No sé que hacer en este mundo de estupidos e imbéciles. Sي se ofenden por decir esto es porque ustedes lo creen. Yo no creo estar aquي por estar aquي. Vine acambiarlos a todos. Pueden decir que loca estoy. Sي quieren tomarlo como opiniَn. mi vida no es un paraiso. No tengo dinero ni amor. Lo unico que tengo ahorita y me sastifece es mi salud. Por eso a Dios gracias le doy. No me estoy quejando, solo se que es mi realidad y lo estoy aguantando. Muchas veces digo, lo digo con mis razones aunque al mismo tiempo agradecida estoy. Lo siento por maldecir, pero no se que mas decir.
Maldita sea haber nacido.
maldita sea todavia no llega el fin, tanto lo espero con ancias que me desespero.
Maldita sea agradable no fue mi infancia.
Talvez mi vida se compare con la de un perro. Aquellos que se ofenden porque su vida es de hermosas cosas es mejor que no escuchen, vean o lean esto. No sea que su vida solo sea un sueٌo, y de repente se despierten y se encuentren en un infierno.
Ahi sabran porque soy asي. Soy positiva, pero mas negativa. Espero que su vida se no sea igual o peor que la mia. espero que no digan lo que digo acerca de la vida.
Maldita sea, que vivo.
Malditas sea, la jente es ignorante y desinteresada. Cual es en un problema de la raza humana.
Maldita sea, nacï aquي sin haber pedido.
Maldita sea, mi adolesencia no son mis aٌos mas lindos.
Maldita sea, las personas no saben que violencia llama mas violencia.
No es necesario que analizen esto. No es obligatorio ser una persona ordinaria. No entiendo porque hay personas que no entienden nada, cuando lo entienden, lo entienden mal y salen lastimadas. Ya no se que pensar, si mi mundo en el que estoy de oscuridad se esta rodeando. Ya el problema desaparecera.
maldita sea, no sé si podre ayudar a este mundo a cambiar.
"Bittersweet" 1 - 6 - 03
p.s.- i wrote this high thinknin about relationships, no one in particular, fyi. tell me whatcha think about the commenting/author interpretation of each stanza -- keep in mind, this is my interpretation/meaning and you are still entitled to your own interpretation/relation to yourself. enjoy and thanks for your time :)
as i'm walkin on the beach
i see a starfield sky
to the stars i wish to reach
to be lost again in your eye
toss myself among the jewels
drift upon your ocean of lies
it is comfort even with the cruels
of these currents and the tides
--the first stanza expresses the loneliness of the one with the many, how he focuses on the one, while ignoring the rest of his life--
lost, lost, lost all alone
left with no guide or hope
seems this night would never end
left always below your sight
thought i could never move on
always stuck under your eyes
but it's when i'm down and gone
that i see right through your guise
--2nd stanza relates how he feels when he sees the true side of his partner, that she is 'feeding' off him and holding him back (this is his own paranoia, too, keep this in mind)
you're an evil, yes you are
never let me drift that far
but now that i know who you are
i won't let you take my star
--same as second but now he's fighting back--
as i move break free of you
it is now that you show true
i know i wil never forget you
but leave you behind is what i'll do
--him moving on with his life--
break out scream and moan
i'm out on my way home
it is this beach that i roam
the place where i'm all alone
--he follows through with the break-up and experiences the pain and depression of his new found freedom--
now you are left upon the beach
all your dreams are out of reach
as your life flows through the breach
twitchy belly
sickened by gluttony
abdominal tic
watch for an abrupt switch
quite an atmospheric prick
bringing one to petulance
dangling a lungful of air
able to kill in a swirl
until the whiff of reek ebb
‘till then I shall breathe again
i’m not guilty, so don’t look at me
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A LIVING GRAVE
Is it my mind frame/
or the capitalistic game/
that has me chasing fame/
from a broken soul train/
It's like running up hill/
On ice, slip it's down hill/
desparation, and false desires/
have me wired/
To the America dream/
a nice crib and Ice cream/
College education and visions/
my ignornace keeps it hidden/
Cause they see brown/
they want me down/
embetted in me/
the losing concept/
A living grave is where I'm Kept
A living Grave
Come away,
As Tomorrow,
We may forget,
And You alone,
Shall Remember.
Going somewhere,
but not knowing where you're going.
Seeing a light,
but not knowing what is there.
Wandering just wandering.
You don't know why you are going.
You don't care why.
ll you know is you feel peace
at the light.
The light gives you warmth,hope, and peace.
That is where you should go.
Then why do you go the other way?
Saw two pennies o'erlapped under pond
under fish undertow
Like all the riches under vaults
the papacy drowned in time
We reap from this the memory
of struggle creating
Formless meaning as the bottom-line
and reason flee the inquisition
Our esteemed leaders are re-written
where they were once base
Now so lauded in song we dance and
praise unleashed bloodshed
Took two pennies one for each of love's
eyes and counted them twice
Forests breathe in and ount and in time
are clouded and cut out
The fish are swimming upstream the
thin rocks aren't telling them
Upstream isn't any more the dam makers
have put in their two pennies worth
The walk takes thirteen days
Through December mountains
To a resting place
Away from one's fellow man
A commanding view
Of the millenial sunset
A hilltop for eternity
The world explodes
A shocking moment for mankind
On our mountains
We're too busy living to notice
The walk takes thirteen days
After January madness
To a meeting place
A gathering under firelight
Singing songs of history
Until another millenial sunrise