young boys

To Really See Each Other

The night was clear, the stars shined bright and the moon was full and it gave a strong silver light that allowed them to see each other completely. They were sitting on the grass, one in front of the other, just a few inches away. They were silent, they wouldn’t dare to say a word, not even there at the outside of the city, where they knew no one would hear them. They looked at each other calmly, as if they hadn’t seen before, maybe because it was partially right, this was certainly not the first time they had seen but never had they looked at each other like that, deep in the eyes, no lies this time, so vulnerable and yet so fearless.

 

One broke the silence and then it all came so natural that it seemed as if they hadn’t talked in ages, but then again this was probably right too. They talked about their dreams, about their wishes, about their past, about their future. One told the other that he planned to move to New York to become a playwright and how badly he wanted his plays to make it to Broadway, the other simply said he wanted to make it out of the small town they lived in, to see the world, know places, meet people and learn new things. Maybe they could make it, who knew? The world is full of unlikely events and maybe their dreams were one of those, or maybe they weren’t but on that moment it didn’t matter, in that moment it was all possible and they were convinced they would make it, in that moment it was them against the world and that was all that was needed.


The hours passed by and the moon crossed the sky and the two young boys realized that it was time for them to part ways, for the night was soon to be over and their little world with it. The silent came back as fast as it was once gone and they both stared at each other again for a few seconds. “I think I love you” said one of them in a shaky voice that could hardly be heard by the other; he wasn’t sure if he did, he wasn’t even sure that he could tell even if he did feel it, for he didn’t know what love was but he was sure he was ready to learn. “I guess I love you too” replied the other, also unsure of what he felt. The first one reach out to touch the other’s face and without knowing the latter leaned forward and kissed him. It was a rather awkward kiss, both first, and yet for some reason it just felt right. As soon as it was over they stood up, shook their clothes and said goodbye as fast as they could, for they had to hurry on their way back home. “See you at school” said one of them.

 


The other arrived home, got in without making any noise in order to not wake his parents and lay in bed wide awake for a while; ‘see you in school’, this phrase kept rumbling in his head as he was falling asleep, sure they would see each other at school on Monday but would they really see each other? Would they even talk to each other? Even if the other was willing to, would he be? He closed his eyes, sure of the answer to those question.