I walk endless an road
locked into a heavy load
Of these questions and fears
Gripping from it's unreasonable tears
As a car roars by
I look dead into it's light
Wondering where it leads
But just like that it's gone
just like another day
As I wake up to the sun's harsh light
I try not to look back
As I attempt to fill this crack
Of this hurt and wonder
Unstoppable, a storm of rain and thunder
As a car roars by
I look dead into it's light
Wondering where it leads
But just like that it's gone
just like another night
As I stay up to the moon's hypnotic might
Most people say they'd prefer to die in their sleep,
To pass away gently into the night in peace.
Not me.
I want to die with my eyes wide open,
To stare death in the face brazenly.
Stay awake.
Can't sleep, clowns will eat my eyes,
I'll never see again, blind forever in their torment.
Not me.
There is too much to do, and so little time,
Living life in the moment is all I want to do.
Stay awake.
Some people hold their feelings inside,
Too scared to find out what others might think.
Not me.
I want the world to know that I've survived it,
Ready to face what tomorrow might bring.
Stay awake.
I'm still awake.
Watch me fly...
Brandy Noelle Pruitt
January 12, 2010
Gone,
A life in search for a way to leave
In this broken home we seem to all hide
I see it all, I just don't acknowledge it
Somethings are better left unsaid
I’ve learned to listen because words are empty
But it's hard to ignore the words that my girl hates me
and these drugs don’t help me
I can't stand pretending as I masquerade happiness
behind short nights and cheap liquor
The friends I can't stand, I still stand with
I’m just as fake as the ones I talk about
I've seen enough, I've done enough
the end result is what I'm afraid of
There is only one way, so I cry out for the way out
It looks right but it feels wrong
but what else do I have to turn to? It's all gone
Never forgot the night I told my self
“I would die to be happy”
Who knew it would come to that?
All in, there’s no turning back
I'm gone