Overthinking, sinking, falling, crawling.. damned..
why am I stuck in this abysmal black quicksand..? are we nothing but a pitiful man..?
I know you don't appreciate this form of expression...
but my life isn't over until i've learned each of the lessons.
drained, crippling, cracking & hyperventilating..
pathetic vacant melting disgrace..
I can see the smile wearing off your face..
hot wax spilled into my eyes today..
part of me knows better, then to believe in such a mundane reality..
there's much greater sights to see, in my 8 dimensional fantasy.
Slit, slice.. need to free myself from this vice.
we all need to constantly think twice.. I wish you were still around..
wish you could be a healthy piece to my life, but I had to try & make the right choice...
you bare that empty stare.. like a glare..
were you ever really there..?
Light turns shadow
Shadow grows darker
Brightness has left from my eyes
Light has left me
Darkness calls me
As I sink into these lies
The world has called me
And I will answer
As I fall into this void
Sleep now takes me
Life has left me
Now I lie dead and cold.
Now I feel it
Sinking again
Going deeper and deeper
Seeing everything spin
My heart and guts
Lay at my feet
It pulls me down
Never a retreat
Life becomes a blur
Future, present, and past
It was always the same
Never did at last
New face, different game
Always leaving me to fall
Into the bottomless pit
With no one to call
~Chrystal
Written on
June 17 2006