November.26.2002
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
The things you say
But dont ever do
Are the ones that hurt in every way
It's rude to make me sit here and wait for you
If I had to hold my breath I would be blue
Remembering all the promises you said
This is confusing me
That I wish you knew
If you say your going to call
Then you must see it through
Instead I sit here like an ass and wait
For the phone to ring
Your lies I really hate
Calling? You still have not done
I guess with your heart
I really haven't won
Once again mine is falling apart
I wonder if you care
That your causing all this pain
I thought it was okay
With my true feelings to share
But I live with your lies another day
And your attitude remains the same
As I sit here and cry
Your most likely playing your game
You know...I should of let my soul die
Because all you care about is fame
It is almost five
And still no call
I wish I didn't let my heart come alive
You..I wish I never saw
Things you say
You never come through with it
Or you make it for another day
Which that's just bull shit
You shouldn't treat someone you care about this way
Its just not right
To show affection one minute and not the next
These tears I'm trying to fight
I'm trying not to put a hex
On your pit a full heart
As you did with me that night
The things you dont live up to
Its not fair to me
Because I am opening up to you
I should of kept everything inside left everything be
I should of kept these feelings hidden
I shouldn't of set them free
I knew it was forbidden
Things you say but dont do
I hope this is a faze you're going through
And soon it will be okay
To love and care for you
Like the other day
But still the things you do
Are not what you stay to
You never see them through
You wait to the very last minute
Or you completely forget about it
This pain inside you caused I wish you could feel
I wish to my heart you could be real
But the things you say
You never do
So I'm going to put my heart away
For someone else who is true
One who will see things through
One with me
Who'll always by my side stay
And never set my heart free
Copyright
I got too excited
Reading what you texted
I loved the way you said it
I loved the way you did it
So, I pulled myself running
Pushed my phone, heard yours ringing
I waited for you to pick it up
I heard how you just shut it up
My friend said I shouldn't give up
Kept trying 'til you picked it up
I was overjoyed
That I'd hear your voice
You said you were so busy
I waited 'til you were free
But the phone call never lasted
That one minute left me haunted
It was the worst one I ever had
It made me not happy but just sad
You could never fool me
The next time you'd ask me
I gave you my time
I thought you'd do the same for me
I thought you'd be mine
I now know the blame is on me
Answer the call.
©2012
You call me up again tonight
You only call when you need something
I wonder what it is this time
I remember all those things clearly
Not long ago, you used to call me honey
But it's until you found new toy to play with
I was such a fool
When I fell hard for you
You used me as a tool
But don't worry it was the past
I knew it would never last
I'm lucky I woke up fast
'Cause I won't listen to you anymore
I don't want to hear your crooked voice
No, even if you knock thrice on my door
Try and call me now
This time I'll be very cruel
Tell the things I wish you knew
Pull out your usual lines
I've heard them many times
This time I won't be nice
She runs into her room,
Slams the door,
Throwing her phone on the unkept bed,
As she opened the dresser,
Within seconds the silver slipped,
Causing her pain and sorrow to run out,
Misleadingly red,
The flash of light caught her eye,
It came from by the blanket,
With a shaky hand she reached out,
His name flashing across the screen,
While answering she burst into tears,
The knife slipped from her grasp,
When he asked what was wrong,
She saw what she did,
To the smiling girl,
She saw what he did,
With his call to save a life.
I am sick of waiting on a call that will never come
Praying it will end the way it begun
I hate the feeling, twisted and deranged
Not excepting the fact; you will never change
I mistakingly missed my exit cue
Somehow forever obsessed with me and you
Unclear in many subtle ways
the relationship we had, forever a daze
Things will never be the way they should
Forget you...I only wish I could
That Secret Call
I feel the dream of you
when you are gone
Soft golden twilight
falls on your song
And I surrender to that face
That fills the sky above this place
of love
And when the soul is over
And when your eyes leave mine
And when you walk into tomorrow
I will say
the secret sign
So lets kiss the wings of sorrow
So lets soar without a fall
Lets float away, this deathless day
So lets hear
that secret call
I've always felt
the dream of you
I've never heard the snow
I've never heard the autumn leaves
Decending
as dust of memories
And they howl inside
the fortress of my heart
Yes, you live within
the fortress
Of my
heart