She was just a game
I didn't even remember her name.
Now she's the person i'm in love with
even though i thought love was just a myth.
At the beginning I lead her on thinking what we had was real
I didn't believe in love so i didn't know how to feel.
I kept leading her on
until one day she was almost gone.
This day I cheated on her
and when i told her, she was numb.
She didn't know what she preferred,
so I gave her time waiting for a hopeless outcome.
During this time all I did was feel guilt
because I told her I would never do that.
All the memories that we built
could've vanished because I was a brat
I couldn't tilt
I felt my heartbeat went flat.
I just wanted us together, never to split.
The next day she said “I will forgive but I will not forget”
and I thought she made her decision too soon.
I was still feeling regret
but her forgiveness brought me light,she was my moon.
She changed me in so many good ways
that I never thought I could.
So all I do now is think of her everyday
and love her the way I should.
I love her with all my soul
because every time I'm broken she makes me whole.
The night was clear, the stars shined bright and the moon was full and it gave a strong silver light that allowed them to see each other completely. They were sitting on the grass, one in front of the other, just a few inches away. They were silent, they wouldn’t dare to say a word, not even there at the outside of the city, where they knew no one would hear them. They looked at each other calmly, as if they hadn’t seen before, maybe because it was partially right, this was certainly not the first time they had seen but never had they looked at each other like that, deep in the eyes, no lies this time, so vulnerable and yet so fearless.
One broke the silence and then it all came so natural that it seemed as if they hadn’t talked in ages, but then again this was probably right too. They talked about their dreams, about their wishes, about their past, about their future. One told the other that he planned to move to New York to become a playwright and how badly he wanted his plays to make it to Broadway, the other simply said he wanted to make it out of the small town they lived in, to see the world, know places, meet people and learn new things. Maybe they could make it, who knew? The world is full of unlikely events and maybe their dreams were one of those, or maybe they weren’t but on that moment it didn’t matter, in that moment it was all possible and they were convinced they would make it, in that moment it was them against the world and that was all that was needed.
The hours passed by and the moon crossed the sky and the two young boys realized that it was time for them to part ways, for the night was soon to be over and their little world with it. The silent came back as fast as it was once gone and they both stared at each other again for a few seconds. “I think I love you” said one of them in a shaky voice that could hardly be heard by the other; he wasn’t sure if he did, he wasn’t even sure that he could tell even if he did feel it, for he didn’t know what love was but he was sure he was ready to learn. “I guess I love you too” replied the other, also unsure of what he felt. The first one reach out to touch the other’s face and without knowing the latter leaned forward and kissed him. It was a rather awkward kiss, both first, and yet for some reason it just felt right. As soon as it was over they stood up, shook their clothes and said goodbye as fast as they could, for they had to hurry on their way back home. “See you at school” said one of them.
The other arrived home, got in without making any noise in order to not wake his parents and lay in bed wide awake for a while; ‘see you in school’, this phrase kept rumbling in his head as he was falling asleep, sure they would see each other at school on Monday but would they really see each other? Would they even talk to each other? Even if the other was willing to, would he be? He closed his eyes, sure of the answer to those question.
IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OFTEN
BUT EVERY NOW AND THEN
MY HEART TAKES ME BACK TO WAY BACK WHEN
AND I WONDER WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN
I REMEMBER I GAVE YOU MY HEART
AND YOU BROKE IT IN TWO
YEAH I REMEMBER YOU
I REMEMBER THE HEARTACHE
AND ALL THE HELL YOU PUT ME THROUGH
YEAH I REMEMBER YOU
I FELL HARD AND I FEEL FAST
NEVER KNOWING IT WOULD NEVER LAST
YEAH I REMEMBER YOU
YOU'RE A BITTERSWEET MEMORY FROM MY PAST
I BELIEVED YOU WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME
BUT I KNOW NOW YOU NEVER DID
BUT THEN I WAS YOUNG AND DUMB
I WAS ONLY 15, JUST A KID
THE FIRST TIME I SEEN YOU THAT DAY
YOU STOLE MY HEART AWAY
THEY SAY YOU NEVER FORGET YOUR FIRST LOVE
AND I KNOW IT MUST BE TRUE
I REMEMBER YOU
EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS
WHEN I WONDER IF YOU REMEMBER ME I HOPE THAY YOU DO
I REMEMBER YOU
SOMETIMES I THINK ABOUT YOU
MORE THAN I'D LIKE TO ADMIT
BUT FOR WHATEVER THE REASON MY HEART
JUST WON'T LET ME FORGET
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WANT TO
I STILL REMEMBER YOU
SOME LESSONS IN LIFE ARE EASY AND SOME ARE TUFF
WITH YOU I LEARNED SOMETIMES LOVE ISN'T ENOUGH
YOU ARE JUST ONE OF MY MANY DREAMS THAT NEVER CAME TRUE
THAT'S HOW I WILL REMEMBER YOU
She knew this was right-
THEY BOTH KNEW,
this was right...and good
and only theirs.
