lovespeak

Dressin' Up

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Lovespeak

Today, I feel to be a Taylor

Put a touch of being demure

Get everything out of our closets

Because we will be doing our best

 

Snatch out bills from our pouch

Scream ourselves nice and loud

Run through our room like we have dates

Beg help from our skillful roommates

 

When the crown is already done

Get dressed up, we're having fun

We wait for our crushes to pass by

To look at us and stop to say hi

 

Tonight, I am Lady Gaga

I get the crown and dress all black

Even though our feet ache

The show should start at eight

 

I'm dressin' up for the first time

I'm thinkin' like the world is mine

I'm walkin' like I'm about to shine

I'm talkin' like I own the night

Dear Jan

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1995

My one dearest Jan,

Where are you now?

I see you've been gone

From our hometown

 

It's been three years since I last saw you

I regret that I ever knew you

It was nothing but disgrace

You made me fall far from grace

 

I was 15 

and knew nothing

You were old enough

To fool my young heart

 

I loved you too much

And soon when we touched

I never knew when to stop

Then you put me down to drop

 

That deep feeling was too high

It seemed too new to me

Those sad times were full of lies

But doubts never crossed me

 

They said I was  lucky to have you

I guess they just don't know the true you

Your sick self that frightened me is far from

Your sweet face you displayed in our last prom

 

You acted so good

You fooled her too

She fell to your traps

Like me with your match

 

But you never loved her

Bet her clear vision blurred

'Cause she loved you too

The way I used to

 

Dear Jan, I'm turning 18 now

But Jan, I still remember how

You lost my trust and love

Replaced by tears and grudge

 

I played fair through your rules

I played games though so cruel

Then you laughed at the end of it all

Then I cried, "I should have known"

 

I was 15 and thoughtless

I danced through your flames and traps

You were 18 and ruthless

You planned that sad, heartless match

 

Dear Jan, I cried back then so hard

'Cause Jan, I gave you all my heart

You made me lose all of my faith

Yet I stood up after those fails

 

Jan, I'm smiling again now

Jan, I can love again now

Though they failed too

They weren't like you

 

Even if you answer things I ask

They can never bring back the past

You made myself hide for some time

You made my heart cry the whole time

 

Lessons from you should be learned

Pictures of you should be burned

Three years ago, I was naïve with you

Recalling you, I now know what to do

 
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Cupid

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1995

He met her in a lonely town

Sparks flew that point of time

Bouncing back and forth to the ground

He told himself, "She's mine"

 

He could make people fall in love with his words

He could make people cry with his lines

He could make people see the truth though it hurts

He could make people mad side by side

 

He thought he could make Juliet

Fall in love with him

But the princess' mind was set

Her heart's not for him

 

She left him in the  dark

With a strong, burning scar

He thought he could stop his heart

He should've been warned it's hard

 

He doesn't know what to do

He feels what he's got is useless

He can't use it for the princess

He prays she will want him too

 

Years had passed him by too swiftly,

He helped thousands to fall in love

But he can't make the girl he loves,

This is the cost of being him

 

All the why's in the world haunt him

He's jealous of the passers-by full of happiness

He gave it to them but he can't have his happiness

Memories of him with her kills

 
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All This Time

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You made my heart bleed again

You made my tears drop again

You killed my innocence

You burned my fantasies

 

I thought this one was the one

Didn't even last a month

It was no better than the first time

You kept me hoping from time to time

 

I asked you again tonight

I thought they were rays of light

But they only clouded my sky

Made it rain until my hopes died

 

Still, I trusted you wholly

Still, you kept my head rolling

They cut me like a paper

And now you got me wonder

 

Didn't I ask you enough?

Did you just stand there and laugh?

Tell me, what did I do?

Tell me, what should I do?

 

All this time I was pretending

All my time was gone and wasted

All this time I was believing

All my time was appreciated

 

All this time, I've been fooling myself

All this time, I've forgotten myself

My happiness and dreams

Turned loneliness and sins

 

This time, I will take some time

Sometimes, we have to ask why

This time, I will find my sky

Sometimes, we need our own time

 

Maybe after this, I'll find the real me

And find my true happiness

Maybe after this, I won't be naïve

And not go back to this mess

 
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17

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Lovespeak

I feel to get out of here

I feel like celebrating

Drop the confusion

Adore diversion

 

Bring out the cake,

It's a new day

We'll make the sun shine so bright,

We'll make it shine till midnight

 

We talk about our crushes

Say things with all those hushes

Before we dance around

Be free with no chains bound

 

Then we go to our classes

I put on my sunglasses

Now, my mates don't know what to call me

But all I want is to be happy

 

We know people good and bad

Some can make us really mad

Even if we see a thousand mean girls

We know life has many to offer

 

I'm feeling 17

We dance like no one's there

We dare to do those sins

We should fly to nowhere

 

Fall in love the worst way

Cry and laugh every day

Watch the stars in the sky

Wish as they shine so bright

 

Now that I'm 17

We explore many things

Before I turn 18

Let's make hell out of this

 

Worst Fault

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Lovespeak

You came by in a Sunday night

Armed with a violet skin

You ran to me and I asked why

Took you in my bed to sit

 

I knew the reason why

But I had to ask why

You were so lonesome to die

And yet so eager to lie

 

I knew this day would come

But I was still undone

Everything was planned

But no, it was hard

 

Told myself what to do

I must abandon you

Leave you there in the cold

Set myself free and go

 

I couldn't help it, there was this feeling

I couldn't stop it, I kept on sinning

This act was a fault all along

I would hate it like the worst song

 

You brought it to yourself

Yet I cleaned up your mess

I cursed the night I held you

You ended up to be cruel

 
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Told You So

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Lovespeak

I knew this would happen

But you never listened

Look at yourself in the mirror

It will show you things much clearer

 

You told me everything would be alright

I had a hunch that you wouldn't be right

Looking at you now makes me down

Your voice gets so husky and loud

 

You told me I would be very wrong

Would never see you walking at dawn

You made promises and sworn

But they're like papers you tore

 

I hate to tell you here in the cold

But all I can say is I told you so

I believe you're old enough to know

What lies ahead of the path you go

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Phone Call

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Lovespeak

I got too excited

Reading what you texted

I loved the way you said it

I loved the way you did it

 

So, I pulled myself running

Pushed my phone, heard yours ringing

I waited for you to pick it up

I heard how you just shut it up

 

My friend said I shouldn't give up

Kept trying 'til you picked it up

I was overjoyed

That I'd hear your voice

 

You said you were so busy

I waited 'til you were free

But the phone call never lasted

That one minute left me haunted

 

It was the worst one I ever had

It made me not happy but just sad

You could never fool me

The next time you'd ask me

 

I gave you my time

I thought you'd do the same for me

I thought you'd be mine

I now know the blame is on me

 
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Just Want To Hear Your Voice

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1995

Are you busy at this moment?

Did you read the messsage I sent?

Can I call you this time?

Can you lend me your time?

 

Just want to hear your voice

Just want to be rejoiced

To fill these empty words

To shield me from these swords

 

Time passed by, I had to wait

Hours passed by, I couldn't wait

I had to call you

I had to hear you

 

Your number is on the screen

Twenty minutes of staring

And something's pulling my hand back

Away from pushing the keypad

 

But what do I have to lose?

I've got to try

Just this one time

'Cause I've got nothing  to lose

 

So, I'll call you this time

Go and pick up the line

I want to hear it from you

I want to listen to you

 

Just one 'hi' would be okay

Or anything you could say

I promise I won't judge it

I pray that you would grant it

 
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