I kissed the wings on the heels of love's brokenness
I drew the breath that carried the words that lanced love's boldness
I drew the sword that sliced the veil of hope
I pelted icicles of cold affront that built a towering wall of division
I thought I knew the desires of my mind and flesh
deeper still, is the wound I carry
inflicted by my own weapons of righteous rebellion
thinking I knew better,
When I didnt know anything at all
I walk endless an road
locked into a heavy load
Of these questions and fears
Gripping from it's unreasonable tears
As a car roars by
I look dead into it's light
Wondering where it leads
But just like that it's gone
just like another day
As I wake up to the sun's harsh light
I try not to look back
As I attempt to fill this crack
Of this hurt and wonder
Unstoppable, a storm of rain and thunder
As a car roars by
I look dead into it's light
Wondering where it leads
But just like that it's gone
just like another night
As I stay up to the moon's hypnotic might
Gravity pulls you down to reality
You hate every second, you want to leave
Surely in other lands the pains will recede
Escape for ten minutes, but the ghosts are still there.
Haunting you with tears, fears, and memories
Knowing that at any minute, you might crack
Insanity is what keeps you sane
Forgetting everything in the rush of things
But once you have the chance, the hell comes back
Sucks you in like a blackhole
Seemingly unable to escape
And every night, you tire yourself so you don't need to think
But the thoughts come at other times anyway
Numbing your self, desensitization surely would work
But it's still there and the only decent solution might take years upon years
call me old fashion but i used to wear my heart on my sleeve ; but ever since u left i no longer believe ; so with my doors lock and my wall back up ; no longer is ur trust backedup ; & without that ur love no longer has my address ; so with that distraction gone i can now focus solely on success ~
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