Knew it was fate~
Knew that the hand of God
joined them as one,
so very long, long ago.
~
And when His timing
was just set to perfect,
He, in His infinate wisdom
and divine, loving Grace,
once again,
brought them together~
Never to be cut out again,
from each other's life.
~
Never again to feel alone.
or be so lonely.
Or to feel so unvalued,
so broken.
But to bask now, in this~their love.
And to forever simply,
Just love
and be loved.
Do you even know?
Can you even fathom?
Could you ever have guessed?
...How much I have loved you?
How much I wanted you?
How much I love...and want you still?
That I carried a torch,
That burned out of control,
Yet had to be smothered,
To only smoldering embers,
Hidden inside me, till they burned,
A scorched mark upon my soul?
That never, ever, were you forgotten?
Even when maybe, you thought-
No one cared, no one loved you,
That someone out there...me...
Never forgot, never stopped loving...you.
Never could, even if I tried.
That you were the only one,
Who most impacted my heart,
Who made me really feel alive,
Who seared your very self into my soul-
A place I never allowed anyone else access-
And now, still, only you reside, forever.
Do you even know...
That now, that we have again connected-
At last...that if I died today,
I could die happy, content,
Knowing that my one, long-treasured dream,
Finally and blissfully...came true
fearful of making the same mistakes
though I am more than likely to
because there are things I'd like to ask
and as easy as those questions come
it is hard when they come to you
you weren't just a holiday or vacation
though you share the sentiment of one
because you are every day and every night
and you are the ache in between my giggles
my disorientation when the night greets the sun
there were a handful of faces to pick apart
though only yours really came into view
because you had the nerve to confront my absurdities
and much of that I needed to hear
most of what you had to say about me was true
to make your eyes illuminate is a wish
though I am unsure of what my efforts would transpire
because the closer I hope to get
and the further things trail away
I am surely only causing your will to tire
fearful of making the same mistakes
though I am more than likely to
because there are things I'd like to ask
and as easy as those questions come
it is hard when they come to you
Thoughts of you bring poetry to my heart
Dancing around in careless spins until Im dizzy with joy
Each word caresses the other with comforting bliss
Welcoming back fool hearted dreams I once embraced
But before my feet leave the floor
Before I can finish this poem
Each line brings me back
Closer to the road I strayed
I turn to see if there is any light the way I came
With no luck
My thoughts hush to a soft whisper in the night
This was the easier road it seemed
And then Im left alone
With a map of unfinished poetry guiding me home
I was running through the wilderness,
Heart torn and eyes too big to see,
In my fortress of solitude,
A temporary space to escape in,
You came to me in my dreams.
Now my heart beats proudly, as you’re holding on to me,
I painted perfection; it’s only you that I can see.
You’ve taught me I’m a fighter,
When naked, I still believe,
You are more than just a figment of imagination.
This love is a fire, that when touched it can heal,
Burning passion lingers, the reason I breathe,
The future is ours, a wild ride together; we are free,
We are just ordinary people in our extra-ordinary worlds,
When with you there’s nothing I can’t believe,
I loved you before I met you,
You came to me in my dreams.
The first love is the love of my life.
Now I know I never love another man
In the way I loved you.
Is not such thing as second love
I can’t imagine myself loving another
Person that isn’t you.
He might be the perfect man
For me, but it’s not you!
You will always be my star.
I want you to know that.
We broke up because of bad luck.
I know you loved me as much I loved you.
I could feel it by the kisses you gave to me.
They were the closest thing to heaven.
A little butterfly told me that you found a new love.
I wanted to hate you.
I never succeeded.
My hart never let me to do that.
You are the king of her.
Because of your true love she is a life.
Please wipe my tears and bring me back
to the time that we were one person.
Do not forget about our first love.