Dramatic tunes play in my mind
as I wait in bed for your replies
Took a trip, tried to listen to
A Brief Inquiry Into Online Relationships
But boy, I really should take note
that 1975 was never the year
that the internet was born
then lives got weird
Dramatic tunes swirl in my mind
Nauseating and mesmerizing, all at once
I trace all the pieces I could find
to draw the image that may resemble you
and draft the letters I could think of
but never would I send to you
Dramatic tunes leech on my mind
Trying to design my last demise
The nothingness on their side,
churning violence all coincide
Dramatic tunes play in my mind
As I wait for your replies
The darkness would soon arrive
here and hear my last goodbye
The flock of crows are closing in
Floating just three feet above
But then I feel my eyes flinch
As the phone buzzed
Now your time is up, so what will it be?
No one there to help you blow out all those candles,
All those bloated schemes and dreams
Are destined to turn to ash,
You can watch as they burn
Into the sour cream icing,
Or face your fate,
Lie in the bed you made.
No heroine badge or red carpet,
You've muddled through,
Stored yourself away
In a fiery frenzy of your making.
Alice bombed out big time,
And the rabbit hole was filled up
Piling the leaves and pieces of mulch
Onto your tea party stories.
Bold as can be,
No tea for the tillerman
Because the tires have gone flat,
And the mad-hatter has lost his hat.
One thing is on your side...air,
There's always another fantasy to fabricate,
Because you're just smart like that
At building castles in the sky for yourself.
It's good busy work,
But it always comes
Tumbling down onto you
In the end, doesn't it...
But I will have you for dinner one night,
And show you kindness,
In hopes of your renewed faith
And rejuvenated lovely style.
12:32 AM 7/4/2013
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Time flies very fast
Something we can't grasp
We don't know what it brings
If or not we will sink
I am reaching my peak
You are with me all this time
Whether strong or weak
You stand by me every time
But now I am doubting
If ever you knew my darkest secret
The thing I've been hiding
Something about me I wish to forget
You got me thinking
If you ever uncovered this unspoken truth
If you ever noticed this thing I hid from you
Would you be doubting?
Would you still love me like you do?
Would you think I am condemned too?
Would you be mad at me for not telling the truth?
Would you be sad for me 'cause I hid it from you?
Believe me, I tried telling you
Trust me, it's been hard for me too
I beg you, please try to hear me
Save me, from this lie I live in
I tried a million times
To chain my heart and mind
Cried in those troubled nights
God's words don't seem to rhyme
Saw you from afar
Knew you're about to cry
You're all I desire
You got me asking why
Why am I not the reason for your tears?
What should I do to make you see?
Am I not the one who can make you cheer?
How can I make you see these things?
Here you are again
In the middle of the night
Here I am again
Giving you a shed of light
Why are you very blind?
Can't you read between the lines?
Why don't you look and find?
Can't you see my heart's desire?
If it was me you're with,
You will not be crying
It will not be tragic
We will end up smiling
I know your favorite song
It has been you all along
Wake up and look inside my soul
See through my heart and you will know
He met her in a lonely town
Sparks flew that point of time
Bouncing back and forth to the ground
He told himself, "She's mine"
He could make people fall in love with his words
He could make people cry with his lines
He could make people see the truth though it hurts
He could make people mad side by side
He thought he could make Juliet
Fall in love with him
But the princess' mind was set
Her heart's not for him
She left him in the dark
With a strong, burning scar
He thought he could stop his heart
He should've been warned it's hard
He doesn't know what to do
He feels what he's got is useless
He can't use it for the princess
He prays she will want him too
Years had passed him by too swiftly,
He helped thousands to fall in love
But he can't make the girl he loves,
This is the cost of being him
All the why's in the world haunt him
He's jealous of the passers-by full of happiness
He gave it to them but he can't have his happiness
Memories of him with her kills