
The remnants of a life: scattered papers and the last letter written in a dim, cold room where
hope has faded. The final echo in an empty space. Image by Midjourney v6.
3. Tender Echoes in Ink - revised
“Non omnis moriar.”
– Horace
I am-
but who deciphers
the static in my marrow,
the flicker of a filament
spitting sparks
in the socket of my skull?
I am the vessel,
cracked and brimming,
where anguish sloshes,
tide against glass.
This world-
a crooked scale,
its fulcrum rusted,
its verdicts cold as coins
dropped in a well.
I tumble through
the hush of halls,
my pleas ricocheting
off marble, off memory,
off the backs of those
who never turn.
All I cherished-
ghosts in the fog,
fur and feather,
warmth and weight.
I write goodbyes
with knuckles white,
each syllable a shackle,
each phrase a pebble
dropped in the well of my chest.
For those I taught-
let your questions
crack the shell
of every easy answer.
Let hope be a howl,
let your laughter
shield you from the wolves.
For those I fed-
I’ve left the list,
the blanket,
the sunlit window.
Forgive me-
I have run out of doors.
I have begged,
bartered sleep,
mapped alleys,
counted sheep.
But the night keeps gnashing,
the dawn never breaks.
I am the last note
the violin makes
before the string snaps-
snap-
a hush,
a hush.
But I dream-
you, curled in a shaft of light,
you, safe in the hush of a home.
Let my leaving be a door,
not a wall.
Let my words be a bridge,
not a stone.
In the hush,
may you hear my hope.

"I pen farewells with hands that tremble, ache, / Each word a weight, each phrase a shackled sigh." Image by Midjourney v7
I am! Yet who discerns the self I bear?
My essence flickers, dimming like a star.
I am the vessel where my anguish dwells,
A mind in constant spin, both near and far.
This unjust world, its balance torn and lost—
Yet still I am—I live—though tempest-tossed.
Into the storm of cold, dismissive eyes,
Into the swirling sea of disbelief,
Where years of earnest, documented cries
Find no safe harbour, no shore, no relief.
All that I cherished fades into the mist,
My faithful friends, my comfort near-dismissed.
I pen farewells with hands that tremble, ache,
Each word a weight, each phrase a shackled sigh.
For those I've guided, nurtured, strived to wake,
Instructions flow like tears that never dry.
The care, the love, the dreams we've woven here—
Unravelled by the threads of fate, severe.
And for the gentle beasts who've shared my heart,
Whose fur and feathers soothed my weary soul,
I trace provisions for when I depart,
Each line an arrow through my being's whole.
The thought of parting rends with searing pain,
Yet homelessness would be a crueller bane.
I've fought, I've pleaded, scraped for any aid,
Exhausted every path, each avenue.
But now the hour comes, the choice is made,
To end this dance, to bid this life adieu.
The shame, the guilt, they claw with vicious talons,
Yet suffering's spectre looms in stark equivalence.
There's solace in imagining their joy,
In homes where love will be their steadfast guide.
Though I'll be gone, my spirit will deploy,
To guard and bless them, ever by their side.
And in that thought, a fragile peace unfurls,
To ease the ache within my shattered world.
So ink becomes my voice, my legacy,
The tether that connects me to their light.
Each caring phrase, a token of what's lost,
Each fond remembrance, armour for their fight.
I'll slip away, a whisper on the breeze,
But in these letters, part of me still breathes.
SECRET MESSAGES WILL APPEAR
ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW IS RIGHT HERE
THEY WILL COME TO YOU LOUD AND CLEAR
TRUST YOU'LL FIND THEM HAVE NO FEAR
WHY DON'T WE BREAK THE ICE
IT'S BEST TO CUT CORNERS
DON'T BEAT AROUND THE BUSH
HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD
IT'S A PIECE OF CAKE
BITE OFF MORE THAN YOU CAN CHEW
TAKE IT WITH A PINCH OF SALT
DON'T CRY OVER SPILLED MILK
GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER
GO THE EXTRA MILE
THE BALL IS IN YOUR COURT
DON'T THROW IN THE TOWEL
ONCE IN A BLUE MOON
STEAL SOMEONE'S THUNDER
LET THE CAT OUT OF THE BAG
LET'S CALL IT A DAY OF IDIOMS
MIND YOUR Ps AND Qs
BUT WHAT ABOUT THE REST
THERE ARE TWENTY FOUR MORE
DO YOU THINK I JEST
ALL THE OTHER LETTERS
WANTED TO SUGGEST
THEY'RE JUST AS IMPORTANT
THIS IS THEIR REQUEST
I AGREE WITH THEM
AND I THINK IT'S BEST
TO GIVE THEM ALL A CHANCE
TO ADD A LITTLE ZEST
IF IT'S NEITHER HERE NOR THERE
THEN WHERE IS IT
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU DON'T CARE
IF IT ISN'T
WONDER IF SOME DAY YOU'LL DARE
TO REVISIT
IT ISN'T JUST A RUMOR
YOU NEED A SENSE OF HUMOR
TO LAUGH AT ALL THE NONSENSE
IT'S A FORM OF SELF DEFENSE
IT'S FUNNY HOW SOMETIMES
THINGS POP INTO YOUR HEAD
IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
SOME THINGS YOU MIGHT HAVE READ
SOME THINGS YOU MIGHT HAVE HEARD
SOME THINGS YOU MIGHT HAVE SEEN
SOME THINGS ARE JUST OBSERVED
SOME THINGS ARE JUST A DREAM
STEPPING STONES
ACROSS THE CREEK
MAY BE SLIPPERY
TREAD CAREFULLY
WHILE YOU SEEK
TO FIND ANOTHER WAY