I'm always talkin, to my damn-self,
be-cause no one else, ever seems to listen to me.
So I'm left talkin, to my damn-self, like I am crazy.
I have good ideas, that no one ever hears,
cause they're too busy, always staring at a screen. So I'm left talkin, to my damn-self, like I am crazy.
I'm often asking myself why, do I even try to get my voice, to be heard.
Unless I shout and scream, no one hears me,
and when I do, they tell me, I'm mean.
Now I keep talkin, to my damn-self,
Cause there's no one else, who gives a damn about what I say,
and ill keep talkin, to my damn-self, cause they drove me crazy.
I'm often asking myself why, do I even try, to get my voice, to be heard.
Unless I Shout And Scream, No One hears me,
And when I Do, they tell me, I'm mean.
So I'm Left Talkin! To my damn-self! Cause there's no one left! who gives a fuck about what I say!
And I'll Keep Talkin, To My Damn-self, Cause I Am Cra-zy!!
Barbara Lynn
crazy lane! 2015
there are diferent kinds of drivers so please beware
but the worst kinds of drivers you'll see out there
you'll wanna stand clear cuz there driving insane
and thats when you'll know your in the crazy lane
out there on the road they cause others to flee
to buzy texting and talking and can not see
that family of five driving at night in the rain
then they'll never forget they were in the crazy lane
so please listen carefully and see this as a warning
and you might just wake up to see tomorow morning
i hope you heard my plea cuz there'll be nothing to gain
if you dont drive responsably in the crazy lane
I see the hat atop your head, reads clearly, "Undisturbed"
But the straight Jacket really says it all.......
I got a case of the "Heebies Jeebies" from this disturbed...
Well, you know the type...
Misguided and delusional, with a melon,
Not quite ripe.
Everytime they make their presents known,
I cringe when I read the line...
Some, off the wall, psycho babble,
Sending shivers up my spine.
What's wrong with people nowadays,
Is it self abuse that rots the brain?
Or just narcissistic tendencies,
Which drive them past insane?
I kept on pushing, believing it will work
But I’m terribly wrong.
You never cared, you never loved
What kind of a person are you?
Was I never special to you?
Series of girls’ names I’ve heard
Looks like they got the same treatment as me.
But I was there longer.
You never appreciate the things I’ve done.
Let alone the amount of sleep I’ve lost.
With those decisions you made,
I’ve arrived to a conclusion,
It was nice knowing you.
You got long brown locks
Eyes not quite like a hawk's
And you gotta have those glasses
'Cause if you didn't you'd cause crashes
Though you already crashed into my heart
Made it hard to be apart
But you weren't insured
So now my heart's interred
Buried under layers of love
When it used to be free as a dove
You always know how to make me smile
Little did you know that all the while
My brain was running, flowing like the Nile
Thinking of ideas, putting them in a pile
Of how to convince you that I'm worth your while
But I knew none of it would ever work
You'd never be convinced of my perks
So I tried to give the idea a rest
Put my feelings to the test
I tried to avert my attention
But in the end there was too much tension
My heart pulled harder than my mind
I looked in your eyes but there was nothing to find
No clues, no treasure map
To feelings that would fill this gap
To think that this all started from one mishap
We were backstage, the show was a bore
When someone yelled, “Shut and Bar the Door!”
body locked,
shotgun cocked,
my mind is on overload as the clock tick tocks,
as my body rocks,
hardened, im laying in a corner,
cooped up im alone, afraid
and nothing seems to go my way,
and I'm stuck broken blocked...
tick tock tick tock
bleeding out my seconds,
bleeding out my memory and all i want is seconds,
he reckons i'm loosing the plot,
just fuck it write down all you got,
im in a hurricane of waivers
no names
no mistakes
no you
no me
no I or it
I want to fucking get over this shit
which bit?
until the truth starts coming out
as I spout
words of needless rhymes
in time to no verse
you've heard with mine
take my time
line after line
2 years is long when you stuck in time
Im broken
and soaking in
a comatose conumdrum
no one succumbs them
I overwhelm their slumber
as thunder eeks out of forever growing fear
tearing it all up and disgarding the cheer
as i leer so close to a vacant edge
I'm loosing myself
am I already dead
In my head the colors they swoon my thoughts
ambled in displacement
my care is gone
my flair is gone
I suffer on a page
this what my talent generates
a last line
of behind time
breaking a wall which aiant so fine
Im breaking mind
breaking will
I've tortured motivation
as I let it see failure
just so I could mail, whore
don't know what this fucking image is for
I sufficate in corruption
of mine taking
talking too fast
I've lost a line
and memory can't serve a damn fuckin thing
just a suffication of want
was to be
and remembering
of lost time
red rings of fortune are too lost to find
and in my mind
there's just mixed words
just pout it all out
no matter how absurd
can they see the pain in the words
as I tear them out of mind's warp
and straggler's are cauight
they deficate
loosing the managable control
too late
I'm sinking in rhyme
dousing it in flame
I'm sick of being called my old fucking name
begin to retain
engage on first wave
I just got to think before degenerates....
I was just sitting around
Thoughts in the air
When the scarf on the ground
Transformed into a bear
I couldn’t believe my eyes
As it growled, its mouth with froth
And when I began to rise
It melted back into a piece of cloth
I heard the phone sound its tone
I saw the screen was lit
I even saw the id said “unknown”
So I told my bro to answer it
But then it stopped ringing, I thought ‘another call missed’
Until he said I had a messed up head
And a look at the recent calls list
Didn’t support what I saw or said
We were in the car, mother and I
When I said “look out for the man in white!”
She looked at me with a sigh
Said “don’t joke like that, especially at night!”
Lying in my bed at night
Not sleeping (but I tried)
I saw flashes of light
Coming from outside
Every week, I have new cuts and scrapes
On my arms, from who knows what or where
Behind the curtains, I see their shapes
With sounds of footsteps in the air
I’ve been getting calls from blocked numbers
When I answer, no one speaks
Just breathing, and it’s quite a bother
Because they’ve been calling for weeks
At night, I argue with that other voice
And my head feels like it’s on fire
More voice come, and they’re not very nice
And one keeps calling me a liar
A few weeks back, there was this one day
Where these voices were unheard, these things unseen
Where I didn’t think or seem crazy
But then I woke up from that amazing dream
walking through a smokey fume.. in this sealed up dark room..
I saw your eyes bleeding blue.
going up, going down. spin spin around & around
falling to my knees, calling out to God, please
save me from this crucifixion
cut the ties to lifes addictions
spit up the lies you fed, on which I choked
climbing up these ropes
running away from the hoax
insanity, the only word she knows.
deep in the dungeon, I go plunging
searching for the meaning
intervening, I come between two scales..
a lions head with three flaming tails.
i'm not like this.. you're leading me to be crazy..
one day i'll run, forever away from you, maybe...
like the speed of light, in a flash, little hazy.
there's more for me then this demonic plague..
there's more to life then constant conviction.
wrists are shaking & those screams begin to take a toll..
driving round this winding road..
i'm done with your pitiful smold of an existence..
don't act like you know what i'm missing.
so here I plant my feet in the ground, not bending for you now
never again will I twist or turn
because bitch, you've got so much to learn.