i am trying to separate
to tear the skin from the you
but the skin is music
and every song is a conjuring
i can’t listen to the ghosts or with them
but i am always drawn back
i can’t sing into their mouths
mouths without teeth that will swallow me whole
turn me into a pipeline
bedridden with all these psychedelic blankets
i yell out the window enough to be kurt cobain’s muse
sew banshees into my nailbeds
can’t tell if i want
modest animals or feral humans
interpolate the beat until i have made it something else
a song i have never heard
i yell out the ending to another story.
but is it an ending
or just a ceasefire.
use this new angle
looking from the core of the earth
to turn this heat upside down
surprise high notes make their way out of my throat
penny memories to nickel finger twists
to letting you hear this now
a journey no matter how many limbs I’ve lost
half the voices I chase cross the country
the other half tucked under my pillow
I can still give you this sound
faster than I can give you
my fingers
a smell from 10 years ago
the fleeting sunset
the pain in your chest
but really
isn’t it all the same
so make me a half rest in your closet
or a disco on the stage
as long as you
keep me in your head