone to help you
The end of time is near
Someone you need
One that will stick by your side
A love to feed
Someone that's true
Someone who won't hide
Their feelings
Their happiness
Their meaning of life
Their heart
Their love
You need it all
To pick you up when you fall apart
To tell you you're elegant
And beautiful as before
As pure as a dove
Please wipe the sadness
That lurks in your eyes
You don't want that anymore
The madness
That stops you from having blue skies
You try your hardest to ignore
But that in a million years
Will never happen your soul begins to die
By the end of time
I will be weak
To have any love to send
Or any power to seek
The power to mend
That special love
That special friend
My luck has run out
Because I never had none
I feel so trapped
To scream too much it hurts like a ton
IT's so disturbing I can't even dream
I've tried so hard but they have won
I've given up and tried to stick with it
But only for awhile
That never lasts
It goes out of style
And once again
I relive my past
When will it all end
My heartaches
Tears that run like a river
This pain never gives me a break
How do I survive
I then get sick and start to shiver
And this depression is so thick
I no longer feel alive
The end of time is so close to me
I'm dying inside
I just want to be free
I no longer want to hide
Copyright
January-20-2001
Trisha M. Barrek Hopkins
Nothing last forever
Sooner or later it must break down and die
Nothing stays together
You'll realize it when things start to pass you by
And you no longer see each other
Nothing lasts forever
The tears from your eye
They will disappear
You will no longer be able to cry
You wont even be able to hear
The words from your loved one
Because you'll be consider air
Everything will come to an end
Soon it'll be just space
You will no longer have a friend
You will be all left alone
You wont have any love left to send
Your heart will turn to stone
Nothing lasts anymore
It goes on to another life
There is nothing left to adore
What would be funny is if you were human
And you ended up a knife
Copyright
The End
It had to happen. Not a prayer in the world could stop it, no man or machine could flick a switch and start over. Everything was falling and burning, huge thuds like thunder from buildings half in ruins. Chills traveled through spines and eyes traced the path of destruction that laid ahead, leading to paralysis and then helpless death. This did not last, however, it took only a few moments to end the world, with only a handful of survivors. Maybe they were lucky, maybe they were chosen, by the gods, by destiny or maybe the world itself, it didn’t matter, though, not to them at least. And so, when everything died down, and there was almost no one left, a few stones moved and fell. Out from a fallen structure came a dog, walking with caution, scared but unscathed.
This dog looked around, the end had brought such peace and quiet to the earth, all that was left was the crackling of fires and the dirt moving beneath his feet. Gaining a little more confidence, the dog started walking a little faster, less fearful, looking for survivors. He had no luck for the first hours, then, light footsteps from behind him graced his ears. A cat, white as snow, approached him.
“Hello”
“Hi”
“Have you seen anyone else?”
“Alive? No, I’ve had no luck”
“Shame” The cat sighed.
“You can join me if you’d like. There doesn’t seem to be another living creature anyway”
“Yes, I guess I could. Suppose we could help each other.”
And so it began a time of mutual support that none of the animals were able to measure. Whereas the dog gracefully walked with innate strength, the white cat seemed to balance itself among trash and debris with instinctive ease. More than once did they survive those warm but icing hours, seconds that were not day or night but timeless reminders of chaos and destruction. It was that same bond that kept them alive, a union that could fight adversity through cooperation, each with their natural strengths, complementing their every weakness.
The dog advanced nervously as his ears were pounded by the sound of nearby thunders. Its tongue, dried as hell, hanged freely towards its filthy paws. Never had he been hungrier, never had a living organism been as starved as he was. Its stomach desperately craved food. The white cat was no different.
"There's no food left, its over"
“No, there has to be something left”
And it had to happen, it just happened. It's not a matter of evil, it's just reality at its perfect form. Someone had to take that anguish, someone had to take in that eternal guilt. Suddenly, the cat was no longer a cat. It wasn't a friend anymore, nor an animal, nor a survivor. It was, indeed, the only different thing up there in between the dirt, the burned ruins and the lawless sky. The dog felt its pupils change in size, its paws sinking into the mud and the air getting heavier for no reason. Blood squeezed through its veins as it felt its own inside the cat’s luring entrails.
“Now there’s no one left”
The dog wept, finding himself alone, he lay on the floor, next to the cat’s remains, once white now tinged with red. A world that could’ve been, a world that would’ve been was now lost between tempted fangs. And it was bound to happen.
WRITTEN BY Luis Prieto AND Sergio Nocedal