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I Can See

I can see


It took me forty years and one month to see

Forty years and one month, having my soul wrestle inside of me

Screaming, clawing its way out in hope of someone to see me

But all this time, it was I that needed to see


I can see

I don’t question if anyone can see me

I now have crystal clear clarity in me

I can see


Sunny blue skies

Birds chirping, singing, happy cries

Echoing the joyful awakening of earth’s arise

Thinking that I could see through clear skies were all lies


It’s only in the darkest days of one’s life when one can see brightly

The darkest, most morbid hours gives one the utmost clarity

A thousand reasons to not want to be

And only three compassionate miracles that it took for me to see


I am blessed until eternity

I have no money to feed me, but food in my tummy daily

I am ill and lately very sleepy, and no money to cure me

But one compassionate soul, helped and healed me


The harder I try, the harder I fall

Endless efforts, just wasting it all

I now crawl

An endless battle, I’ll never have it all


But blessed I truly am

I can see

There are angels guarding me

Unexpected true friendships, dearest souls standing by me suddenly


In the darkest of hours, it’s then when you can see

It is but only then when you see true friends who are meant to be

Only then when you see all your blessings truly, your earthly angels clearly

When tears of joy stream down your face from receiving love and compassion unexpectedly


I can see

I am

I have been

And I will be blessed till eternity


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Guardian Angel

                         Guardian Angel

Watch over him Guardian Angel.  Wyatt is his name.

His Spirit burns so brightly, though he's known some hurt and pain.

Mom learned some hard lessons, but I know it's not too late.

But all was well worth it.  Sometimes we know not Fate.

Watch over him Guadian Angel.  This Blessing of my Heart.

God destined us a Family.  With a Love that'd never part.

To always put your needs before my very own.

It's what I had to learn...to be the best Mom to you Son.

To show you what a Mother is, what it is to Love a Son.

To bring a smile to your life,  to bring joy that's not undone.

God brought a Smile to my Life, that day that you were born.

I knew that you were special, God brought forth a precious Son.

So watch over him Guardian Angel.  Let No Harm come to my Babe.

Shower him with God's presence, please remove all hurt and pain.

No Sacrifice too great for this loved one of my heart.

I would go through anything to give us a fresh start.

Some how I'll make it up to you, what once was lost regained.

I may have left you for a time, but my Love for you remained.

You may not understand it, of why I did depart.

But it was not intentional, and you were never once forgot.

It's been a difficult Journey, but God's Love can heal all pain.

His light shines through the darkness, showing what can be regained.

Giving hope to all the hopeless.  Brand new lives to those with Faith.


                             Written by:  Denise M. Hall

Psa 91:11 For he will order his angels to protect you in all you do.   

BBE  Version For he will give you into the care of his angels to keep you wherever you go.

Psa 103:20 Praise the LORD, you angels of his, you powerful warriors who carry out his decrees and obey his orders! 

Psalm 5  “Because of the violence done to the oppressed, because of the painful cries of the needy, I will spring into action,” says the LORD. “I will provide the safety they so desperately desire.”

 7  You, LORD, will protect them; you will continually shelter each one from these evil people

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wanted to write something poignant to my son Wyatt.  Every since I found out he has been being abused since he was sent to live in California in 2011/2012, well I have been heartbroken, outraged, and felt so helpless to help him.  I love my son and I don't want him ever believing I abandoned him like his biological father and step mother led him to believe by alienating him from me.  He has suffered so many atrocities, it is not fair that I have been kept from him.  Or that he believes lies he has been told.  I would do anything for him.  I being a victim of every form of abuse know all too well the hidden scars abuse and alienation from a parent feels like.  I just want to rescue my son and show him what it is to feel safe, secure, and loved each and every day.  Please donate to my cause at: https://www.youcaring.com/HisInnocenceLost