the world is not world
but ordinary word
where the agony pains the mind
that memory picks and drop
fact the brutality raids around
by the meaningless wins the drap
with backless shapes the siege
we children cry and laugh
from the mounted dart the egg
to the populous rolls rough
we can not call the future
with passable and fluent
just only the stammering
calling the father
and mother with moulder
the world is tired
we busy
When it came to Lindsay Lohan, I once believed in her.
I was dead wrong when I thought she could be a winner.
I wrote to her and offered her friendship when she was going through hard times.
I used to think she was the greatest but now I think she's slime.
I wrote her several times and sent her two gifts and I didn't even get a thank you note.
If I had it to do over again, I wouldn't have sent her the letters that I wrote.
She ignored me and she doesn't deserve the fame that she's got.
I used to route for her but now as far as I'm concerned, she can rot.
Where are you?
I looked in your eyes but you weren't there
you were in a different world
only partly existing in this world
all of a sudden the person you were was gone
all your smiles were wiped away like dust
all your laughs disappeared to only an echo
Where have you gone?
you used to talk to me and greet me with a "hello"
now you don't even realize I'm in the same room
you used to make eye contact with people
now your eyes dance around wildly never staying in one spot
your face is blank and emotionless
I see nothing in your eyes anymore
you used to be social and have conversations
now you ramble about whatever comes to your mind
Who are you talking to?
You are talking to no one the rest of us can hear or see
deep in conversation with your voices in your head
You used to have it all together
now you are so drugged up that you can hardly walk or talk
I tried to reach you and pull you back to reality
but you didn't even hear me speak
it breaks my heart to see you like this
you were such a great person and I don't understand
why this had to happen to you
and why the person you were before had to disappear
you didn't deserve this and it seems so unfair to me
that you have been pulled from this world
to the other world inside of your head
it's almost like who you were before died
and every time I think about this I cry
Where are you?
I would lose myself to find you again....
I come out and tell you
I have to tell you something
Of big importance;
You say you don't
Want to hear of it-
I come out and tell you
Who I am-
What I am.
But of course you
Don't understand-
Why don't you understand?
Will you ever listen-ever understand?
You finally decide
To turn me
Into a person
I am not.
I keep on telling you
And explaining-
But you keep talking
Over me about it-
And it's as if
I was put on "mute".
I keep pleading
For you to quit
Your attempts
In trying to
Turn me into
Being who I am not.
But it doesn't
Seem to matter to you.
You don't understand
What I feel everyday-
And why should you care?
I keep telling you
To quit trying
To force me into
Being straight,
To give up
Being a lesbian-
To quit being me.
I refuse to be straight.
I'm more attracted to females.
You don't understand-
You can't say that you're homophobic
With a serious tone.
If you keep trying to
Hook me up with a male-
I will run away-
And I won't listen to you.
Why can't you just stop
And understand?
Why can't you stop
And think
Of what you're doing?
Couldn't you just
Let it all go?
As I sit and think-
The only thing that
Comes to my mind
Is how bad you're
Causing me to feel.
I feel I can't
Live in the same house
As a person with homophobia.
I just can't.
What has become of you
And what have you done
Your life is drained through your greed that’s your demise
Yourself is so precious
What of it that’s left
You don’t realize who was there in a time of need
I’m on my last leg, and you, burned me twice
I’m not there, and you don’t seem to even care
You can’t stand the pain
But you have no idea
How can you understand
When you don’t even think of me
Since I’ve been gone
I have little to offer
Now you have nothing to do with me
When I come home
You’ll think it’s the same
You’ve had your chance to do what’s truly right
I’m on my last leg, and you, burned me twice
I’m not there, and you don’t seem to even care
You can’t stand the pain
But you have no idea
How can you understand
When you don’t even think of me
Run. Lie. Hide.
Run and eat your words
I may be blond
I may have Blue Eyes
I may be Some what tall
And have a greater Boob size
But for one thing I'm not
Is stupid for i long that i not
Yeah i get made fun of when i try to talk
And some times it might not come out right
But i am for sure not Dumb
I am what i am and not who i am not
I am a girl Who will get down and dirty
to play with the dogs
I am a girl who can be loved by all
I am not another Paris Hilton
or a Nichol Richie
I love all and Loved by most
Some hate me and some love me
I don’t care whether you love or hate
I only care is that you don’t spread romours
that may wreck me down to My last piece
Some have already made my life a living hell
and yet some may think i am dumb for making
such a disgraceful none poetic poem
but i don’t care
so you can kiss my [censored]
in these lovers eyes do you see the tears they cry?is it finally over,or will they be alright?vains filled with pain.their eyes are windows pouring down with rain.staring at each other hard mad about their lies.is there a reason to love behind the tears they cry?she's tired of his cheating,and he's tired of getting caught.should he leave alone,or take back all the things he bought?
so was it worth her time,all that havin' his back?she cooked,she cleaned,paid for his Cadillac.bailed him out of jail ,even took a charge or two.now she's wondering,"was it all worth lovin' you."
she cheated and decieved too.nothing is ever one sided.she slept with his cousin and didn't try to hide it.so now they're here wondering and deciding the future.she trying to figure out why he don't touch her like he used to.maybe his touch is soaked in another womans skin.maybe the passion ain't like it was then.so she figured his family had this touch in their genes.why else would she put cuz' into the scene?so they go on and tears they try to hide.now what do they do?what do they decide?
i open my arms to you and you slit my wrist.i never wanted a love like this.a love so false and full of deciet.i am determined to not let this defeat me.i bend over backwards and and you kick under feet.i break my neck and you stab my back.how could i trust someone like that?you said forever just me and you.i stuck to the plan and what did you do?you lie and decieve.cheat and put me down.life would be better if you weren't around.you take my kindness for weakness and try to play me weak.i don't ask for anything and you call me a trick for cheap.people say i'm stupid for supporting you.i stand up for you and what do you do?tell them you got it like that. you say if i leave i'll be back.so others see me as a fool but they don't understand.i thought you was 100,i thought you was a real man.so my love is mistaken for something false.people laugh and your the cause.i'm glad i found out what your really about.less like a soilder,more like a boyscout.your the deciever,and i was the victim.but when people ask i say,"i'm no longer with him."
inside of me,
there is hatred for you.
it burns like fire as it courses
through my veins,
tainting my blood stream.
it is a silent scream,
an ache in every
single heart beat.
it pours out when i am cut,
when i am hurt,
when i am angry.
it lacks the copper taste and
staining color of blood,
but it is there.
in every word spoken,
it reminds me of what you did.
not with words,
not with actions,
but with your corruptive mind.
the words you ensnared me with,
the lies you fed to keep me calm,
and the promises you never kept.
inside of me,
there is an empty space.
a space that was once filled,
with smiles and treasured moments,
and kisses and a mental image
of a heart.
but you couldn't stand that.
you hollowed it out,
you hollowed me out.
carved me like a wooden ship,
and then you plunged that ship into the water,
pushing it forward,
urging it to disrupt the serene waters that lay beneath it,
until there were tidal waves and hurricanes.
in your wake you left emptiness and despair.
and now that is all i know.