Always living in fear!

Always living in fear!

Some people are born happy with not one ounce of strife

And then there is me with my nightmare of a life

I was born to loving parents so that was very clear

But I’m tired of the hurt and always living in fear

It started when I was ten and felt there was no hope

 The evil that I went thru led me to down a slippery slope

And the bullying in school made me want to end it all

So cruel is this world I still feel like a marionette doll

Events in my life were pulling my strings year after year

But I’m tired of the heartache of always living in fear

I got married to a monster that promised me true love

But that turned into a nightmare to which I was so sick of

From there life’s felt like a burden and I cried a river of my tears

Still I keep on moving on with a hope I will stop living in fear

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is another of the fear inside me that I'm still working on!

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Morningglory's picture

Me too

Fear is a tough one. I too battle so hard with it. Recollections of the sensation root back to childhood for sure. On some level I had forgotten or burried the ridicule. I remember kids being mean and embarassing me. But I have mostly blocked the incidents. I hadn't really thought to dig into that part of my psyche to attempt a self healing. Hmmm. Perhaps that would help.

 

It sure is quite a journey to pull out of the kind of thinking that leads us to our depression. Your work got me thinking a bit. I got sooo much work to keep doing. Gotta clear the blocks that are blocking it up. 


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zoeycup16's picture

yes it sure is quite hard to

yes it sure is quite hard to just do something as simple as putting one foot in front of the other, and its a life time battle to just keep going but we can do it, zoeycup16

fuche_bu's picture

It's healthy to confront

It's healthy to confront fear.  We are all afraid sometimes.  This will help make you stronger.

zoeycup16's picture

absolutely it has made me a

absolutely it has made me a bit stronger, im a work in progress and im determined to get back to where i was and not let my past define me, hard work thou!!! zoeycup16