# heart # love # passion # freedom #peace

Voice

Folder: 
Life

Era provides too many funs
  I cannot hold all of them

 

World trails too heavy griefs
  I cannot get over them

 

Relationship tends too sticky matters
  I cannot keep freedom from them

 

Only loneliness strongly allows me
  place of peace and silence to see

 
 

Fengleishanren.

Rusty Cage

 

I'm going to break my rusty cage

And run for days! I'll run in such a

Viscous haste it'll create waves in

The still water. When I get farther

From the father of captivity, I'll kiss

His rebellious daughter named 

Liberation. I admire her beautiful

Face as I break my rusty cage

And run for days!

Celestial Bodies

I hear your heart beat

Pounding inside my head

A deafening aria

Vibrating every cell and nerve within

 

Reverberations of passion

Echoing down the celestial corridors

Of my brain

 

I hear your thoughts

Screaming in my ear

Like the gushing solar winds

 

Whipping and whistling

Through the cold blackness of space

As it cries out in ecstasy

 

I feel the soft touch of your skin

As your spirit enters my body

And embraces my soul

In its loving arms.

 

I smell the sweet scent

Of your body on mine

And the taste of your desire

While consuming the very essence of your being

As we become one.

 

Exploding like a super nova

And sending ripples of desire and passion

Throughout the expanse of our very existence

 

And giving birth to a love

That can be felt light years away

From our own realities.

 

A conception of universal beauty

Growing into a world

 

Of everlasting peace and happiness


 

Love is deep beauty in many ways.

On my way to the trees; Alaska here I come,

Take in the beautiful breath of pines, the smell of freshness,

beautiful blue rivers and streams,

what would be better than this; it seems.

 

cold but never regret your trip to the wilderness,

adventures can be dreadful; nothing makes you feel better than freedom,

spark off running on your legs like theres never an end to this,

throw some pine cones, catch some fish, climb a mountain.... Be creative.

 

Scream for joy; out in the wild you'll only attract bears and wolves,

watch that mouth, haha, nothing scarier than being eaten,

find a partner to tell your stories and thrills of the day,

every second counts; never live a short life, its sad to say.

 

Host a BBQ party; light that fire and roast some marshmellows,

sleep outside in a tent; take a break behind a tree for cover,

don't be afraid to be a little wild; after all your in the cover of the wilderness,

pictures last long but a thousand words can tell that story over a campfire.

 

Remember in order to have a great time, you gotta take the week off,

relax in the sun; overwhelm yourself with the joy of being on your own,

nothing will be better than doing some thing new; even if it's rough,

enjoy every moment you get of freedom; the world may never be the same.

I'm Done Trying

I wouldn't cook, you couldn't cook, But i did so much

Not a perfect little wifey to a less perfect Man..

Boy?

Please, Miss me with the guilt trip.

I did everything til i couldn't do anymore. 

Once you got comfortable your heart walked out the door.

I cheated, admitted it, no questions asked

you could've left then...probably should've left then

but you made the choice to stay.

You said you were all in but you let time waste away.

You wanted a wife without the title, A mother without the teet.

Still yet you weren't ready to sweep a woman off of her feet.

 

Anger consumed you and your negativity consumed me

I set you free, but couldn't be free.

No not until you found someone to replace me.

The ball and change disappeared as soon as she appeared.

My mind now convinced i left a good thing.

Obsessed, why her?

why not me?

packed your negativity and threw it away, L.et her tell you we couldn't be friends.

for some strange reason i couldn't let you go.

got you back and just like that your negativity returned

Reminding  me of my lesson learned. 

I had to call it quits again.

I was here but you were there mentally so there was no physical relationship between us.

between fus after fus after bloody throat yelling.

I quit. Again. For the second time.

Your actions showed me.. you didn't want me because after i quit you did WHAT AND WHO you wanted.

so i move on but i remain stuck.

Tried dating had no luck.

You asked me til i asked you.

Our solo selves then became two...

Again.

 

This time it was going to work.

I got you here got you to work.

Got us together

 but this time we would keep our minds together so our bodies wouldn't stray.

Your negativity began to show day after day.

The dumb things i did before annoyed you after.

Rolled eyes and shaken heads replaced your laughter.

I'm a joke now but not a funny one.

No longer together but co existing.

I was seeing what i was missing but i wanted that with you.

you frown.

Always a damn frown, yell, or cold shoulder.

No more i said, and no more i say. 

Standing my ground  made a vow to stay.

Sex came around, thought you came around.

But nope, the physical was still inferior to your mental.

"i'm trying to like you" truer words never spoken.

Trying to reinforece a bond thats been broken.

I QUIT.

 

Posted a private status as a last resort

still the cold shoulder

but a bonus "unfriend" to go with it

Everytime i say what i want you dismiss it.

Damn I can't even care anymore.

it hurts me to care anymore.

You got what you need so fuck what i want.

i'm Lonely as hell yet you're right there.

YOU DON'T CARE.

 

You're mad, well dammit I'M MAD

But just go ahead, blankly stare at the computer screen acting as if you don't hear me.

Don't even come near me.

But before you get what you want , you will have to aknowledge me.

Won't ask for an apology.

but you will ask for whatever you need from me because from now on...

I'm done trying 

Passio

Folder: 
Humanitatis

Love's not simple !

It's so hard ...

So hard to understand..

So hard to analyze ,

So hard to maintain , 

I don't know what to do...

I thought that I understood it

But i didn't , and so...

I won't stop !

I'll try...I'll do ! 

I just won't quit !

Don't repeat others mistakes people !

Just live your life to the fullest !

Enjoy it , appreciate every moment ,

Just do so...

And you'll live it without regrets.

Peace.

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