mourning

Merry Christmas, Mom

Last Christmas was great because I was able to spend it with you.

But I'll be spending this Christmas alone and it makes me feel so blue.

We each thought the world of one another.

I'm very proud that you were my mother.

 

You were sweet, smart and so very wise.

I've been devastated because of your demise.

You always said that you loved me and was proud of me but nobody tells me that anymore.

I didn't know just how great you were until I lost you and it makes me feel so sad and poor.

 

It brought me joy when I called you each day.

But sadly, that pleasure has been taken away.

While you were on Earth, I was so blessed.

Merry Christmas Mom, you were truly the best.

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Dedicated to Agnes Johnson (1948-2013) who passed away March 6, 2013.

I have much less to be thankful for

This Thanksgiving I have much less to be thankful for.

Much less than I did just one year before.

When I lost Mom in March, I lost my mother and my best friend.

I had no idea how sick she was or that her life would abruptly end.

Four months later I lost my Dad as well.

This Thanksgiving I'm living in Hell.

But I am thankful to still have my brother.

We have no parents, we only have each other.

Since March the 6th, I've had very little happiness.

Last year I had much to be thankful for but now I have much less.

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Now That You're Gone

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All About Me

I still remember the morning you passed away,
I think it's ironic it was April Fools Day.
I was on the computer when you came to me,
I need to write this to set your soul free.

You were cold to the touch for the first time ever,
Just kissing your cheek had made my soul shiver.
Didn't know it then that you were bound for heaven,
Looked at the clock, it was around five oh seven.

It worried me some, the pained look in your eyes,
That I comforted you came to no surprise.
You told me you were sorry that you were this way,
I told you don't worry, I loved you I'd say.

Assuring you that when its all over you'd be okay,
We walked out the door and went on our way.
To the hospital emergency room I drove fast,
Cursing at all the slow cars I had to pass.

When the doctor admitted you he took me aside,
He told me it'd be better if I waited outside.
The last thing I said as I waved you goodbye,
Was I love you, don't worry, I'll be here all the time.

I waited for what seemed like hours on end,
Until the nurse walked in and took my hand.
She said oh honey, I'm sorry for your loss,
I looked as she made the sign for a cross.

Defiant, I pushed passed her determined to see,
The doctors had paddles, but I wouldn't believe.
You were gone, I could see it all over your face,
Suddenly my world shattered all over the place.

I told them to stop, to just let you go,
You were no longer with us, but I just had to know.
Tears streaming I ran up and kissed your lips,
I couldn't hold on, had to get a grip.

Your mother was screaming no my baby, my baby,
I saw her lose hope with no chance for a maybe.
Your sister came in with tears in her eyes,
I saw through her face like some kind of disguise.

When it was all over I just sort of blacked out,
I didn't cry, I didn't shout.
I was numb to the very tips of my fingers,
With a darkness inside that started to linger.

For months I felt nothing inside me but pain,
I wanted so badly to hold you again.
To hear you whisper I love you, forever you'd swear,
But then I'd reach for the covers and you weren't there.

At first I tried drinking as a way to cope,
All that got me was trouble, made me feel like a dope.
Then I found myself singing each night at the bar,
Convenient for me because I didn't live far.

The songs flowed within me, my voice raised up high,
On the stage I almost felt I could fly.
Singing "Time After Time," and "The Greatest Man I Never Knew,"
No one knowing but me that I was singing to you.

It took time but I listened to all those around me,
Giving words of advise in hopes to set me free.
Pretty soon I was living as part of the world again,
Then God delivered to me a good friend.

He knew all the right words, he knew just what to say,
He had been through it all himself back in the day.
He saw through my brick walls I had thrown on my heart,
He made me want to begin a fresh start.

It was perfect timing how he and I met,
It was a new beginning for me and yet.
I couldn't help remembering how things used to be,
When we lived our lives together just you and me.

I remembered you told me one time you were blue,
That you'd pass away and I'd find someone new.
You said that you'd always be close in my mind,
And that with him true love I would find.

I believe you picked him out for me right from the crowd,
When he was singing his songs, and singing them loud.
You knew right then that he and I would become one.
And you know I still love you, even now that you're gone.

Brandy Noelle Souza
November 22, 2011

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This is dedicated to my ex fiance who died April 1, 2008. I was with him for 10 wonderful years. I wrote this poem in memory of him & as a form of grieving & moving on. If this poem touches anyone, or helps them in a time of need like this, I am glad for it.

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How Beautiful the Morn

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Shifting shadows round my head
As I lie in my bed
The morning sun, rising red
How beautiful the morn!

Death it comes all too fast
Makes life precious; make it last
Sweet sadness fade to past
How beautiful the mourn!

New life comes, when old’s gone
Like a babe, like a fawn,
Baby child’s life’s first dawn
How beautiful their morn!

These things I think on in my bed,
With shifting shadows round my head
God’s morning sun, so bright red
How beautiful the morn!

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Stayed up all night last night during a sleepover.... as I watched the morning rise, this poem came to me. Hope you like it!

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Sarah

That the scent of your roses never die,
the rivers from our tears never dry...
In your memories, I bury my love, so
your life will forever grow in me-
On borrowed time the path we choose
is our own...
In destiny's eyes no one is never
"gone too soon."
The heart aches become pillars of strength,
as we embrace the coming of a new day
without you in our arms-
Sadly we mourn, together we cry, united
we rejoice the celebration of your life...
embracing every moment we had with
you-
So these tears are no longer of sorrow,
but of joy...
Thanking the Lord for the honor of being
part of your life, and a blessing in OURS!!!
We smile now, because we miss you.

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In Memory Of Sarah Roberts....

Gone Too Soon

Gone so soon from our lives
We weren't ready to say goodbye
Your husband, Your children,your babies one by one
All can't accept you're really gone
We all walk along with our head held up high
But if we look down We would start to cry
When we are all alone there are simple wishes we would make
For the simple thing to make this easier to take
Just one last sound of your sweet voice
One more time to see your face
One last time to kiss that smile
Or hear your laugh just for a while
But now these are memories

We can't erase 
And they will have to do
Because we know these wishes won't come true
You left behind so many who loved you
Some aren't as strong as those arms above you
We love you mom
We always will
But now you're now that special angel up on that hill
So please watch over us as you have always done
Because we still need you mom
Your loving
Daughter Husband and Sons

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I lost my mom on Dec 18th 2008. I wrote this for her and it was read at her funeral a week later. It's been a month. And I am still waiting for it's going to get easier part to start.

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