Life
A hand full of air
My Baby Steps
Retrospective Recollection
I miss the way you told me
I would never live up to anything
I miss the way you'd scold me
For whenever my dreams began breathing
I miss the screaming in my ears/ I miss the shouting in my face
And all the painful years/ and all the dreadful days
Of living life in fear/ of living through the hate
I miss those days (chorus)
I miss the way you held me
Squeezing my chest just a little too tight
Oh, how you would expel me
Pulling me down before I got too high
I miss the screaming in my ears/ I miss the shouting in my face
And all the painful years/ and all the dreadful days
Of living life in fear/ of living through the hate
I miss those days
I miss the stupid games we used to play
It's funny how time separates us so far away
I wish it could go back the way things used to be
But it won't last a day
I miss those days
12-29-22
December
-Remember
It's December
It's the happiest time of the year
It's December
But in this frozen heart there's no cheer- (chorus)
Let it snow til I'm covered from head to toe
Let the sun go down before I can get home
Just remember it's December
Let the leaves turn brown as they rot on the ground
Let the night black out everything that's around
Just remember it's December
Remember
It's December
It's the happiest time of the year
Its December
But in this frozen heart there's no cheer
It's so cold
Why do I feel so alone?
That's when I
Remember
It's December
It's the happiest time of the year
It's December
Cause in this frozen heart there's no cheer
In this frozen heart there's no cheer
12-20-22
So Many Ways to Die
There are so many ways to die
Maybe it will be on a hot sunny day
Maybe it will be when I'm weathered and grey
Maybe it will be from a car accident
That I didn't see coming from a mile away
Or maybe it will come for me in my sleep
Maybe it will leave me lost in a dream
Maybe it will be from sickness and disease
That will take me down, bring me to my knees
And I may never know just how it all goes down
It's like a bullet to the head/ A knife right through the chest
There are just so many ways to die
It's like a noose around your neck/ A fatal heart attack
There are just so many ways to die
So many ways to die
Maybe it will happen in the freezing night
Maybe it will derive from a homicide
Maybe there won't be any signs of a fight
And it will go down by way of suicide
And I may never know just how it all plays out
It's like a bullet to the head/ A knife right through the chest
There are just so many ways to die
It's like a noose around your neck/ A fatal heart attack
There are just so many ways to die
So many ways to die
And no one really knows how their story fades out
It's like a bullet to the head/ A knife right through the chest
There are just so many ways to die
It's like a noose around your neck/ A fatal heart attack
There are just so many ways to die
So many ways to die
11/23/21
Inside My Head
Empty thoughts
Things unsaid
Empty soul
Left for dead
Broken hearts
Crooked smile
Broken bones
In denial
I just keep telling myself... it's all inside my head
Never thought
I'd be ok
Without you here
Every day
I just keep telling myself... it's all inside my head
Vacant thoughts
Never said
Withered soul
Still not dead
I just keep telling myself... it's all inside my head
It's all inside my head
It's all inside my head
12-2-22