inadequate

Pretty When My Eyes Close

I want you for myself but

you belong with someone else
I'm a shadow of a doubt now
I'm as hollow as the grave I'm digging out

I will be 
the end of me and I know
I just want to look pretty when my eyes close
I just want to kiss your troubles on the nose before I go

I want you for myself but
you belong with someone else
I'm as empty as the pantries
I never get up anymore

I will be
the end of me and I know
I just want to look pretty when my eyes close
I just want to be the tickles in your toes

I want you for myself but
you belong with someone else
My eyes are pretty dull aren't they?
from wiping the color from iris

I will be 
the end of me and I know
I just want to look pretty when my eyes close
I just want to be the person you're supposed to hold

Author's Notes/Comments: 

this is about my inability to be loved because I fear I am not beautiful enough.

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pitiful

the need

 

to be ugly 

 

to get

 

attention

 

 

to be pathetic

 

out of grief

 

for lives

 

destroyed

 

 

i've known

 

comatose

 

with more 

 

intelligence

 

 

 

 

 

 

2:16 AM 7/6/2013 ©

 

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Author's Notes/Comments: 

pitiful

Scared

Folder: 
My Love

I love you...
And I don't know what to say to you
I'm scared
I don't know what you think of me
I'm afraid of putting myself out there
To be rejected again
I may be Superman on the outside
But inside?
I'm afraid of letting you down
Of not being there for you
Of not being enough for you
Of leaving you to fight your own battles
I know you're capable
But I love fighting them with you
Of supporting you
Of loving you
And I don't know...
Maybe I feel inadequate
Like you're worth so much more than I am
I think you are
I've messed up so many times before
I don't know how to act around you
But until you tell me
I'll continue to be brave
I won't be afraid of fighting for you
I think you're worth it
I'll step out
Take a leap of faith
Because I don't want to lose you
To lose my greatest treasure and my best friend
To the unknown.
I hope you know this already
But if not here it is:
Honestly and truly,
I Love You.