Did someone speak out my name?
I heard a sound of nothing,
yet whispers of beckoning
propel me forward.
I feel like I am blindly being led,
to glimpses of unsightly scenes,
yet my eyes take in,
all that surrounds me.
I'm mentally marking places,
so finding my way back will be simple,
even though, right now,
I'm lost.
A maze of confusion
points towards the direction
of a backwards one-way street-
and foolishly, I follow.
Street signs bent and twisted
give no inkling of where this is,
and even less,
of where it goes.
Had I breadcrumbs,
I'd drop them behind each step,
an indication of the hunger
that drives me onward.
But in such a starving state,
I crave the banquet
that may be ahead,
but may too, be already consumed.
So halfway there,
between now and forever,
I turn back, too afraid to tread,
where my feet have never touched.
This miserioux town
Is exactly what it seems
A void to swallow down
All our hopes and dreams
From corner to corner
As the lights are getting dim
Shards of this reality
Begin to dissipate again
So many nameless faces
Gathered on the streets
Lost inside their worlds
That only they can see
Between these moments
And the past I'm forced to see
I know there'll come a day
For you to rescue me
Take me to the city
Where nothing is at all
Take me to the world
Where angels dare not fall
Take me to the fires
That can burn life in me
Take me to your arms
That's where I want to be
As the sun sets grimly
Upon the souls of the lost
In this one horse town
That the world has forgot
Smiling faces in the dark
When they listen to the scene
Bound inside their own minds
Lost within their dreams
With the death of sorrow
In their faint white eyes
This miserioux continues
To distort them into lies
Another long day
That I'm forced to see
These never-ending walls
That block you from me
Take me to the city
Where nothing is at all
Take me to the world
Where angels dare not fall
Take me to the fires
That can burn life in me
Take me to your arms
That's where I want to be
Calling out to the sky
For their eyes to open wide
But the truth it is denied
As they live inside their lies
I can see the hurt
And I can feel the pain
But their strong facades
I just can not break
And so mine I hide
Not to add to it all
So inside my mind
I feel myself slowly fall
Becoming one of them
I'm lost to this town
But there's a part of me
That you have found
Take me to the city
Where nothing is at all
Take me to the world
Where angels dare not fall
Close your eyes
Take a deep breath
Pray for a moment
This will be the last day
That you haveto
go through this bull
Count to three
Hope it helps
take you through
It all agian
Count to five
Hope for someone
to save the day
hope for someone
to say thats that
count to eight
pray its not to late
to start over
and be happy again
count to ten
time to start agian
Accept me for who I am
or leave me where I stand.
This open wound will heal today.
I’ll leave you where you lay.
Leave me here, a bloody mess
you clean up the rest.
Take your gold, your ring, your kiss.
I’ll take with me this bliss.
Accept my thanks for what you gave
or leave it in the grave.
This hole in the ground is yours and mine.
I’ll leave with what I find.
Leave our love, a tangled heap
you have sown– now reap.
Take your crop, what you create.
I’ll take with me your hate.
Accept it now, the simple facts
or leave with what you lack.
This empty place inside your heart.
I’ll leave you torn apart.
Leave right now without a trace
you handle the mirror’s face.
Take your betrayal– let it be done.
I’ll take with me this freedom.
We all look to end up in a place
somewhere were we feel we belong
somewhere were people will like us
often times this place is but a myth
A myth that many of us go through life
endlessly trying to reach
some tend to feel it will be found through knowledge
4 years and you are free
4 years and you can dream
for many though these 4 years are nothing more
than part of the journey
a journey that goes far beyond accelades and praise
these years are not for purposes of gaining status
Most believe it is to find out the puzzle of their lives
The puzzle often times does not lead to a completion
It is within the struggle of self, others and society
that this puzzle is to be solved
there is no time limit on this journey
for it is different for everyone
the key is to follow along the trails and enjoy
For getting somewhere is not as important as the travel
A travel that for some makes life worth living
Inside my soul is bleeding,
tears stream down my face.
I'm so incredibly lost,
and yet I still feel.
There is this amazing love,
burning deep inside my soul.
These dreams that fill
my every night with ease.
But there is also this toture,
that leaves my heart broken.
Also these memories inside,
that bring out my tears.
But again this feeling,
that could be nothing but love.
It puts the pieces back together
everytime I crumble.
Still ripping me apart.
Still keeping me together.
Drowning my broken soul.
Saving my life.
A life spent in loneliness,
A family that didn’t care.
Endless nights spent in pain,
Living with people who couldn’t share.
Eight years of my life I spent,
Void of feeling and love.
I spent too many nights on my knees,
Praying to those above.
My prayers finally answered,
As I quietly worked away my time.
A man and woman walked through the door,
Finally a family I could call mine.
Ten years have passed,
Since that day has past.
The love of my family is always with me,
A love that will always last.
I’m awaiting my life to move forward,
A new chapter to begin.
I’ll change things all around,
Both outside and within!
Life throws you through spirals,
When new things come around.
When the question presents itself,
Which choice will be found?
I have decisions to make,
Which choice is the wrong one.
If I choose Yes,
Will my life till now be wrong?
The decision to make is mine alone,
I soon will make my choice.
I will give my answer proudly,
Declared in my own voice.
I will not feel remorse,
For a decision I have made.
The family I have now,
Is something I will never trade.
I stand here looking out at my future
I am frozen
Unable to move from this spot
All of my friends are rushing by
I see their brilliant smiles
I hear their twinkling laughter
My heart skips a beat
"What if I fail?" I ask myself
My fear paralyzes me
I can't breathe
Tears start to run down my cheeks
Yet no one else sees this
They keep on running, smiling, laughing.
Why can't I be like them?
Why do I freeze?
I want to yell "Stop!"
"Help me! Wait for me!"
Now they are almost gone
I stand alone
Sobbing
Wishing I had found the courage to run
Wondering if I ever will
She gives a grin, a smile, a dimple in her cheek when she's decieved
Back in your world, I gotta pick a part lies
Oh GOD I hope my heart dies
Staring in your dark eyes, I ... I wouldn't have believed
Tears could go on for days, I just don't know how you're still around here
No one stonger to help me out of here, I gotta feeling i'm putting down near
Where your eyes can hear
Simple words to say, she's out on a limb on her way
No sorry from her; no pretending to stay
Before the last time passes, I want to yell come back
And wipe the black mascara off her eye lashes
But it just keeps running away
Since you've found your love, after your heart belonged to some
Don't set your eyes back on me
After a while i'll close my brown eyes
And in the outcome i'll find a different way to see
He hurt her heart before, having it as hard as she had
This time is pretty bad staring at her walking out the back door
And I just can't go on calling this life any more
She said just let me leave
Before you see the tears show you I'm defenseless to your face.
I just can't believe
I called this life for so many days
It all doesn't seem so right like that
But her bags are packed... and...
Before the last time passes, I want to yell come back
And wipe the black mascara off her eye lashes
But it just keeps running away