DISCOVERING THE HOLY SPIRIT IN ME
Oh, what a revelation!
Jesus’ gifts are not from this earth.
They are an
uncontrollable quintessence
that radiates into my soul.
God’s love dresses my mind
with golden skyscrapers
that pierce His heavens.
There is no need to own things in His home.
I look deeper into His treasures
and see what I need.
Spiritual waters—the Holy Spirit—take me to Him.
Gold has no value in heaven,
nor do diamonds.
They are just trinkets that sparkle.
Joy,
Glory,
Grace,
and His presence are what’s there.
My mind cannot confirm this,
only my Faith accepts what’s there.
There is no need for words.
There is no need for thoughts.
Translucent,
luminous,
and spiritual gifts are there,
and I have just arrived.
PSALM 63:4*
To praise You as long as I live
is my unfolding path of eternal love.
To do something forever
shows loyalty, faithfulness, character,
patience, endurance, respect, truth,
and todah**—the lifting of hands—
gives praise and worship to Jesus.
He is worthy.
Everything I offer Him
is nothing in comparison
to what He does for me.
He hears if I praise Him.
He sees if I worship Him.
Praying and worshipping are my true gifts to Him.
Do I bring Him into my life?
Will I pass His test?
Will I sanctify Him forever?
Will I be at His side?
Will I pray?
Will todah be part of my life?
There are Divine gifts,
rewards, and miracles
that only God can give.
Do I notice these gifts when they occur,
or is it my doings that make them happen?
Is God’s existence self-begot or not?
Is death ending or not?
Jesus is here for many reasons.
How do I honor Him?
*I will praise You as long as I live
and in Your name I will lift up my hands.
**Hebrew for an extension of the hand.
A choir of worshippers.
I tried to change
I tried to gain your approval
Tried to bring back the smile you had when we first met
and the fire that kept us alive for hours in dark heavens
I tried to turn back time and find my purity
Bowed down and prayed to the Divine
Burned my Nietzsche books
and turned to your Ignatian rules
Climbed the thousand steps of El Salvador
on my knees
Lit two candles in San Pedro Church
and prayed
Abstained myself from Rand and Marx
Silenced the waves of the seas
inside my soul,
the loud beating of my dying heart,
the whispers of the cold wind
Dressed black on Friday nights
Slapped my cheeks with verses
of my sins
Recited the rites of holiness
to conjure your love
Dried up my eyes from hellish cries...
I swallowed you
Your blood, flesh, and tears
Like a sacrament, I welcomed it all —
even the dark clouds that moved
around you
Didn't I hear the heavens and saw
the angels in you?
Still, my demons are here to stay and say,
Why am I still not enough for you?
How can be enough for you?
St. Jerome in the Wilderness
Master, Master come to me,
Savior, Savior hear my plea.
O Lord I understand my punishment.
I will not flee this banishment.
Until a time that you are done,
For you alone art the holy one.
Through temptation I have stayed,
Loyal in your gaze and unafraid.
I bear my cross as you bore yours,
Even with the window outdoors.
I use this quill to help you Lord,
As I hear the echo of a far off chord.
I praise your name to the land,
And rejoice when I hear the voices of the sand.
Amen, Amen I say to thee,
Amen, Amen please set me free.
Living with pain is the curse of my soul;
the Grand Architect told me I was a poet
before my time, my words too never die;
the devil and I made a pact...
curse mankind, evoke and deliver the
Antichrist- From the dark side of the
moon to the coldest side of the sun, I
radiate heat with a cold heart....cursed be
thy name upon all that is holy and
righteous- momentary lapse in reason are
now regular relapses without reason or
'idea of,' no point intended....
To those whom an apology is owed; you
will not get it from me. Curses upon thee,
those who deny me, creator of criticism;
when all else fails my soul prevails. My
writings cannot be constructively
critiqued, for I tell it like it is, similar to a
deadly disease you know it's spreading
manifesting its potency until you are fully
engaged or comfortably numb. A bad
omen foretold me of the curses to come,
including the birth of my first child; a
blessing I have yet to witness....only
embarrassment towards my child's mother;
I am the curse in her life, the agony of her
lament, and the poet she wishes never met.
Invocations of malice and melancholy;
happiness will be death, malignant in nature.
Each and everyone, yes, you the reader,
life's dreamer, has a story to tell, hold that
thought, mine is better, and only I can tell it
well. Forgiveness is best to ask than
permission; neither do I ask for, I am absolute,
soon to rule over biblical fanatics, fucken
hallelujah!!
Soulkritic® 2014©
Psalms sung with faith;
curses from the Father, the
Son, and the Holy Ghost;
rejoicing under the influence...
Nestled, numbed atop
heavenly clouds; two crazy
diamonds in the sky without
shine; rough edges can be
smooth again if both believe
they will shine again as one...
Clarifying the darkness both
entertain in the name of the
wicked that pace back and
forth outside the window of
time and space created by a
simple wish...
Invocations to God's shadow;
puppets to an addiction,
masters of enjoyed silence
listening to the symphony of
destruction...
I the Lizard Prince and my
Black Sheep traveling in the
dark under the sunlight too
steal our dreams back from
the sandman we both entered
in the years of our youth and
ignorant ways...
No King too hail; howling
under the moonlight, a lustful
night with love making in
between the stars, invoking
peace and harmony, with
conversations from the heart
bringing positive vibes and
synergy...
Alas, together we stand on
this mountain top, with hills
and more mountains too the
horizon; life does not come
without challenges, and
challenges do not arise
without taking the risk to fall
in love again...
Soulkriti©®2014
“A crippled; crawling, curious girl,
stumbled into light.
Her fractured, hopeless, dreary world,
is given second sight.
Her heart hardened and doubled;
broken now, into.
Her manic thoughts so troubled,
daily now, renewed.
As memories mirror an attack,
by tragic childish fears;
the smile you see is now unmatched,
caressed by happy tears.
The enemy of stolen time,
now it’s become best friend.
The youth she had to leave behind,
has been restored again.
Her faith though kept still; shaken,
grew higher than the storm.
The nights that had been taken,
now feel so safe and warm.
A life of bitter ashes;
replaced by dreams of dare,
the sorrow of the past has,
vanished into air.
From believing no one loved her,
to convinced that Some One does.
From accepting she must suffer,
to receiving special love.
From cringing in a cold cage,
to soaring high and free.
From leading lady, on a stage,
to praising out of key.
The mask hiding the glow,
has fallen to the ground.
Revelation knowledge flows,
peace can make a sound.
This change came slowly,
and remains a mystery.
He forever Holy,
searching for..just…me.