I see all the little shadows,
I claim to be only a curse.
I am only a memory after all.
I breathe and make everything worse.
I am built of the moments they left me.
I run in the sand just to cry.
I stand and the floor drops underneath.
I don’t know the words, they’ve slipped by.
They trust me, they say I am the poet.
They tell me I’ll make it someday.
But how can I be the right poet
when I say the right words the wrong way?
Will you write when I’m gone?
I listen to all the noise you’ve caused inside of me.
I only know part of what I’ve done to you.
If I leave will your words follow me?
It doesn’t seem that impossible.
But as soon as that sentence ends
I am walking
I see you
on every corner.
Every Rubik’s cube,
every blanket,
every beat.
Your imprints on me.
I close my eyes.
The words will stay.
The beast inside…
© 2017 SachikoMochiko " Sachi Ruaya
What’s worse than killing someone? Leaving them suffering alive. Now, whether or not they suffer is up to them…
Cracks…that’s how the light comes in.
You found that someone,
Who you deem; is the last piece of you
O’ but that one…that other one just "
…
How long will your grip hold?
It’s a dark feeling; jealousy
Where green, grey and black swirls weave your heart
Like steel, poison ivy
As your blood curdles and boils,
your red-laced eyes eyeball
That one who touched your precious
Your precious gem that you admire from afar.
Your precious one, who births a hazy warm chest.
Your precious half…the other fading half of you.
But you refrain from killing
And instead of making arrangements to prey,
You keep that one alive but suffering from your fangs
Your inner beast lurks inside,
already devoured half of you and yourself.
Its true form will not feast unless you do
Your fangs…its fangs bite, drawing thick, oozy blood
Of the one you hold captive in your prison
All for that one precious one, you shed blood
Your bite…your torture…your beast
Is a reflection of the steel, poison ivy
Is a being born from your selfishness…your jealousy
But you continue to feast even when you know
Know that this beast will soon consume your flesh, Bone-clean
Because pleasure will come from ones’ suffering
You are blinded by the beast; your scarlet eyes see no more,
the beauty of your precious gem…
Blurry. Vivid. Pitch-black.
You have lost sight of your intentions,
And your precious gem’s light is no more
Now, you know: You. Are. Devoured.
You sit there on the bottom of the beast’s stomach
Living with the pure darkness of your own
Alone. With your crackling, dry heart -unable to love
After all, you were just blind.
Destined to lurk in darkness.
Emptiness. Your skin slowly peels off from the dry darkness
Slowly…painfully, in this prison, the veil is ripped
Revealing something undeniably powerful
You.
The bleeding wounds of which the skin is peeled
Thus, shunned the lies and unveils the truth
The truth of you embedded inside -within the beast
…
The light suppresses the dry darkness
With your passion, memories, joy and love
You slice through the belly…striving for freedom once more!
Author’s Note:
This is one of the small fragments to ready one of my upcoming masterpiece. I will write more poems like this (having the same motivational force). WORRY is next.
Your eyes half closed.
Tell me the story
of how you fell in love with me.
Well,
it starts like this-
I don’t know how.
All I know is
you stole my head,
my heart,
my hands.
(My sleep.)
It’s like the ride changes every time,
little details that haven’t made it off my lips,
haven’t taken themselves
out of my heart.
When I’m tired of being sober
I want to waste every breath that falls toward you
even when gravity has taken the day off
and I am so far below your space.
We are getting older.
We are going somewhere.
We are giving up if you hold it against me.
So once again I find myself wrapped around you
when darkness falls.
You whisper again,
Tell me the story.
Tardis
(time and relative dimension in space)
By jfarrell
(inspired by dr who)
This is why I love free verse…
My life story, history, autobio…..
Goes on for a billion pages…
But
In a poem
1 page, 4 stanzas
No rhyming couplets
But a rhythm that rocks your bones….
Kisses your soul
And dances the twist with your heart….
Here,
Not only can I describe what it felt like,
Back then,
I can whisk you away in my time machine
And you can feel it, experience it for yourself
And
If you’re familair with dr who…
You know to keep running away
Coz the daleks, cybermen and all horrible monsters
Running after you….
You look like their next dinner
I am the TARDIS.
A wordsmith.
But, still
A happily committed drunk!
You say I need to point my voice like a sword point
deliberate as a firework
and I watch the forest go up in flames.
I don’t want to sound like that.
I need to shape my words to fit your mold
when every letter is drawn through spikes
and gifted with a king and crown.
I don’t want to sound like that.
I hear so many vows on street corners,
nevers and forevers.
It’s so easy to promise things in a bottle
before you can see the contents.
I don’t want to sound like that.
So I cower in corners
I am stained red with truth and mistakes
and I walk like everyone who never sees me.
When I say that love is kind of like a lookback
like you can regret things that haven’t happened…
loving me is kind of like reaching with a short stick.
Peeling the onion
By jfarrell
My story, my history
Will come out, layer by layer
Within my poetry
And much of it you won’t like;
“let’s leave those horrors for scary stories”
Like peeling an onion, the deeper you go
The more intense it is
When I started writing poetry recently
I upset my sister with it;
It’s stuff she’s got over and buried in the past;
And she is the only one of my relatives I give a stuff about;
But she doesn’t believe that
She believes I stay away out of hate and spite;
I stay away coz I seem to hurt everything I touch
I promised her I wouldn’t write personal stuff
Sorry, but I’ve got to break that promise
I write for me, I have to write my story
And I have to write it my way
You can choose to not read
But you cannot tell me not to write;
You found your peace;
I’m still searching for mine.
I need to peel this onion.
you don’t want me because I spend
too much time
crying in elevators.
I am a slave to the not-enoughs
hibernating in my throat
and when no one comes to save me
I don’t tell you because I am caving
and I don’t want you to crawl where I’ve been.
you don’t want me because I don’t know what I’m doing.
admit it
and you can’t make me anything
I have always wanted to be for you
so all I have is a pebble with your name hacked into it on impulse
I have nothing else lasting to give you.
you don’t want me because my voice carries like bad news.
I like to think I tell you everything
but there are things I don’t ever want to hear come from my own lips
or the dam will break and I will never stop shaking.
and sometimes I write things
not because they are true
but because they sound like a waterfall
and I think you want to be drenched.
I am not honest,
trust me.