I am the fear that hides within
The good things that have never been
I am the smoke behind your eyes
Caused you to believe your lies
I am the crushing in your heart
When life just tears it all apart
I am the tremble in your voice
The anger at never having choice
I am the tempter in your limbs
The light inside you slowly dims
I am the whisper in the night
Reminding you not all is right
No need to look underneath your bed
For I am the monster inside your head
So many voices in my head
Telling me who to be
Saying, Don't do that
Don't be this
Don't enjoy that
But I can go away
Hideaway in my sanctuary
And wait for the noise to calm down
Water flowing from my wrists
But I'll sit on the mossy bank
Of the river I've made
Listening to the peace of it all
Soak in the silence
And everything is all right
All is well
You'll find me
On the red stained shore
Of your self-made calamity
But I'll have nothing to say
Love is fleeting
It's a occupation
On which time takes it's toll
If both members do not work equally
So, where is love now
Broken man on broken feelings
Shattered dreams and fractured hope
“Ignorance is bliss.”
Because with wisdom comes understanding
With understanding comes pain
I'm barely left a ghost in this house
Gutted, soulless, but still existing
Existing, that's exactly the word
With nothing to live for
Without reasons to plan
Empty
For all our joy and happiness
I find, they tend to evanesce
Shadows give depth to our souls
Our sins shape our personality
But you've got a tell-tale heart
And it's told me all I need to know
It's told me goodbye
A man once said:
“It's a dangerous business,
going out your front door.”
And he was right
For deep is the river
and narrow the crossing
A river called melancholy
And a bridge called hope
A straight and narrow road
With no rails to catch you
Nothing to keep you from falling
Unless you trust in your footing
Unless you see where you're going
Unless you believe that you'll make it
And you will never fall
I finally close my eyes
Nostalgia for yesterday
Tears roll down my cheeks
Never again hold your hand
Never again to touch your face
Angels have fallen for less
And I will fall too
With a bottle pressed against my head
So I can forget
Your name on my lips
The last thing I'll say
Before I'm carried away
Lay me down
Beneath the ground
Among a bed of wildflowers
And a red clay halo
Surrounded by the broken
As the rain gently falls
These tears that I'm crying
Will fall upon your face
Gently, oh so coldly
My very last embrace
After my time has finished
And I am going home
I will wait for you
That we may be presented together
Through the silent passage
A step into Elysium
A skip past Nirvana
Through the doors of Valhalla
Pass through the havens grey
And unto the West
There you'll find me
On a white bench near a golden shore
Staring out into the world
Watching as time unravels
Unwinds before my eyes
A moment as a lifetime on earth
Limitless waves lap at my feet
And not a care to be found
Peace...
Stillness...
Just beginning to understand
Two small words:
I AM
Contentedly together
Beneath the world's grey band
As the silent stars go by
And the wind blows in my hand
Angels fall
Like shooting stars
The sky is scarlet
But swirls like a whirpool
It's various shades follow each other
Gently eddy into the vortex
Heavenly voices sing around me
Witnesses to a new age
The keys are now used
Gateways to the future
The horns sound together
As the past and future king
Comes unto His own
Wrapped in pure, silken white
But appears black
Compared to the light before me
A face as bright as the sun
And then I awake
And then I wait
I cannot think but of rain
And water slowly falls
Tears of the world
Or necessary drops
To replenish life
Yes, pain begets hope
Just as rain begets crop
Just as death begets life
Just as life begets death
The thunder rolls
And too the light
Great sound from great power
Testament to the past
Witness to god-like potency
They say that past sins cast long shadows
Like thunder from the lightning
First we see; long after we hear
And yet too I wish to be like lightning
Although my life be short
I wish to be heard long after
For we never truly die
Until we are forgotten
I never thought I would find myself here,
Balanced between eternity and the present; realizing that there is no difference in between them.
Death sits below me as I consider falling into its arms. At least death will embrace me.
At least death can look past my mask.
And so I jump.
Thousands of feet and years rush toward my limp body and then, cold and stillness; nothing more.
Or so I believed.
But I was wrong.