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I lost her

 

I yearn for you,

But we're, sitting in silence and im just trying to catch a word of your thoughts,

Are you thinking about me?

Do you even still think about me?

Brutal heartbreak, how much can one heart take,

You sleep naked infront of me and my eyes search your body for the scars that I left,

I want to, be inside of you and heal you from within,

I want to,

I want to bend you over and,

I want to, but,

I am not your enemy,

I am not your friend,

I'm everything I couldn't be for you,

And everything that I'm not, within.

 
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Forever my Taco

The Everlasting Sunshine After

The Everlasting Sunshine After

The sun is the light of my life
Shining so bright and so clear when
Even that I'm near. When I'm sad the
Sun is right near to say no matter where

It maybe she is always near
Just look to the heavens my dear and
Still pray because we will always be near you
Our son is hear with me thanks to God

I'm your sunshine he is your clouds so you see
My dear that is why we will always be near
Always look for me in the snow
White clouds shining and watch for your

Guiding angel

Sarah's Song : Laugh With Me

Sarah's Song: Laugh with Me

Did she wonder, as they wandered
Far away from all their kindred:

Why tell strangers we're not married ?
He said I am so fair to see

So could we lie, for his safety ?
He said his soul shall live because of me

Uncovered eyes make men bolder
Are we a chip on God's shoulder ?

Since God restrained me from bearing
My maid and I are wife-sharing

Once she conceived, she despised me
Judge between us. I made her flee

Now Abe sits in the tent door, seeing things
And I have to laugh at what I'm hearing

I hear that I shall have a son
My firstborn son, at ninety one

God made me laugh, for all to see
That all who hear will laugh with me

Ha-ha-ha, ha-ha-ha-laugh with me

Supernatural

inside my brain lest I refrain
lies a deep impulse to explode
the notion of love that comes from heaven above
I was given this gift as a child
with pad and pen & a need to pretend

hands, heart, face & smile
cause I knew all the while that in time I would shine
to feel the warmth on my face by the sun
the conquest at hand to have a bit of fun
although those many years would pass
I had every viable reason to grasp

therefore gain wisdom & with all thy getting gain understanding
a challenge to be set free was a question of time
I had to sit down & learn how to rhyme
of far off places with kings and queens
just another flavor of my favorite ice cream
I searched high in low to be found

inside I used to hide behind four walls in my mind
solitude...
why does one negate logic for fear ?
for I shed a single tear to help numb the inner pain
not having a good book in hand was driving me insane
Suddenly I found myself in the fast lane getting lost again

until the supernatural came in
now I could hold my breath & count to number ten
a beacon of hope to a hurting world in search of love
fallen from the heaven's from God above,
I fell in love with a unique craft of poetry
lost in sullen brevity amidst its extremities
finally came full circle to who I really am
just to know deep inside that God alone had a plan

THE END

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As I start my new life up here all alone,
Far away from anything I have ever known,
Things didnt work out the way I planned,
I had hoped you would be here holding my hand,
I never saw your eyes shed a tear,
As you packed your things and left me here,
I know you think I am not the one for you,
But my heart knows thats simply not true
You have been my life for the last two years,
The day you left I was holding back my tears,
Now that your gone,
I must some how carry on,
Dont be surprised if you cant stay away,
Because to the good Lord every day I pray,
For him to let your heart see,
How much you really love me.

ANOTHER GOODBYE

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Tomorrow we will be saying goodbye,
I havent been able to think about it much,
When I do it always makes me cry,
I will no longer get to feel your touch,
I know its something that has to be,
All I bring you is sadness and misery,
You have never really loved me,
Its really easy to see,
I just couldnt give up on you and me,
I know you tried but it wasnt meant to be,
If I had one wish that would come true,
I would wish for happiness for you,
I know you dont appreciate my emotions,
You dont like the way I love you,
But its all I have and all I know,
Thats why it is so hard for me to let go....

Hungry For Heaven

Hungry For Heaven

you struck a chord yet deep within
white lines that filtered through my brain
the lover in life is not the sinner
the less that you give your a taker

through the head of a small child learning to dream
coupled with the given ambiance of the moment
sincere promises made in the dark
will light the inner spark to where I'm destined to go

we seek for shelter among the wolves that howl
blind wolves desperately bleeding in the night
shadows block the sun in my search for fun
I'm hungry for heaven burning the midnight oil

take too long watching water to boil
dig much deeper then ever before
Dig much deeper then ever before

A willingness to explore the vast perpetual universe

For a cause of true brotherhood & togetherness.

One needs to capture the true essence of their youth.

Carve out time each day to meditate or pray.

Share your unique creativity to a hurting world in search of love

As a beacon of light to a much battered existence.

We need to break the amends answer the call.

Live in light of eternal implications to suffice.

We only get one chance at which to roll the dice.

The modern man does more then search through his Sunday morning newspaper

Sort of a caped crusader with the memory of Steve Jobs in tow.

To evoke creativity toward the mass populace.

Common courtesy by holding open the door for a neighbor

Searches for truth with all of his heart

This will light the inner spark to what he has been waiting for.

Search for the true riches that Christ has in store
an open door by which to humbly explore
the world, the lust of the flesh & pride of life
never relent to ever give up the fight !

The friend

You hurt me. More than anyone else could. You shattered my heart into so many pieces it'll never be the same again. You were the one I trusted most. You were the one I loved the most. You were the one I cared for more than anything. But guess you didn't think the same. Now all you've done is hurt me and I'm still giving you my all. You gave up on me, and I began to fall. You said forever and always. But guess that was a lie. Seems how you've just left me broken and to die. You're just letting everyone else tell me how it is. But you're not thinking of how much it's killing me. You betrayed me. And that's something I'll never forgive. You say I was never there for you. Just cause I didn't show it. But little did you know. I was always with you. I was on your side no matter what. But yet I was the one who wasn't there. I've had to get other people to tell you to text me back. Just because you wouldn't even pay me attention. But I guess that's okay because it's you doing it right?  I told you that I loved almost every single night. Guess that wasn't enough to have you hold on tight. Have fun with those news girls. Who fake being there for you. When they are over here talking shit. And I was the one who really cared for you. 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This poem was inspired by my best friend who hurt me in so many ways. 

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Andrea

(7 seconds) 7 seconds, she'll be back again,

My eyes wonder under moist eye-lids,

how long till she knows im here,

When she realizes I click my heels and disappear,

I want to be her homie, lover, friend,

I cant decide which one is more pleasing,

So I puff out my chest around her so she'll dismiss me,

Mind running rapid,

I hope she doesnt judge me for these things I cant control from happening,

Mellow soul, I want to grab her breast while shes in control,

On top of me, where I want her, in my dreams thats where she belongs,

I wish I could tell her this, and after she tells me shes in love too and we share a kiss,

But I'm too nervous to tell her how I feel,

So I watch it in my mind until it feels real.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Wrote this long ago for you. ENJOY