What happens without speech

Inside My head

Sometimes I feel alone
Where there's never a place to run
Because all I've sewn
is a life of ironic pun

I see you walking and say hello
You reply with the same
But I wonder if you'll ever know
That friendship isn't just a name

It's not all about me
I just want to make you feel happy
But, know that it's me
and not someone who doesn't care

Sometimes I feel alone
and you sit smiling having fun
I watch and wait to be known
But you don't see me. You Run.

Maybe it IS about me
I'm not who I am supposed to be
so how do I change me?
When I'm all alone?

Inside my head
I know that you feel the same
and you also feel much blame
that you too, dread.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I'm feeling very alone. But all my friends at school don't seem to see that a new kid who's a senior might be feeling like he doesn't belong. At my old school it was different. I could hug all my friends, and feel the comfort of friendship physically. But at my new school, it's too hard, and all the wrong people want my hug. Maybe I'm just too focused on myself. How do I lose myself in service to others? How to I be happy by making you happy?