She was a woman built in technicolor:
a vibrant Monet's parasol beauty in a miniskirt with
indecencies etched into her eyelids and the promise of
galaxies mapped out on her lips.
Tell them we died
in late evening while the band still lingered
over their cocktails
and rhythms slid like molasses
over moon-tanned shoulders and under stilettos.
Cinnamon wafted from her hair as she tapped a heel.
I imagined what my mother would say
and I suppose we gathered glances
like some do sea shells
and held them just as tightly.
First I will say that although I have clicked on the font menu for this to come out in 2pt, in parenthesis it says "(10pt)",, so however it comes out for anyone, will be a matter of happenstance I suppose.
Today is supposedly "National Coming Out Day"on an international level. I don't know how "official" that is, but I figured I'd write on it anyway for all those who honor it.
I am and have always been a heterosexual woman who has totally enjoyed being so. I do not know what it feels like to be confused about sexuality. To me, there was never a question about it until the world started making it such a big deal. I have always known, (even if I couldn't understand), there are people who are sexually attracted to someone with the same genitals as themself. I always liked "different" and still do...more with every year I age. I have acquaintances, family, and friends who are gay and bisexual, and have a huge amount of respect for their struggles, (same as I do for ethnic minorities and other of the downtrodden and disrespected of society).
So, yes, here it comes, brace yourself--the big ''however".
.....However, just as gays and bisexuals, (s&m lovers, those who favor beastiality...whatever), want to be respected for their sexual preferences, and I will speak for myself at this point and say that heterosexuals would like the same. Those gays and bisexuals I associate with DO respect my sexuality, and we share fullfilling friendships. I cannot say the same for most I have met. I do not know if they understand that just as they want to be accepted in society, getting that respect doesn't come by making assumptions and attempting to act out fantasies with those whom they are fully aware are not attracted to them in a sexual way.
We are sexual beings. This Is true. It slithers it's way out sometimes in places where we do not intend for it to, but just because we may think someone is sexually attracted to us, doesn't mean they are. Please don't take that out of context. It is a good thing to practice no matter what your sexual preferences are. I know both men and women who have been approached in a disrespectful manner and felt defiled, violated, and extremely disrespected.
...so please be considerate and make your community proud. Don't be a disgrace to it.
Peace. And happy happy "International Coming Out Day"
.......
there was a girl
Time for lunch.
Heading to the Caf,
Anxiety
For the one I yearn.
Surprise.
What's she doing here?
Black hair, black eyeliner, black clothes.
Caught bleeding.
I've missed you.
And I you.
Pink, supple lips.
Full, large hips.
Irresistible,
I break the rules.
Staring.
Fuck off.
If love was real,
I think I'd love you.
And I would you.
Hah, love.