Went in to hard
High hopes and that
All smiles and butter flies
Fly high sky high
Transparent and all
Nothing reflected on me
Give all I could ever think of
Her smile my priority and all that
Forgot about everything for a while
Its a paradise in hell
All good till it melted away
Broken heart all over the floor
Me on my knees begging and all
Her on her feet never cared and all
See her walking away with my heart in her hand
I was just another challenge she defeated
A monument she conquered
A trophy she won
I got worn out from all the games she played
Damn she's a champ when it comes to this
Always finding myself in her plate
And my soul was for here's to eat
How can I move on?
While my heart its still holding on
And nobody understands the pain
That I feel inside
Everyday I scream but I'm still unheard
Its like waking up from a nightmare
Just to find yourself in another nightmare
If only she could be the one
Who feels all of this
Cause my only sin was
To give all this love I have
Now I'm left with an empty void
That can't be filled
Stuck with your soul that's lost.
It's gone forever.
It sucks mine in everytime.
You can't have mine I abolish it.
You devour what I am.
You steal what's inside of me
until I am dead. You take it all.
I can't have a fucking drop.
No one can. So how will you live now?
How will you go on?
Who's soul will you take captive?
You survive off the pain and hurt you inflict.
You watch it before you.
What you have created.
And you want more...
You take awe in what you've created.
You know what you will make next with your deceit.
But tell me now, when you know I love you.
And you take everything I was.
But I kept that drop.
You couldn't fucking suck because you were so goddamn lustful.
That drop is mine and I will always have it.
Because you didn't fucking kill me.
Im alive and you're dead because you're lost without me and your precious drop.
You will watch.
I warned you.
You picked your pills.
Have another.
So tell me now what the fuck do you have?
I've never been so angry.
I've never felt so battered.
I've never felt so hurt
But my trust was never shattered.
I told you all my secrets.
I never told you lies.
This should have never happened.
My trust should not have died.
How can i trust you again?
I feel so betrayed.
You might not have meant it
At least that's what you say.
But the words were still spoken
And it still hurt for days.
I have accepted that it happened.
I know what's done is done.
Doesn't mean i like it,
Especially since no one won.
And now my trust is shattered
How can this be undone?
Maybe one day i'll trust you again.
I guess someday we'll know
But until then i don't know what to say
Or even where we stand.
I hate that this has happened
But i know how to trust you, I know deep down i can.
Above the rest you grow
beautiful you must know
mature and compose
as time goes some doze
but never does my nose
my sweet smelling rose
i promised to be gentle
i stuck to my decree
as thorns grew through thee
thorns sticking onto me
i came to see it was not me....
but of cold and sleet
simply had you beat
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“Endless Nights”
Endless Nights, losing fights
I've seen my time, living my life, is it a crime?
Does it look like I give a fuck
that I ran out of luck, and now I'm stuck
haunted by these endless nights, blinded by these bright lights
seduced by your hate, now my emotions you sedate
crawling back on my broken hands and feet
deflowering everything that is right and neat
throwing away any hopes for salvation
living in this lie of mutilation
I am forced to eat the shit you throw
but what you don't know, is that my anger will grow
in your lives that I will consume
bringing forth your fucking doom
for in my eyes, your diseased flies
your existence is nothing but lies