She had pine
needles in her purse to take the edge off
Christmas. She held them for the memories
she didn’t own, but could pluck out of movies
like pine cones out of the snow to make ornaments —
decorated with bits of glitter, a bow
to represent a touch of hope. I would pull her close
and tell her she didn’t need the needles to feel something
as tangible as the snow on the ground. Fleeting
cold was meant to leave us
for the warmth of memories we could make on our own.
Perhaps it’s because I miss you, the real you
or the thought of you.
It’s not like I know the difference.
Time flies very fast
Something we can't grasp
We don't know what it brings
If or not we will sink
I am reaching my peak
You are with me all this time
Whether strong or weak
You stand by me every time
But now I am doubting
If ever you knew my darkest secret
The thing I've been hiding
Something about me I wish to forget
You got me thinking
If you ever uncovered this unspoken truth
If you ever noticed this thing I hid from you
Would you be doubting?
Would you still love me like you do?
Would you think I am condemned too?
Would you be mad at me for not telling the truth?
Would you be sad for me 'cause I hid it from you?
Believe me, I tried telling you
Trust me, it's been hard for me too
I beg you, please try to hear me
Save me, from this lie I live in
I tried a million times
To chain my heart and mind
Cried in those troubled nights
God's words don't seem to rhyme
Saw you from afar
Knew you're about to cry
You're all I desire
You got me asking why
Why am I not the reason for your tears?
What should I do to make you see?
Am I not the one who can make you cheer?
How can I make you see these things?
Here you are again
In the middle of the night
Here I am again
Giving you a shed of light
Why are you very blind?
Can't you read between the lines?
Why don't you look and find?
Can't you see my heart's desire?
If it was me you're with,
You will not be crying
It will not be tragic
We will end up smiling
I know your favorite song
It has been you all along
Wake up and look inside my soul
See through my heart and you will know
He met her in a lonely town
Sparks flew that point of time
Bouncing back and forth to the ground
He told himself, "She's mine"
He could make people fall in love with his words
He could make people cry with his lines
He could make people see the truth though it hurts
He could make people mad side by side
He thought he could make Juliet
Fall in love with him
But the princess' mind was set
Her heart's not for him
She left him in the dark
With a strong, burning scar
He thought he could stop his heart
He should've been warned it's hard
He doesn't know what to do
He feels what he's got is useless
He can't use it for the princess
He prays she will want him too
Years had passed him by too swiftly,
He helped thousands to fall in love
But he can't make the girl he loves,
This is the cost of being him
All the why's in the world haunt him
He's jealous of the passers-by full of happiness
He gave it to them but he can't have his happiness
Memories of him with her kills
You came by in a Sunday night
Armed with a violet skin
You ran to me and I asked why
Took you in my bed to sit
I knew the reason why
But I had to ask why
You were so lonesome to die
And yet so eager to lie
I knew this day would come
But I was still undone
Everything was planned
But no, it was hard
Told myself what to do
I must abandon you
Leave you there in the cold
Set myself free and go
I couldn't help it, there was this feeling
I couldn't stop it, I kept on sinning
This act was a fault all along
I would hate it like the worst song
You brought it to yourself
Yet I cleaned up your mess
I cursed the night I held you
You ended up to be cruel
Are you busy at this moment?
Did you read the messsage I sent?
Can I call you this time?
Can you lend me your time?
Just want to hear your voice
Just want to be rejoiced
To fill these empty words
To shield me from these swords
Time passed by, I had to wait
Hours passed by, I couldn't wait
I had to call you
I had to hear you
Your number is on the screen
Twenty minutes of staring
And something's pulling my hand back
Away from pushing the keypad
But what do I have to lose?
I've got to try
Just this one time
'Cause I've got nothing to lose
So, I'll call you this time
Go and pick up the line
I want to hear it from you
I want to listen to you
Just one 'hi' would be okay
Or anything you could say
I promise I won't judge it
I pray that you would grant it