Goodbye dad

Anger is what I have for you my dad
Your anger you put on me I had
Anger is what you tricked me with
It’s all my fault you said, what a myth
Anger haunts my spirit of ghost past
Shadows of black they taunt so vast
Day light, moon night, a howling goon
No more shall you lurk your anger heirloom
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I’m all grown up now, John
Your title of dad is now gone
Your wish be granted, no daughter you have
Be happy your riches
Your monies your bitches
Wealthy you are and wealthy you’re not
Wealth defined by beholder of lot
I’ll see you in heaven
Maybe... maybe not...you heathen
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John Dear John, my dad of past
Goons of new moons have no more mast
On winds that once howled
Have now died without prowl
Memories of words from your chilly winds
No longer scream for I’ve made amends
Amends with you? Oh most surely not
Amends with the past, I’m now on top
If I’m now on top, then where are you?
You're not on your pedestal. Oh boo-hoo-hoo
John, oh Dear John, where shall you be?
You’re in that there throne where I shirley pee!

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I am 37 year old female who had decided that my new year’s resolution for 2011 I was to face my demons of past. I decided this since my demons were surfacing and I was having anxiety attacks. It turns out that my demons are so deep routed that I'm well into my second year of working on them, successfully! I kept flashing images of Scooby-Doo’s haunted mansion when I wrote this poem and it seemed so appropriate for my feelings. This poem allowed me to laugh at John (a.k.a. dad) and I now see him as a ghost in my past! I would like to thank my Reiki practioner for being my spiritual counselor and the book "The Healing Codes" for helping me to process my emotions and this website for letting me post. I have never written a poem before and what great therapy this was!

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SSmoothie's picture

i love the dear john letter idea

The break up c u later not renowned letter... You have really made your mark here and it was a great empargic ride this open is rich in feeling and cleverness I hope you heal soon, God bless you on your journey! Can't wait to read more! Cheers SS


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9inety's picture

well done,

yes poet, this is a very cathartic exercise as well as an art form...
and your words were as strong as your desire to cast away your past...
the past is prologue...
it is easier said than done...
so welcome to the worlds of the muse, may they hold wonderful moments, and words for you…

stay safe
be happy
peace
Dylan


"One of the best results of life, is the torment of love"

Dylan Eliot

Sunlight's picture

Thank you! I'm glad my words

Thank you! I'm glad my words were strong, that was important to me when I wrote it. I have to get back to work but I will make sure I read some of your poetry soon.