Lord
Tested and True
I'm being tested....
And I feel, the fail.
For I am not worthy,
Of not even 1 nail.
I'm just a sinner,
Imperfect and flawed,
Compared to Perfection,
I'm just a fraud.
In my moments of weakness,
He is my steadfast might.
In my struggles in darkness,
He is my Guiding Light.
But by His Grace,
My soul is unstained,
Because of his Gift,
I'm no longer chained.
He comes in gently,
And I feel His arms,
Holding me closely,
Protected from harms.
He comes and He washes,
Away all my shame,
He calls me, His 'Beloved',
He calls me by name.
So if I'm being tested,
I now know I can't fail.
He tells me to not hide,
And lifts off my veil.
For there's no shame before Him,
We can't ever hide.
If we chose, to choose Him,
He'll walk by our side.
Forever in step with,
And of His accord,
I'll never be without...
My Savior...My Lord.
What If Faith is Not Enough
When reality finally hits you it hurts
When the truth comes into focus it’s brutally painful.
Hope isn't always enough
It’s not always a happy ending.
What happens when faith is not enough?
I get hot flashes
My depression splashes
My soul is cold like stone,
the fear of being alone.
So now I lay me down to sleep
I pray you lord my soul to keep
Don’t let me die before I wake
I pray you lord my soul do not take.
I barely have a past
And may have no future
Empty pages of a book
A story left unwritten
A life left unlived
A hope left in the dust.
Please don't take me yet
Your mercy you won't regret
I am down on my knees
Begging you please
Don’t take me away.
At night I dream a misty graveyard
A tombstone the name I cannot see
A flashlight in the darkness
A figure so lifeless I cannot breathe.
Then I awake not as fearless as I may seem.
If this is my future
And if it comes to pass
And this breath be my last
Then this thought to you I cast.
What if faith is not enough?
Then life would be rather tough
With nothing to believe in
And nothing to justify
Nothing to keep you sane
Nothing to grasp when you fall
You will have nothing,
nothing at all.
Sometimes that is how I am
Falling in the darkness
With nothing to take hold
This feeling leaves me cold
hearted, soulless, empty.
All I feel is the pain of being unreal
No one knows how this life feels,
when you are so lifeless.
So now I lay me down to cry
I pray you lord you can't let me die.
Now I lay me down to sleep
Close my eyes without a peep
Never to be opened again.
Your body goes warm then cold like rain
Slowly your body numbs,
to your fingers and your thumbs.
As your body stops working, you feel the cold mist of death
And peacefully while you’re sleeping you take your final breath.
Thanking God For Each Day That We Live
We should thank God for each day we have to live.
We should thank him or every day that he gives.
He could take us twenty years from now or today.
Nobody knows when the good Lord will take us away.
But we should thank him for each day he gives to us.
We should thank him every day until we die when our bodies will return to dust.
*My Angels Come To Save Me*
April-24-2005
Trisha M. Barrek Hopkins
When I thought all was gone
And felt my soul fading away
And when felt I had no one
I wanted my life to end in every way
When I was at my deepest sorrow and pain
And Felt like no one wanted me
And I had nothing more to gain
I wanted so bad to set my soul free
Crying in the late night
Feeling so alone
Had no one to hold me so tight
My heart as cold as stone
Beyond the hurt I could not see
That there was someone with I belong
That I didn't have to stay the way I be
That there's one that can make me strong
And all my pain can be set free
I've been so blind
By these demons of mine
That God sent me one so kind
And now I don't have to stand in miseries line
Because my angels come to save me
To protect and to love
The angel who was sent to my heart
From way up above
To be together forever never part
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*You Walked In*
October-7-2003
Trisha M. Barrek Hopkins
You walked in
And my broken heart went out the door
And "me" you won
My heart
My soul
Everything within every part
Keeping you love is my goal
When you walked in
You set my fears free
I've changed within
I'm happier and everyone can see
That you made me a difference
I'm a newer person the whole way around
I just love your presence
That day was so wonderful you is what i found
I admit it it took along time
To get where i am now
You i want to forever wine and dine
In every way i know how
I'm so beyond words it was you that walked in
That brought such sunshine
And such a great person to love
I really truly thank the lord above
That you're mine
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Genesis
The Stepford Model
We are programmed. We are complacent.
Eve was never tempted.
The apple never bittten.
No evil allowed. No knowledge of the choice of evil.
Human existence- simplified, beautiful, lacking.
an eerie Sim-like board game
Everyone wins. (No one cares.)
Bitten apple. Serpant wins.
Vast knowledge and an evil.
Depth now applicable within the
Human spirit, the human experience. (Freedom of choice.)
Wars, destruction
Under human control
Optional-
Part of the apple's contract
The Lord's power is great, yet
Allows for us to choose.
Everyone wins. But world's evil is not
At the blame of the Creator
but at the application, the choice
of humans to give in to and act upon
The knowledge of evil.
This is why I despise snakes.
After the Golden Age
Chaos should not cease
To dominate the world.
O yes, Nyarlathotep;
Will rule!
No wish for harmony,
Of its Golden Age;
It was before the Fall.
Reveling in constant disorder,
But Yog-Sothoth prefers reason;
Giving His first allegiance
To the Daemon Sultan: Azathoth
Remembering old times of this God.
Cthulhu does side with Him,
But Yig supports Yog-Sothoth;
As Father Serpent of the Cosmos,
Who invented this very world...
Yog-Sothoth has sympathy,
As Dagon; the Deep One Lord
And not even he can say
What will happen when there remains
A Princess restored on Her throne,
A Princess on Ebony Bone.
Lord, I need your guidance and protection
Bowing down before thy Lord,
I question thee...
Why must you remain invisible to me?
I see you there, I see your works.
They're beautiful, but Lord, it hurts.
I long to be wrapped in your arms.
To feel your grace, I succumb to your charms.
Each time that you contact me,
My heart alights with so much glee.
But sometime when you leave me be,
I get confused and easily deceived.
I see your light in every being.
So I can't deceipher when the devil sings.
Daddy
Be all I see, Lord
For this I pray
Guide me and love me
Every day
Show me your goodness
Through hardness and strife
And I’ll love you, Daddy
For all of my life
Be Thou my vision
And give me Your eyes
So I can see other’s
Pain through their lies
Give me Your heart, Lord
To love as You do
For I once was like them;
And You made me new
Help them to see, Lord
The love that we share
Your son, my Daddy
‘Cause of Calvary there
Help them to know You
As loving and kind
Creator of all things
Glory divine
Give them the vision
As they look at this world
That they all are special
Every boy and girl
That they’re lost, but You made
A way to come back
And they’re all welcome
To the love that they lack
Your arms are wide open
For you’ve paid our price
Blood to save us
Love’s sacrifice
Can’t they see You?
On Calvary’s tree
Giving forgiveness
Dying for me