In days of dark I dream of loneliness
In the light, I see her face.
Time moves slowly then,
But is limited, yet.
The thought is etched into me
Like a witch's curse
Her voice, though it calls,
When will it dim?
I awake to tired pictures,
To videos and notes that bleed.
I recall the times we had
And I see the light, once again.
This is for the one who never gets sleep at night.
This for the one who's always into fights.
This is for the one who never slipped a smile.
This is for the one who's been travelling for miles.
This is for the one who's still finding life's right track.
This is for the one who loves, but is never loved back.
Most importantly, this is for you.
I hope you had a bit of a clue.
I am a dark poet
nothing more, nothing less.
I will never experience
joy or happiness.
I write about suicide.
I write about murder.
I write about depression
and other subjects further.
Suicide on my mind
and death in my soul,
I wonder if I'll ever
be considered whole.
Everyday at school
a plastic smile on my face,
and you think Im happy
but that is not the case.
I am full of depression,
insecurity, and anger.
There is no possibility
of me being tamer.
Unless, of course,
I kill myself.
And put this life
up on the shelf.
Only then,
will I be at peace.
And safe,
from the world's pain, at least.
But Death may have something
in store for me when I die.
And I have no choice
but to sit there and not wonder why.
For if it is Hell,
then that's what I deserve.
And if it is Heaven,
the he's got some nerve.
For now I'm stuck here,
tortured everyday.
I need to kill myself,
it's the only way.
Wake up in the morning
To a gloomy sky
But listen to the sparrows chirping
It lifts the spirit high
Rain drench foliage so green
Freshen up day dreams
And here I sit to write
A few lines how it feels today in Berlin
Through the windows
Catch a glimpse
The cold wind spring and prance
Beckon, ‘Wake up, June let’s dance’
Upon a night which I’ve reminisced about the lost fractions of memories gone astray
I felt the stench of loneliness and despair gnaw at my skin, and cast upon me stagnation
The twilight prevailing the resonance of lost fates twinkles upon my eyes, and wipes tears away
I dissolve further into the mysterious fluorescence of the night, and venture to unpredictability
The breeze of this wavering night whispers the voices of those whose silence has overtaken
It unravels the desideratum of the souls lost in the fabric of inexplicable misery, and the passions latent within
It screams out the genuinely expressed intuition who crave the embrace of true transcendence
It cries through the ripples of rain drops the tales of what could have been, of what should have been
The breaths associated with the pace of my walk slowly drifts into the mode of contemplation
I witness the slow wavering of the trees in the night, the tickling of the whispering wind crawling up my spine, the motion of car lights and objects into the fading distance, the flickering of the moon’s shine in the gloom of the night, the beats of my overwhelmed heart, and the thoughts racing through my head all at once, then I stand in awe and wonder,
Where am I?
We were walking down
a midnight road,
the stars were new
but now they're old.
He took my hand
and held it close.
The skies were bleeding,
raining ghosts.
I heard a single
shrill cry call,
the kind of call
that makes you fall
and slip into
the land beyond.
The dreaming land
of mist and cloud,
the hazy land
where hell-hounds are found.
He held my hand close
and I stayed on firm ground.
No slipping or falling,
no hell-hounds around.
We watched as a raven
flew past our heads,
calling and calling,
soon its voice will be dead.
But he held my hand close
and I stayed on firm ground.
No slipping or falling,
no hell-hounds around.
And the ravens, they gathered,
white ravens, They flew
just like bright ash
in a chimney flue.
The full moon rose high,
casting its shadow,
blinking its eye,
watching the ravens,
ravens, white ravens,
watching the ravens
crying their cry.
But he held my hand close
and I stayed on firm ground,
no slipping or falling,
no hell-hounds around.
The feathers, they fell
off the tails of the birds.
The feathers, they floated
away like my words.
And the midnight shadows
danced and they fell.
Were they running away?
I couldn't tell.
But he held my hand close,
still here on firm ground,
no slipping, no falling,
no hell-hounds around.
The ravens, they dived,
the ravens they dove,
ravens, white ravens,
right past my bones.
And they went straight for him,
eyes, red as blood,
and they continued to come,
pouring in like a flood.
And he fell and he fell,
And he rose and he rose.
But the ravens kept coming,
holding their pose.
I held his hand close,
but firm ground was long gone,
he was slipping and falling,
what could I have done?
He took one last breath
and said in my ear;
"I love you,
I love you,
please do not fear."
But the ravens were circling,
the ravens were there,
the ravens, white ravens,
how could they dare?
His hand, it was slipping,
falling and falling.
The ravens were done.
They'd finished their calling.
And though he was gone,
though the night faded to grey,
his words, they still lingered,
forever they'd stay.
I watched as the sun
Rose bright and round.
I wonder if it knew
that terror had come down.
As the dawn struck me,
as the clouds danced,
and the colours sung
I knew it was forever
that he'd be gone.
But his words were still there,
still inside my ear;
"I love you, I love you,
please do not fear."
And so I live on,
for every day
as long as I continue
to let those words play.