So tired of fighting
Don’t feel like writing
Here in the cold of the night
As I sit here and sit
With my head full of shit
That comes pouring straight out of my life
Like a weight full off lead
Would be better of dead
Cuz the cycle would finally end
No more picking up pieces
Blown up by releases
And things that I cannot defend
And I’m tired
Oh I’m tired
Of the way that I’m wired
And the sad state of what I’ve become
That I hide behind smiles
Hand crafted denials
Built to cover the things that I’ve done
But with every day comes
A more vast growing sum
That fills every night full of dread
So I sit here and sit
With my head full of shit
Here at the side of my bed
Have you ever come to the end of the day,
and can run the clock back play by play,
and can add it up that supposedly
it was the day it was suppose to be,
but somehow it seems that no time has gone
like a broken record playing on and on,
and you think back through all the things you’ve don
every day every deed bleeding into one,
and you can’t help but feel just a little fear
and hopelessness, cause it isn’t clear
what it’s all about, why you rise each day
fight the fights you fight, play the games you play
do the things you do, “Just what the hell for”
for you’ve done it all a thousand times before,
and could keep on going til the bitter end,
and you suppose you will but what purpose then
does it serve, and so your left with not
but to sigh and deal with what you’ve got,
and keep moving on, for you know what they say…
Tomorrow will be a whole new day
When life gives you lemons,
you'll pucker at first;
but after a while,
you'll become immune to the flavor.
Who knows,
you may even acquire a taste for them.
Feeling so exhausted,
As the hours were burdensome,
Squeezing all my dynamism,
Good heavens! My thoughts are not sad.
This is how as Frost said “life goes on”,
No matter how far the universe stretches its hands,
Time cannot be stopped by the sands,
Unless the One in proper moment makes Himself known.
But one thing is certain, tiredness like liveliness is natural,
Must we deal with it by stopping every yell.
The Attempted Escape
Bolting towards the open feilds trying to elude its grasp
Running wildly past the trees attempting to resist its painful clasp
Hoping it wont capture me as I race through the night
Carelessly leaving a trail; keeping me in its line of sight
Glancing back; seeing it is still on my tail
Realizing that it would take my mind and eventually prevail
Exhausted and now staggering, I cannot run anymore
Losing my will to resist, quickly hitting the dirt floor
My mind is now invaded and my thoughts now forgone
Being dragged back with it, failing to have pressed on