when he looks my way
my knees grow weak
when he holds my hand
i can not speak
when i cry
he cries with me
when i am with him
he makes me feel free
when he sleeps
i can only stare
and when he awakens
i am always there
when i am next to him
i feel so content
and when i am away
i think of him constant
when he kisses me
my heart fills with love
when he holds me
i feel like im in the heavens above
when i sit alone
i think of only him
and now i do believe...
i am falling in love with him
I know I've gotten over you,
When you decided to break free,
I tried to point the finger at him,
When the reason was actually me.
You went back to the old,
I got something new,
I healed myself together
Ready to get back into the crude
The old got tired,
The new got old,
Now we are both free,
Maybe I am,
Maybe again,
I an in love with thee
Its that warm rain
That makes it worth being in
But its that cold wind that makes you shiver
That turns reality back on again
How can that freedom and warmth
Be turned in to sheer bitterness
To be on this great high
Almost as good as a drug
But suddenly burnt out
Too much good turns bad
Love unspoken
But still present
Saying it is not permitted
Soon too far
Every time we say hello
It’s a step closer to saying goodbye
Holding on to what we have
Is no way to keep our lives in tact
What brings this to pieces
Is if someone peeks threw
Then there wont be time to say goodbye
Tough skin
Layers you say
But I have peeled more away
Then u would like to think
I have seen some rare things
That I wouldn’t dare to tell you about
In a long while
You bring out that smile
I know u don’t want to say goodbye
Or break my heart
More then what I seem
Actually getting under your skin
I have seen some parts
love deep within
I wont hurt you
you wont hurt me
I ask why weren’t we meant to be
Was it out of line, was I out of place?
I saw you coming and I lost it all,
All of the movies can't compare you for times like these,
I know it's just a matter of time and courage,
Cause it seems like you are always so far,
And I am just some kind of astronomer and you are my beautiful star,
But I've study you for some awhile now,
And think it's time you return to the ground.
Where we can get intimate and get close,
Fall in love and get married, who knows?
But I know you came to me and I'll never be the same,
The next step is to buy an apartment right out of town and I'll take your last name.
It will be perfect and life will be great,
Only thing left to do now is wait.
indecIsive chaos destroying,
let the words fLow,
overly fOrbidden,
Vacate the mind of them,
etched into the hEart.
Yielding to logic,
overcoming emOtion,
Must speak it.
You sit behind the instrument,
The notes of sound beating in,
As if to call me in with you,
Music to take me all away.
To which I say in the night;
Addiction you are giving now,
The silence threatens secure thought,
It is easy to fall with each,
And I could say--cannot say that.
Should fantasy take my own mind,
You should know the solution here;
That is, it should not this way--
But it is your grace and your mind--
To which I say in this night;
Captivation is what holds me:
Icy blue and slender figure,
All so desirable, but--
It is your ways of thought that holds.
Time spent without true desires,
Feelings that are ample to act,
What are we, but blank images?
We want a shared photograph--
To which I say all night--
Repeating in my head the word of--
The one thing I feel that is true--
And I should not speak any of--
And I could say that--I love you.
I like a boy,
Yes I do,
I like a boy,
Do you know who?
I will not tell,
This boy so true
He is so rare,
Has this given you a clue?
I like a boy,
Yes I do,
I like a boy,
And he is you ♥
A taste from your cup runneth over should taste of vinegar,
but I stick my mouth wide-open under the aquaDrip to taste instead...
the sweetest Kool-Aid sin to ever quench my misinterpreted thirst.
Whim, Whimsical, & Whimsicality
have conquered my tongue...captivating my speech to be in the language of Caprice,
thirst for an iniquity beyond our moral kindredship,
& salivate under after thoughts I dare not act on,
but dare so double dog dare my audacity of hidden passions
to dare you to act on me.
"What's your'z is mine & what's mine is your'z"
can only euphemise the symbiote that mixes my present state of settled w/your present state of not-so-settled.
Before I formally metchu, I ain't think too much of you...
When I began to think too much of you, a rare contingency allowed me to be a friend to you...
After being your friend became a major past-time for you,
I caged my inside rage that made me like you more than your friend was supposed to like you.
But time would pass & tell the tale of a night in which the chinstroke of your shoulder lean drew water from my eyes
& the strong snugness from your biceps held me in control of
a mind I was sho'll finna lose...
dayum...
only time & the outline of an October's night skyline could tell the tale of that night when my caged rage was set free
to leave me in the glare of street lights echoing your stare into the truth in my countenance
we both knew & understood.
you know...but I have to understand
that I cannot grant the figurative 3rd person permission
to kiss your literal 1st person lips in fear of
disrupting our pragmatic 2nd person approach to our relationship.
So, all I can do is continue to be the friend
that loves you in your face, but covets you behind your back for the deeper love well on its way to its fruition between us.
Natural, beautiful nature has taken a
step back to you & has not the power to
contain all the beauty which is locked
within you and which exudes from your
smile to the soulful light in your eyes.
Your look takes me to a place my words
have not yet traveled, entering boundaries
with new steps, marking a new path to you.
I cannot wrap my mind around what is within
my site, to think that such beauty is out
there, not just physically but to be able to
converse and for me to picture your words,
to bring life them to, as you do mine.
To constantly have you crossing my mind like
the infinity symbol, a non stop loop of you,
and only wondering of the infinite possibilities.
With all that lies in front of me, I know there
is more to discover, locked within you,
Wondering that if I blink, will you be there still?
but knowing that if you were a dream, that
your smile has burnt itself into my memories
along with maybe the smallest part of this mental
photo of you, a simple Hibiscus flower in the hair...